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You'll hear me saying quietly...

Who: Blake Belladonna // OPEN
What: Aftermath of Halloween / Random stuff
When: Nov. 5th
Where: Library

She was more than happy to take the night shifts and work overtime with no pay if it meant staying out of her apartment for a few days. The Halloween Party had been something she partly wanted to forget but partly had to remember because of how she acted. She knew it was a bad idea to go there...

The diamond she had randomly stolen, she returned to the shop keeper early the next morning while sticking around to help clean up and restore displays to their proper glory. It was the least she could do and from there, took the kind of woman out for a breakfast. Thankfully no malice seemed to be held but she still felt rather horrible.

The rest of the day was spent in the library, then the night, then the day again. She'd see Neptune here and there but never told him she was doing over time work. It was easy to find a place to shower and get ready for the next day on the job, wearing her work clothes. At least she found some good books to lose herself in.

Usually it was the later nights that would take their toll on her mind. Worry, guilt and anger at herself kept running rampant nearly forming headaches. She would sigh and hold her head with a small groan at herself for acting rather stupidly on Halloween night.

Sun probably thought she was a weirdo and it wasn't even clear what they were exactly to one another. They had a confession, made a large leap forward in intimacy, but- was she too eager with that? She still felt just as strong for Sun as before but who knew if he felt the same.

Yang seemed to enjoy doing her own thing, which wasn't a bad thing at all. They just hadn't seen in a while or spoke.

Weiss was pissed at her, from before the party Adam had slipped and told Blake that he was training Weiss after Adam and Blake had their conversation in the forest... Of course. The real princess, the one everyone loved at Beacon would be just the same in this- odd world. Of course Weiss would be able to calm Adam or make Sun happy or do whatever so effortlessly while Blake had to watch her step, be looked at with skepticism, and would just be too awkward to be around. Nope, she'd never be half the person Weiss would be and eventually she'd accept it as being her own person.

Another groan and she thumped her head on the desk, annoyed at herself but also- a little annoyed that Neptune was probably flirting with the rest of the staff while she had a mountain of books to re-catalog and put back in their place. Well, better get started on that.

At least it was a nice distraction.

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[ Despite that Blake seemed to think that the library was a safe haven from dealing with the rest of her team, certain parts of her team most definitely tried to keep up on at least trying to do research. This world was different than Remnant, there was a lot to learn about and Weiss's current exploits were learning about different fairy tales. After all, fairy tales said a lot about cultures.

And Weiss knew that something had to have been up on Halloween, considering she shouldn't have been able to firebend but she most definitely remembered using a lot more flame than she'd put Dust in her nails. But for the most part her attitude hadn't changed too much. She was still an easily frustrated and annoyed, somewhat spoiled brat she just happened to be.. much more stubborn than before, which made her question if Blake had really meant what she'd said. Her past with the White Fang would've supported it, as much as she didn't want to believe it.

Regardless of what she thought of Blake right now, she didn't know Blake's schedule and with Blake not really coming home regularly.. it was hard to know exactly where she was. Which was why when she swung around a bookstack with a book tucked away in one arm and needing to get something from the aisle that Blake was in, she froze a little and narrowed her eyes but didn't.. say anything. At least she didn't leave. She just wasn't exactly sure what she could say, or what Blake was even thinking right now. ]

[ Her head was on the desk for a while but when she heard the sounds of footsteps, she quickly rubbed her eyes free from the faint wateriness of threatening tears near spilling. She didn't look up at the person though and cleared her throat, grabbing a handful of the books she had to put back.

Standing, she scooted her chair in and turned her back to the presence there, opting to go about her routine of putting things away rather than linger beside someone and possibly having to engage in conversation she mentally wasn't prepared for.

She still didn't realize it was Weiss, but opted to leave the customer in peace to do their readings. That's why she enjoyed the the library at least, sometimes. The quiet was welcoming amongst the chaos of this new life.]

[ Unfortunately, Weiss interpreted that as willful ignoring of her presence. Which given Weiss's already agitated state mostly ended up with her getting more frustrated with Blake but she wasn't one to back away from facing something head-on. That was Blake's MO, not Weiss's. It was part of why they normally were able to get on well enough.

Which was why Weiss moved over next to where Blake sat, standing right next to her. ]

What, are you ignoring me now? I don't think you're really in a position to be the one mad at me.

[Great, who she thought was a regular customer turned out to be far worse. All of which made Blake rub her eyes a bit more from the redness of tears earlier and tiredness.

