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[ someone puts their phone up on a chair so a small fire can be seen on the ground. the sun's going down and it's obvious this is being recorded in someone's back yard. it's kind of comforting to just watch it and watch the flames moves across the tree branches and scattered pieces of wood. it's quiet for a bit...

then there's this feeling... this feeling that someone was recording this on purpose, not just to share their summer night fire that they just created. that became a little more obvious when...there was a ripping sound coming from the side. several rips. like it was paper.

the papers go flying onto the fire, burning and crackling when they hit it. after a few more pages get thrown onto the fire, a whole sketchbook gets thrown onto the fire.

Nozaki comes into view as he goes to sit on the opposite side of the fire. he's looking rough... to say the least. is he sick? he looks sick. maybe he needs a haircut too. he's hid himself away from everyone for a little bit to try to finally break down. but it looks like he's having his break down right now. unfortunately, his sketchbook is too thick for that fire. it burns the inside pages but the fire goes out quickly...

he looks up at the camera, not pleased about what just happened. really? is this his life? why?! he puts his face in his hands, unsure of what to do anymore... ]

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Nozaki? What are you doing?

[ he sounds hoarse, quiet for a second ]

Going on hiatus.

... does a hiatus include burning your drawings?

Yeah...

That's why I did it.

If you're going to start a bonfire at least invite other people.

[ It would have been nice to believe that the video really was just someone sharing a calming view, but Jefferson caught himself counting the seconds until something strange happened.

He winced a little bit at the tearing sound. Yeah, definitely not just a scenic view video. The person who came into the frame looked like an absolute disaster. Like he was having a quarter life crisis. ]

... can I ask why?

You can join if you want... It's not very fun.

It needed to be done. I have an...artist block...

Ah.

[ He said it in a definitive sort of way, like he knew exactly how that felt. He didn't, not really, but but it was a sentiment worth empathizing with. ]

So you're feeling uninspired, or is it that nothing is coming out right?

Not with that attitude.

Guess not...

Sorry, who are you?

The latter. It's...been really tough lately. I feel like I'm in a slump.

Ken-san would be angry with me if he were here... [ he looks down at his hands. he's mostly just saying that to himself ]

Don't regret doing that later.

...Why would I regret it?

What inspired you before?

[ He looked thoughtful at the mention of -- presumably -- one of his friends or coworkers. ]

Would it help if I pretended to be him?

You might have had something there that you wanted to improve or needed for reference. I think that's enough of regret if you realize later that something you needed is gone.

[Not that he knows about drawing manga. That's just logical thinking he makes.]

Anyway, you look tired. Come over to Cat's Eye... I have something that will help you get your power back. My treat.

My name's Emerald.

No, it just... I couldn't -- I didn't want it. Not until it looked good enough to print. It looked awful.

I didn't want anyone else to see it. Ever.

[ he frowns, but nods ] Let me get my blanket... [ and yes, he will arrive with slippers on and a blanket around him...along with usual clothes, duh ]

Oh. I'm Umetarou Nozaki. Just Nozaki, if you want.

...Why did you decide to reply to me?

Hmm... well, I'm not an artist, so I can't say I understand. But if it made you feel better to burn it away, then that's fine.

[If he'd known it's this bad, Sousuke would have offered to visit Nozaki instead.

Well, what was done was done, and he will bring him some tea, water and chicken soup to the table once Nozaki sits down. He will also sit down himself, since he took a break.]

There. It may just be soup, but I made it extra nutritious.

I made manga at home and I had a lot of inspiration coming to a new place. I had...someone special leave, then it all kind of fell apart from there.

This is probably the first time I've been outside in maybe two months...

[ he shakes his head ] No, Ken-san...is difficult to portray, I guess you could say. He was the main drive back home to improve my manga.

Did you make this homemade? Or did it come out of a can? [ not being mean! he's just curious. he didn't know Sousuke cooked. maybe he could ask him for good recipes! ...when he feels up to it ]

I feel bad. I'm supposed to be providing for everyone... I haven't cooked for anyone in the house for weeks. And this is the first time I've left the house in a month or so... My boss at my other job probably fired me by now.

I was hoping to have anothet volume of my manga done... But I can't... I want to trash it and start over. But that will just leave another manga that I haven't finished and I can't do that. That would be two.

[he's not here or he shouldn't be. but he squeaks in the background before hiding. oh god they're going to meet aren't they.]

Because you posted a video of a fire and you look like you're going full on breakup fire with whatever's in that book. You posted it publically so I was curious.

I work as a chef here. I wouldn't use canned food.

[No offense taken. Nozaki hadn't really paid attention to things in a while so it's understandable.]

Sometimes you need a break too. You can't be strong all of the time.

[Sousuke brought himself some coffee that he's drinking while he sits there to keep Nozaki company. He's starting to take a liking to the taste, even if before he didn't really enjoy coffee.]

Is there anything I can do to help?

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