Zhe kind zhat vants to start a var und take out zhe opponent's main veapon early.
[That's what kind of 'dickshit moron' that lead her battalion. Which she had known from the start, but, she was a little too focused on her own reasons for being there to realize and accept that she would die for her mission. Rip had been under the impression that she could change her fate and survive, prove herself worthy of notice and to be the best she could.
As for what he asked? Rip nodded slightly and just leaned against him, resting her head against his chest and closing her eyes just to listen for his heart beat.]
Yes. I am under no illusions zhat trusting people could end to my death..again. It did a few times in Ruby City already. Zhough, I recognize zhat you, Marco or Grell vould not do it purposely.
But, you haf to alzo understand, I joined both vars villingly. I helped to slaughter more people zhan I care to count und do not regret it und vould probably follow my orders zhe same vay I did before vithout fail, even vith zhe resulting trauma und nightmares.
How can I ever regret doing zomething I enjoy? Zhe bloodshed, zhe screaming...Everything zhat made me feel alive az I carried out parts of my missions und killed my targets.
[And where her mood had been fearful before, it suddenly shifted to something a little more relaxed and slightly happy discussing murder. Being with Millennium for so long miiight have messed with her more than some realized and being alone in Ruby City didn't help.]
It's zhat thrill I chase vhen I hunt vhether it's humans or animals. Zhe result iz always the same.. the instinctive jolt of pride proving you're stronger.. zhat you deserve to live!
[And then that happiness faded a little.]
...Und zhen getting out of control und killing people vith more powerful friends. Zhat iz vat usually kills me. Haz killed me twice since my original death.
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[That's what kind of 'dickshit moron' that lead her battalion. Which she had known from the start, but, she was a little too focused on her own reasons for being there to realize and accept that she would die for her mission. Rip had been under the impression that she could change her fate and survive, prove herself worthy of notice and to be the best she could.
As for what he asked? Rip nodded slightly and just leaned against him, resting her head against his chest and closing her eyes just to listen for his heart beat.]
Yes. I am under no illusions zhat trusting people could end to my death..again. It did a few times in Ruby City already. Zhough, I recognize zhat you, Marco or Grell vould not do it purposely.
But, you haf to alzo understand, I joined both vars villingly. I helped to slaughter more people zhan I care to count und do not regret it und vould probably follow my orders zhe same vay I did before vithout fail, even vith zhe resulting trauma und nightmares.
How can I ever regret doing zomething I enjoy? Zhe bloodshed, zhe screaming...Everything zhat made me feel alive az I carried out parts of my missions und killed my targets.
[And where her mood had been fearful before, it suddenly shifted to something a little more relaxed and slightly happy discussing murder. Being with Millennium for so long miiight have messed with her more than some realized and being alone in Ruby City didn't help.]
It's zhat thrill I chase vhen I hunt vhether it's humans or animals. Zhe result iz always the same.. the instinctive jolt of pride proving you're stronger.. zhat you deserve to live!
[And then that happiness faded a little.]
...Und zhen getting out of control und killing people vith more powerful friends. Zhat iz vat usually kills me. Haz killed me twice since my original death.
I alvays fuck up somehow und die.