With a sigh, she grabbed one of the books from her bundle and stared at the spine before looking around, everywhere but beside her.]

I'm doing my job right now if you don't mind. [She said lowly and started down one of the isles to put one of the books back in their place.]

I'm not here to interrupt your job, but I didn't expect you to completely ignore me when you saw me. I'll leave now, but I want you to promise to meet me somewhere once you're off.

[ Weiss didn't know what time she got off, and frankly she should probably not try to arrange anything late if that was the case- but talking with Blake was frankly important. She knew she'd done something that was frankly pretty rude too, not inviting Blake to come with them.. So even if she was irate and getting more irate with Blake, she was at least going to try to ask her what was going on. Weiss crossed her arms and narrowed her eyes at Blake, waiting for her response. ]

I didn't even register it was you. I thought it was just a random customer in here to find a book and I'm not exactly in a talking mood with anyone so no need to take things so personally all the time.

[As it was, she had no time off. This was her home for the past few days and she had a lot of reorganizing to do with the library in such poor condition of books just being shoved randomly out of their proper spaces.

She continued along the line of books, slipping another one back in its proper place.] Besides, I also promised the woman at the jewelry store I'd help her move things since she has no one else.

Does the woman from the jewelry store know about what happened before the party?

[ Weiss was going to suggest they just find a way to make time, but that comment came out before she could stop herself. Weiss put the books she had down on the nearby table and followed Blake. ]

Look, you can avoid me but I lied to Ruby and Yang about why you didn't come hunt trolls with us so we're both in the wrong now, so at the very least I'm willing to talk. And I will absolutely follow you until you talk to me even if it means taking a day off from work.

No, I'm stringing her along in hopes of gaining nothing.

Of course she knows. I returned it, helped her clean up and offered to help whenever she needed it. Hence finding out, she's alone with her children gone.

[It was a little sad when she heard the story. A kind older woman who just wanted to bring beauty to the world via diamonds and other precious stones, keeping up her husbands work after his own departure.

Blake didn't really know much about her own parents let alone if she had grandparents, but, part of her liked to think the older lady's kindness would be close to a grandmother's love.

Hearing her talk though, it certainly was setting her own temper but also to find out she lied purposely to their teammates about something she didn't even know was going on. Now the rest of her teammates are going to look at Blake like it's her fault for not helping. Wonderful...

She set down the books and slowly stared over at her.] I wasn't even aware there was a hunt going on let alone that you guys were going. So you lied to them about something I knew nothing of?

I know. I was mad and didn't want to talk to you, so I just said you were busy and didn't tell you. Which is my fault, and I'm going to tell them too because it wasn't.. right to do that.

[ At least she's apologizing for it though, which Weiss thinks gives her the high ground right now since Blake hasn't apologized to her yet. ]

If you were just going to return it, what were you doing? I'm still confused, offended, uncomfortable, angry, and not okay with what happened.

Did you not deduce that NO ONE was acting like themselves that night? Everyone in some kind of costume began taking on traits. Somehow Sun was a great Archer? And believed in taking from the rich to give to the poor? Just like the character in the story he was dressed up as.

[The fact that she's only apologizing to seem like the bigger or better person annoyed her just a bit. Did she even really care about what she had done towards Blake or was she just apologizing for the sake of it with no sincerity behind her words.]

I do one thing like that and suddenly you're lying about me to others?

What about you? Your secret training with Adam that you never told any of us about? Or that Sun WON you in an auction?

Or gee, what about when you told everyone about my secret? The one thing I feared the most was people knowing what I am and you spouted it about the school like it was nothing! Like those words had no weight, no merit, no consequence when all I wanted was to be a normal girl! Yet I still trusted you.

But no, please, by all means. Keep being angry at me and uncomfortable and offended when, after everything, you should of known that those words would never willingly come from me.

Go ahead and hold your grudge, but I have work to finish up. [With that, she grabbed the books she had dropped again, checking the spines.]

[ Weiss looked surprised when Blake actually started telling her off, raising her voice even though they were in the library. She stood quietly for a moment, trying to process everything that had just come out. Honestly, where was she supposed to start with that? There were a lot of things that came out in that outburst. ]

First of all, Sun "won" me in an auction because I asked him and Zuko to go in together so Zuko wouldn't have to starve himself because he had to outbid a man alone who had broken into my room and threatened me only a couple of days before that.

