She laughed bitterly at that and shielded her eyes with a hand, too ashamed to face Amy over it.
"That's why he took the aspirin."
Deep breath. "I tried to get him to come back... He had to give up a lot to get the TARDIS here... and I told him I needed space. So I'd leave. He could give his all with Martha. And he didn't have to worry about trying to keep up with me, I was going to take myself out of reach. I don't know. I thought it would give him a push. Not over the edge."
She shook her head all the same. "It's all changed again before I could catch my breath. I was mad, because he left Jack, Jack went through... a lot. And I thought he was jealous, but he said he pitied him, like I told you, never ever EVAR tell Jack that. But I just lost it then, so angry. Told him he couldn't have me," more head shakes and she rolled her hand in a circle, "Then after the costume party he and Jack I guess made all up, and I don't even know anymore. I really really don't."
She wanted to go home.
Not to the TARDIS.
To her Mum, Pete, MetaCrisis, she wished he was there. To share the adventure with her. He should be. He was still in the Tie-Doctor, but it wasn't the same either. And then everything with the guitar doctor.
"But I know I can't hold my anger at one Doctor at the other. It's... I dunno. Some weird thing in my brain. Like MetaCrisis I guess. I can't be mad at him for what future Doctor did, and vice versa. But I don't know... yeah. You know. It's fine. Let him figure it out. But seriously, the anger? Already pushed us to the brink once."
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"That's why he took the aspirin."
Deep breath. "I tried to get him to come back... He had to give up a lot to get the TARDIS here... and I told him I needed space. So I'd leave. He could give his all with Martha. And he didn't have to worry about trying to keep up with me, I was going to take myself out of reach. I don't know. I thought it would give him a push. Not over the edge."
She shook her head all the same. "It's all changed again before I could catch my breath. I was mad, because he left Jack, Jack went through... a lot. And I thought he was jealous, but he said he pitied him, like I told you, never ever EVAR tell Jack that. But I just lost it then, so angry. Told him he couldn't have me," more head shakes and she rolled her hand in a circle, "Then after the costume party he and Jack I guess made all up, and I don't even know anymore. I really really don't."
She wanted to go home.
Not to the TARDIS.
To her Mum, Pete, MetaCrisis, she wished he was there. To share the adventure with her. He should be. He was still in the Tie-Doctor, but it wasn't the same either. And then everything with the guitar doctor.
"But I know I can't hold my anger at one Doctor at the other. It's... I dunno. Some weird thing in my brain. Like MetaCrisis I guess. I can't be mad at him for what future Doctor did, and vice versa. But I don't know... yeah. You know. It's fine. Let him figure it out. But seriously, the anger? Already pushed us to the brink once."