5th Shot [Anon/Text]

[carrythesin]

Sorry, going anon for this.

Where to start. We all come from different places and lived differently. All of us had something gained and loss, cause that was life, right? When you look back and see yourself who you were before to now, do you see a different person? Or the same one? It's kinda strange when you compare it. I'm sure a lot of us had changed because this world, in a way, it either helped a lot or maybe...

Where I'm from, there was something I was good at and did it cause that's how I lived. It's complicated but I guess that's the world I grew up with. That talent was killing people. It was a job and a skill. Thanks to life, I was allowed to experience one side of the coin. I was used to walking in the shadows, never had I felt alive when I walked in the light.

Coming here, it was a fresh start. Different, in a good way. I know some of us are anxious to go home, thought I share my part. Even if it's strange and can be crazy at times, I'm happy that I'm here. I can try other things here, be someone else for a little bit, or maybe be myself without having to kill. I know, it sound strange but I like to shout a thought out.

Comments

Not anon because eh / text

[bigbadrose]

I'm glad you found your freedom. :)

anon text;

[gamerrep]

I'm glad there are others that are happy to be here, although for slightly different reasons to myself.

what is anon

[stillsmiling]

I'm enjoying my fresh start too.

I don't know if I want to go home. I don't have anything there waiting for me, except being hated.

anon text;

[misalignment]

I do hope you stay happy.

What if you don't know how to start over? How to be yourself, because you weren't anyone outside of the job? Just the masks you wore and the mission. Without all that, I find myself left with a relatively blank canvas. It's quite the conundrum. Would you have any advice?

anon/text forever!

[carrythesin]

Thank you? :)

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

different reasons?

Anontext foreverrrr

[carrythesin]

[Oh Shi.]

Why are you hated? If mind me asking.

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

Actually, that was not an issue for me. I am still myself. So I don't have an advice to give, sorry.

anon text;

[misalignment]

Really. You never lied about yourself with a killing career?

How lucky for you. Being able to simply revert back to a happier version of yourself like nothing ever happened. I wonder if you're simply incapable of feeling an ounce of guilt for your actions? Happiness would be easier to obtain if your problems were never exactly problems in the first place, right?

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

[Well then, someone is doing a good job going under her skin.]

Are you looking for advice anon? Or maybe something else?

anon text;

[misalignment]

It doesn't really matter anymore. I thought I found something of a kindred spirit who had achieved something thought impossible.

Can I ask you a question? Did you ever have an opportunity to stop before?

anon text;

[carrythesin]

You believe you and I are the same? Are you an assassin, or maybe a killer?

Stop myself from hesitation? No.

anon text;

[misalignment]

No. We're not the same.

Stop yourself from going down the path you did, I mean.

anon text;

[carrythesin]

[Strikes not there.]

No.

...Actually, I don't know.

I rather not answer that.

anon text;

[misalignment]

I thought as much. The truth can be frightening.

anon text;

[gamerrep]

Yes, though one reason of important friends or loved ones is another reason for me, my main reason is simply because I have nowhere to go back to, home wise.

[stillsmiling]

I represent a lot of terrible stuff to the people back home.

It's okay. I think now, I'm starting to realize

if they got to know me, then I think people wouldn't hate me.

So it doesn't hurt as much.

[carrythesin]

Represent?

Yeah. But still, it sounds lonely.

anon text;

[carrythesin]

You died?

anon text;

[carrythesin]

The truth can be a lot of things.

And what about yourself, anon?

[stillsmiling]

Mm. I'm a Kami.

People get to blame their misfortune on me... eheh.

And then I just end up making it worse.

anon text;

[gamerrep]

Back home, yes.

[carrythesin]

A God of misfortune?

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

Sorry to hear that.

I don't really have a reason to go back. If anything, the Dream Docks are enough, I guess.

[stillsmiling]

Something like that...

Sorry. That must be weird. And scary?

anon text;

[gamerrep]

Dream Docks are the reason I found out what happened to me.

Nothing could have been done to help me either I don't think. So you don't really need to say sorry for something that was going to happen.

I just have faith that things will be okay back home, even if I can no longer go back.

But looks like we both have made a new home here, right?

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

Yeah, I guess.

Even if I go back, it's only temporary. So, between here and the other world which is suppose to be my home, this one feels more home to me, if it makes any sense.

[carrythesin]

Not really. No.

anon text;

[gamerrep]

I think it makes sense. it's like where you feel most comfortable.

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

Yeah, like that.

anon text;

[gamerrep]

While I miss my friends who are still back home. This place feels comfortable for me as well because I am making new friends as well.

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

How do you make friends here?

anon text;

[gamerrep]

Well I just talk to people either on the network or if I bump into anyone in person.

Though I would to start doing more activity days or something and make friends through common interests.

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

What if you can't find a common interest?

anon text;

[gamerrep]

Then that's when you can try new things and maybe discover something.

Re: anon text;

[carrythesin]

Think I'll try that. Thank you, anon.

Re: anon text;

[gamerrep]

You're welcome. I hope it helps.