As for the party, I didn't see Sun like that, I was a little upset after talking to you so I left. I didn't feel very different besides being able to.. I think I was firebending. It doesn't matter. Whatever was wrong, it didn't change who I was besides having a worse temper than usual so excuse me if I was a little freaked out that someone I consider one of my best friends started talking like that to me.

[ Weiss took a deep breath. What was next there. Weiss honestly felt like she was doing a lot wrong here, even if she hadn't.. thought of any of it that way until now. She turned her eyes down for a moment, then looked back to Blake's face. ]

I'm sorry about Team JNPR. I really am. They're our friends too and I'm not used to having those, I got carried away and I'm sorry. And the thing with Adam..

[ Weiss actually looked hesitant to talk about that. Not because she didn't want to tell Blake, but because Adam had asked her not to tell her why. ]

If I tell you why I asked Adam to train me, you have to promise never to tell anyone, including Yang and Ruby. You can't even tell Adam that you know why because he made me swear not to tell anyone but I'd rather not have you thinking I'm trying to keep it from you because I don't trust you. I do.

Edited 2014-11-07 07:48 (UTC)

[While part of her felt bad for suddenly spouting the things on her mind, part of her felt the weight of so much lift from her shoulders. But that was just the surface of her own insecurities.]

Yet you still never thought to tell me? What am I suppose to think hearing that he won you in an auction? On top of that these secret meetings with Adam?

How am I suppose to compete with the Princess of Beacon who can do anything and everyone would still be in love with her? With how Sun talked about you so much on our date I didn't even feel like he wanted to be there with me. Just second place, someone he had to settle for because he couldn't have what he wanted most.

[She took a deep breath, shaking just a bit with tears already spilling from her eyes along the curves of her face but she quickly rubbed at them with the back of her hand.]

Whatever's happening between you two it's none of my business, especially if it's suppose to be a secret. Adam just told me that you approached him. But if it helps him take his mind off of that human that hurt him, then do whatever you have to. Just do it with a clear conscience.

And make sure to be on your guard even more. His lessons are brutal and he won't hold back. I had nearly died when he trained me may times.

That it was a friendly auction and anyone who actually thought it was romantic to bid on someone like they're an object would have to be insane? If you heard about that, I assumed you heard me having to talk Zuko into not storming off in the middle of the event because he was tired of being treated like a piece of meat. Sun probably talked about me because he and I were basically the only ones from our world besides Yang, Ozpin, and Adam for a long time. We spent time together. Yang was busy with work and wasn't around, so it was just the two of us, and if something were going to happen, there were plenty of opportunities. But they didn't, because neither of us think of each other that way. Most of the time he spends around me he talks about you. Half the time he's making sure that you're okay or he's asking for advice because he wants to impress you because you're hard to read and you tend to not speak your mind until you're caught in a corner.

[ And Weiss knew that was what she was doing to her right now. She knew it, but she didn't feel bad about it. Blake didn't face problems unless she couldn't escape them in Weiss's experience. It was starting to get obvious that Blake wasn't the only one trying to keep things in though. ]

You can call me a "Princess" all you want, but here all I am is a girl who spent six months waiting tables at a pizza place and being too ashamed of that to actually tell anyone I knew where I worked because I was barely be able to afford anything above the monthly rent and groceries and some customers can be downright degrading and I had to grin and bear it because I didn't have a choice. The only people who have ever even flirted with me here were Zuko, that kid who's missing his front teeth, and creeps at work. Without my money and name, no one cares about me except for you guys. With Yang too busy with work to really talk to, yes, I spent a lot of time with Sun and we became friends. I'm not the easiest person to get along with, Blake, I know that. How was I supposed to know you were going to get mad because I talked to the one person I had around who wasn't a teacher or an enemy or too busy? Even during that time I spent with him, I still figured out that he liked you before you even told me he asked you to the dance. And if for whatever reason he was settling, he doesn't deserve you. I'd slap him across the face myself if he ever so much as thought about me that way, but he doesn't. He cares about you, Blake.

[ And it was true. Honestly, she hated that Blake had to deal with people trying to use her to get close to Weiss but there wasn't anything she could do about that. She thought that Sun honestly liked Blake though, or she would've said something. She definitely wouldn't have helped Sun dress up for a date because he wanted to impress Blake.

