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genessia2018-04-21 08:06 pm
7th Shot [Video: Midday.]
[To people who knew Rip and what she was, it might or might not be a surprise she's awake in the middle of the day or that she looks tired and restless. She was sitting in the living room of the apartment she shared with Namur and Thatch and just.. looked resigned and grumpy as she cuddled her woobat.]
Zo, vat is there really to do around this place during the day? If sleep is being elusive, I may as vell find something to occupy my time ozher than vandering about.
[Which, she may have done more than enough of lately...Rip pressed her face into her fluffy bat's fur and sighed.]
....Or hell, I'll take recommendations for a good bar or theater to visit.
[Since the egg event, Rip's been getting more and more restless as her nightmares seemed to pick up again. Before she'd just shake them off and ignore them. Now? They were a little more vivid, leading her to toss and turn in her sleep before eventually waking up with a start and getting out of bed, getting dressed and exploring the cities on her own. She tried to be quiet about it...
Even going as far as ignoring how tired she really was under her usual cheer and desires. Rip was used to hiding her nightmares. But, it was easier when she lived by herself... Now? Who knew how long she'd manage to keep it up. Today had been one of the more vivid ones, making her wake up with a panic start. She was just relieved she recognized where she was quickly enough before she lashed out...
Which was why she was in the living room now, cuddling a fluffy pokemon than in the bedroom attempting to try and go back to sleep.]
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But, his question was a good one and it was one she was reluctant to answer.]
Zhe Major knew. But, it vas my assigned task.Every member of my unit had zhere own individually assigned tasks, ones only ve vere permitted to carry out az part of Zhe Major's plans to start a var. So, in Zhe Major's eyes, I performed my duties to zhe letter by dying und trapping Alucard out at sea.
[She had even been saluted and given military honors as she was devoured, not that Rip remembered much of that.]
Even if I had failed, no one vould haf come. I vould haf just been destroyed like zome of zhe ozhers.
[ Her hand went briefly to her neck and gently rubbed behind her left ear.]
Dok had a vay of setting uz on fire remotely. If I had failed, zhat vould haf been my fate instead.
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Bastards.
[He shakes his head, trying to string any other series of words together into a coherent sentence. Eventually, he manages.]
No offense, babe, but yer old crew sucks. I'mma whoop their asses if they show up here. Maybe it'll knock some sense int' 'em. What the hell kinda dickshit moron sets up their own crew t' fail? Damn, girl.
So's some a this y' bein' nervous 'bout joinin' us? Worried we might set y' up the same way?
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[That's what kind of 'dickshit moron' that lead her battalion. Which she had known from the start, but, she was a little too focused on her own reasons for being there to realize and accept that she would die for her mission. Rip had been under the impression that she could change her fate and survive, prove herself worthy of notice and to be the best she could.
As for what he asked? Rip nodded slightly and just leaned against him, resting her head against his chest and closing her eyes just to listen for his heart beat.]
Yes. I am under no illusions zhat trusting people could end to my death..again. It did a few times in Ruby City already. Zhough, I recognize zhat you, Marco or Grell vould not do it purposely.
But, you haf to alzo understand, I joined both vars villingly. I helped to slaughter more people zhan I care to count und do not regret it und vould probably follow my orders zhe same vay I did before vithout fail, even vith zhe resulting trauma und nightmares.
How can I ever regret doing zomething I enjoy? Zhe bloodshed, zhe screaming...Everything zhat made me feel alive az I carried out parts of my missions und killed my targets.
[And where her mood had been fearful before, it suddenly shifted to something a little more relaxed and slightly happy discussing murder. Being with Millennium for so long miiight have messed with her more than some realized and being alone in Ruby City didn't help.]
It's zhat thrill I chase vhen I hunt vhether it's humans or animals. Zhe result iz always the same.. the instinctive jolt of pride proving you're stronger.. zhat you deserve to live!
[And then that happiness faded a little.]
...Und zhen getting out of control und killing people vith more powerful friends. Zhat iz vat usually kills me. Haz killed me twice since my original death.
I alvays fuck up somehow und die.
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[Know what? He's not finishing that sentence. As terrifying as her death was for her, at least her damn Commander had the decency to make her feel good about it. He's not going to take that from her.
A part of him wants to shy away from how eagerly she talks about killing. He'd rather promote life, himself. But he knows the thrill she's talking about. He's familiar with that pride in proving he's more fit to live and spawn offspring. She puts it into such elegant words, blunt and primal but beautiful in their own right. Namur smiles, running his hand over her hair. Then smiles that much broader.]
'S that last bit that's key, eh? But I know y' can do it. Mean, sure, yer probly gonna muck shit up sometimes. 'S why 's important t' find folk y' can trust t' stand by y' even when yer bein' a dumbass. Everbody makes mistakes, babe. An' there's always gonna be consequences. But that don't mean y' gotta face 'em on yer lonesome, an' it don't mean y' can't get strong 'nuff t' survive in spite a 'em. We're trainin' y' up now, fillin' in some a yer gaps, aye? 'S gonna be fine. Jus' don't give up. Ever. Keep tryin' even when y' fail. What more could we ask a y'?
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Though, it was pretty clear she was meant to take quite a bit of punishment in a fight and if it hadn't been for the damaging blood in her last fight Rip would have kept going despite the stab wounds.
Rip was a killing machine when she wanted to be. For her, there was no promoting life. There was only the survival of the fittest and the thrill of proving she had that right to live! Maybe if she could reproduce, that mentality might have been different. But, considering Rip couldn't even create other vampires all she had left was proving she had the right to survive by killing others whether it was for feeding or just to prove she was the better predator.
It was the thrill to prove she was alive she chased. Which considering this place provided for her needs, she had to seek other places than just hunting.]
...You haf no idea how much zhat means to me.
[Rip leaned a little more into his touch and even turned her head slightly to give his palm a gentle nip.]
I don't zhink I can recall anyone ever being zhis supportive of me despite my nature. It iz a rarity for me.
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[Except for one... but even then it's not so much that as... well. There's always shit a person wishes would have gone differently. He smiles when she nips him, and gives her a toothy kiss.]
An' if that bastard comes 'round lookin' for yer soul or whatever I'll whoop his ass. Don't give a shit what he is, y' know I'll find a way. Even if I gotta call my brothers in, there ain't no way we're gonna let 'im take y'. So don't be 'fraid a 'im, aye? Believe in us an' be brave. Bastard probly won't know what t' do with hisself if y' ain't shittin' yerself scared, know what I'm sayin'?
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Still, Rip was finding the idea of having others that would stand with her and help her no matter what to be...a dream come true. Especially with one of them being him.]
If he comes around again, zhen..I vill definitely be ready und zhis time, not afraid. Just az long az you und zhe rest haf my back.