Putting yourself through all that--obviously you've had to be very brave to keep going if it scared you that much--just to prepare yourself to help people? Of course it's considerate, how many people d'you think do that?

Yeah, sure, didn't go to plan, but in a thousand years of space and time, I haven't met that many plans that went like they were supposed to, you get used to it, just do like I do, when a plan goes wrong, look for the bright side and pretend that's what you were after in the first place, you get the same results and spend a lot less time worrying about whatever you were expecting.