Weiss took a deep breath, finally lowering her voice. She knew they were both having trouble keeping at library voice volumes, but this next part she actually moved closer to Blake for, lowering her voice so only she could hear. ]

The reason I didn't tell you was because he told me there's a human here who worked alongside the White Fang but is pretending to be on our side. He made me swear not to tell who because they won't go after Team RWBY if we keep quiet. Considering you had to save me in my last encounter with a White Fang member. The last thing I remember from that fight was him grabbing me by the face, smashing me into the ground, and getting hit with a chainsaw, then waking up with you carrying me. I figured it was important I not be the weakest link on this team since I'm the only one who knows who we need to watch out for. If that means I have to ask someone who'd gladly see me dead and some mornings I think he really might, then so be it because I'm not risking it.

[ Weiss took a step back, speaking back at the volume she had been before. A little more calmly now. There was something in her eyes that was very earnest, very worried, and honestly upset.. but the anger she'd had earlier was gone at least. ]

Because, Blake Belladonna, I care about you, Ruby, and Yang more than I care about the fact that sometimes I can't feel my arm or I feel like I might vomit when I go into work afterward.

[Part of her didn't even want to talk about feelings anymore, especially in jealousy. All those things were new to her and frankly, they were rather exhausting day in and day out. But, part of it was, of course, her own fault for falling as hard as she had. She had tried to keep her heart sheltered, locked away so no one could touch it after Adam and after he had scared her away with his potential desire of Genocide, training her to be a killer and pawn for his army. But she had turned from Rook, to Pawn to the other side of the chess board against her king...

And yet, fresh off the ship, Sun saw through her disguise and continued attempting to get close to her or follow her on missions, risking his own life for something he really didn't have to.

Blake continued about her chores, continued about her work and setting book after book in place. Occasionally, she'd shuffle the ones back in proper order since it didn't look like they had been touched in ages. But she did listen to Weiss' as much as she could without feeling those emotions and tears swell up again in her eyes.

What surprised her most was just how Yang had seemed to abandon them. Sure, she was around in the apartment now and again, but their teammate seemed to no longer care for their company. Yang being too busy for her teammates though? Blake never realized they were that replaceable to their golden haired friend.]
Yang really didn't do anything to help you? [She asked quietly only to steal a glance over her shoulder towards her but with her stepping closer, Blake almost instinctively gave a jolt back.

Weiss' voice was lowered talking about what she and Adam had done, or were doing. There was that painful tug in her chest again that prompted her to turn her head back to the shelves before her. But, if the threat of someone from their world was there with a rather harsh agenda then process of elimination was for sure an easy thing.]

What you two do is none of my business. [She said flatly. She lost her right to care for Adam or his actions.] If there is indeed someone here who means to do us harm then it would of been easier to know as a team rather than sneaking off and learning information all for yourself, Adam's wishes or not. It's not fair for you to be able to hold on to your secrets while spouting everyone else's around. [She didn't mean it to sound as harsh as she did but she took a deep breath to at least calm herself, swallowing hard.]

So not only now, do we have horrible people from other worlds to worry about, but ones from our own have followed as well.

Why the White Fang are working with humans is still the biggest mystery yet to be solved.

She's gotten better about it now, but while you were gone she was one of the first people I asked to help me with my party and I still ended up doing the entire thing on my own and getting set up help from Zuko, Azula, and Sun plus a little help from complete strangers. When we fought against Lucifer even when you were there, she said the reason she wasn't coming was because she was busy with work. Before that, after Lucifer destroyed the city I was helping looking for medicine to help the injured on Professor Ozpin's orders, but I don't know what she was doing. She tried to bid on Zuko for me during the auction after I helped out on hers, but for the most part.. since you and Ruby came back she's been around a lot more but I think I'm just her sister's partner. Which isn't a bad thing, Yang can do whatever she wants. It just would've been nice to know before I thought I could count on her to be there without her sister or her partner.

[ Because of that, Weiss was having a little more difficult with the "and Weiss" jokes. In her memories of Remnant, it'd been mildly annoying but she'd brushed it off easily, but now there was a slight sense of fear that whenever Ruby wasn't here to make sure the other partnership in their team had some connection to her, she'd end up finding out that she really just was "and Weiss" and she hadn't ended up as close to them as she'd thought.

It made fighting with Blake even worse since she didn't want to lose her and it felt like she was being put on trial for being a terrible friend just for being herself now. There wasn't any discrimination here or her just being difficult, it was just Blake having problems with who she was and who she was trying to be.

