[ He feels tired of being kept in the shadows, of not being trusted despite he tries hard to not act as a member of the Shinsengumi but only as Souji... of knowing more than necessary about the destiny of his own class only because he was prying enough instead of restraining himself from reading Tomoe's journal.

What an idiot he was. ]

How would I believe you!? [ Still on the defensive. ] I'm Souji Okita, First Captain of the Shinsengumi.