Weiss clutched her fingers together, digging her nails into her palm just slightly. Just enough that she could feel it- not that it would make a mark otherwise. Just enough that she could focus on it a little instead of yelling and getting frustrated. ]

In case you hadn't noticed, I've been trying to stop that. I've gotten pretty good at it. I hadn't told anyone what we were doing as a team back home, and I still haven't told you what Adam told me not to tell you- that being who it is. There are things I know about Azula that I haven't told anyone, and some things that I can't tell anyone because I promised I wouldn't no matter how much I've needed to talk to someone about it because I'm worried sick because of it. I made mistakes, Blake. I make a lot of them, but I'm trying to make it right. You're getting mad at me for trying to correct my behavior by not repeating the same one that I made with you, then telling me it's none of your business but still making me feel bad about not telling you.

[ It was one thing when Weiss made a mistake and she could figure out what she was supposed to do to make it right. She could deal with that, she could make amends and get better, but right now it felt like she was getting put on trial for doing exactly what Blake wanted her to. She felt lost. She hated not knowing what to do. Weiss backed off a little, turning to look around the library for a moment while she tried to think of anything, but she was just feeling like she had started to lose someone she thought was a close friend again and this time it was her fault rather than an apparent lack of interest and she hadn't even realized it. ]

What do you want me to do, Blake? I'm sorry. For everything. For talking to Sun, for keeping secrets, for not telling you everything, for getting upset all the time, for lying to the others because I was upset... I'm going to tell them what I did whether you accept my apology or not, but I don't know what to do about everything else.

Edited 2014-11-09 18:48 (UTC)

[Brows furrowed at that, mostly in worry and mostly in disbelief. Honestly she thought their friendship with Yang was stronger than that. Weiss and Yang had been together when Blake left with Sun for that weekend... and their combined Razor Burn attack had been ridiculously effective against Torchwick... Yet she was too busy for them in this world it seemed... Oh well.]

That's...disheartening. I understand we all have jobs to do but- I thought partners and teammates were suppose to rely on one another through thick and thin. Hm. With Ruby here, at least she could probably talk her in to doing things with us that would need to be done.

[The moment was slightly ruined by Weiss not really telling secrets but dangling them.] You know all that's not helping your face. The points of secrets are to be kept as such in their entirety, not teased around with to pique interests.

I wouldn't of cared so much if you just said you were training with Adam, not even because of a potential danger from our world here, but just to keep up skills. Rather, I had to hear it from him which in itself was a shock.

[She closed her eyes again and shook her head. She can't let herself worry about Adam anymore. He didn't with her and she lost her privilege to do so with him.

With a small shake of her head, she opened her eyes and looked back down at the books, exhaling slowly the breath she didn't realize she had held in.]

Just- learn. That's all we can do while we're here. Learn from mistakes, learn that this place seems to be much more than we thought it would be.

[ Weiss was getting frustrated again. They're supposed to rely on each other, but all Blake did the second things got tough was run. ]

I'm not telling you to pique interest, I'm telling you because I want you to know that I've improved. I didn't keep either of those secrets because I don't trust you, I did it because I'm trying to become a more trustworthy person. I hate the idea of lying to your face more than keeping a few secrets here and there, so if it makes me look bad then fine. It isn't like you've told me everything about you and him either, so it's pretty hard to see how telling you my daily training schedule was important.

[ Weiss didn't mean to blurt that out, but she didn't want to keep any of this looming over them anymore. There was a brief moment of hesitation, then she continued. Her tone was different though. Mostly concerned, rather than accusatory. ]

You didn't think it was important to mention that you two were partners, or that you loved him once, so you don't really get to say I'm the only one keeping secrets. So while we're clearing the air and fixing mistakes here, why don't you tell me why you haven't told any of us about that? I know I said I don't care about your past, but he's not exactly in the past right now. And I kept that to myself for you, so I think that counts.

[Is Sun in the library? Maybe, maybe not. But what is now there on the desk that Blake works behind, is a takeout container with some very fresh sushi in it (Sun ran it there) with a little card on it with his symbol doodled on it so she would know who it is from.]

[After her first bout of books she put away, she returned to her desk only to notice the container.

Blinking, she picked it up carefully before looking around the library. Already through the container she could smell the fish that brought a small smile to her lips since without even needing the symbol she knew it was from him.

She gave another look around to see if he was still there before taking a seat at her desk. Certainly she'd have to find a way to thank him for that.]

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