[Soft grin.] People are always rusty like that. Especially the older they are. Damage accumulates, yeah?
[Hums.] No, it's action.
Love is a promise, and the act is following that promise through. [Shrugs.] That's why I got mad, yeah? I promised the Doctor I'd be with him forever. He did his best to make it that I wasn't breaking my promise, but it still felt like it.
For caring for the rusty damaged parts, find them, and just do your best. If it makes things worse, try another thing. So long as you keep trying, it'll work out. That's why me and the Doctor still got back together after a year of fightin', yeah? Because each fight was still both of us trying and caring enough for that. Otherwise we'd have let each other walk away and give up.
The Doctor's a thousand years old. The youngest of him here is. Like I said, there's an older version of him here too, it's complicated.
So he's had a lot of time to accumulate damage, and there's no way he CAN tell me everything. He doesn't always know what will be important to me, or think he's hiding just because he doesn't want to talk about things that make him sad, yeah?
It's gotta be two-ways. You can't just tell him all about you and expect that to mean anything either. He has to want to know those things, to care about them, internalize them, decide what they mean to him, and do the same back, yeah? But don't like -- block off his chances for that, s'all I'm sayin'. 'Cause then you do both yerselves a disservice, and it can run into trouble. It's your secrets. The Doctor still has a decent amount from me, and things I know better than to ask about, if he wants to tell me, he will. But if you're worried that tellin' him something big and important like part of yourself will make him go, then you have to take that chance. Otherwise you really are causin' that damage, yeah?
[Puffs at her hair.] My ex-boyfriend... he asked me to leave school for him, to help him on the road. He wanted to be a musician, and I believed in his dream. I was supporting him financially even though he was five years older than me, and in Norway he met another woman and got engaged to her instead.
Jimmy had a lot of faults, but at least he told me all that so I could leave. My choice. Although it might be because Jack might have threatened to put his balls in a vice. Bless Jack. [Giggles.] Point is, mmm the Doctor told me at first he err wanted a sexual romantic relationship with Jack here, and I was kind of... annoyed. I wanted to leave then, but he really didn't want that. Just wanted us both. Jack's from a different time period than me, so he's a bit freer about that stuff than me.
But at least he told me. And I stayed, because even though I didn't want to... it was that important to him. I said I wanted to be special to the Doctor, yeah? Different to him. Because promises I made him, aren't for anyone else. Non-transferable. He doesn't see love the same way I do. The Doctor, I mean. I don't think Jack does either. But he got me to stay, that whole last year. Fighting and nightmares and crying, and a lot of drama and all of it. [Shrug.] If he hadn't trusted me enough to tell me at all, just tried to decide for me again what I should or shouldn't be told... I wouldn't have stayed. Maybe that's just me. I came... really close. A lot.
Telling me he wants me isn't enough. Because his actions speak for him. But that's what did it. He stuck to me like glue. I needed to go running sometimes to clear my head, and he came with me, he was that scared if I walked out, I wouldn't come back. When I ran away to the gate to the estates where I grew up, he came after me. He couldn't, before. In the alternate universe. I fought my way back to him, but not vice versa. He couldn't, but I'm human and I have advantages he doesn't. So that he cared enough to come get me, it's important, yeah? And [Puffs at her hair again.] he cares about what makes me happiest. I still love his future, even though he hurt me too. Got married, twice as far, just... it's a mess. But I'd get really scared that I wasn't helping him. That I was just being selfish, happier with him, but making him miserable. So Fluffy told me to go to cheer up his oldest self, and that really helped a lot. [Hand over her heart.] Because it was like he understood the importance of it, yeah?
His oldest self too. I was crying because I couldn't tell the Doctor certain things, so his oldest self came to smooth things out to try to make sure I could be happy with his youngest self.
That's love and trust. Trying to help them be happy too. And respect is letting them making that decision even if it hurts you. Trust means faith in trying together to fix things whatever happens.
Action / Everglade
[Hums.] No, it's action.
Love is a promise, and the act is following that promise through. [Shrugs.] That's why I got mad, yeah? I promised the Doctor I'd be with him forever. He did his best to make it that I wasn't breaking my promise, but it still felt like it.
For caring for the rusty damaged parts, find them, and just do your best. If it makes things worse, try another thing. So long as you keep trying, it'll work out. That's why me and the Doctor still got back together after a year of fightin', yeah? Because each fight was still both of us trying and caring enough for that. Otherwise we'd have let each other walk away and give up.
The Doctor's a thousand years old. The youngest of him here is. Like I said, there's an older version of him here too, it's complicated.
So he's had a lot of time to accumulate damage, and there's no way he CAN tell me everything. He doesn't always know what will be important to me, or think he's hiding just because he doesn't want to talk about things that make him sad, yeah?
It's gotta be two-ways. You can't just tell him all about you and expect that to mean anything either. He has to want to know those things, to care about them, internalize them, decide what they mean to him, and do the same back, yeah? But don't like -- block off his chances for that, s'all I'm sayin'. 'Cause then you do both yerselves a disservice, and it can run into trouble. It's your secrets. The Doctor still has a decent amount from me, and things I know better than to ask about, if he wants to tell me, he will. But if you're worried that tellin' him something big and important like part of yourself will make him go, then you have to take that chance. Otherwise you really are causin' that damage, yeah?
[Puffs at her hair.] My ex-boyfriend... he asked me to leave school for him, to help him on the road. He wanted to be a musician, and I believed in his dream. I was supporting him financially even though he was five years older than me, and in Norway he met another woman and got engaged to her instead.
Jimmy had a lot of faults, but at least he told me all that so I could leave. My choice. Although it might be because Jack might have threatened to put his balls in a vice. Bless Jack. [Giggles.] Point is, mmm the Doctor told me at first he err wanted a sexual romantic relationship with Jack here, and I was kind of... annoyed. I wanted to leave then, but he really didn't want that. Just wanted us both. Jack's from a different time period than me, so he's a bit freer about that stuff than me.
But at least he told me. And I stayed, because even though I didn't want to... it was that important to him. I said I wanted to be special to the Doctor, yeah? Different to him. Because promises I made him, aren't for anyone else. Non-transferable. He doesn't see love the same way I do. The Doctor, I mean. I don't think Jack does either. But he got me to stay, that whole last year. Fighting and nightmares and crying, and a lot of drama and all of it. [Shrug.] If he hadn't trusted me enough to tell me at all, just tried to decide for me again what I should or shouldn't be told... I wouldn't have stayed. Maybe that's just me. I came... really close. A lot.
Telling me he wants me isn't enough. Because his actions speak for him. But that's what did it. He stuck to me like glue. I needed to go running sometimes to clear my head, and he came with me, he was that scared if I walked out, I wouldn't come back. When I ran away to the gate to the estates where I grew up, he came after me. He couldn't, before. In the alternate universe. I fought my way back to him, but not vice versa. He couldn't, but I'm human and I have advantages he doesn't. So that he cared enough to come get me, it's important, yeah? And [Puffs at her hair again.] he cares about what makes me happiest. I still love his future, even though he hurt me too. Got married, twice as far, just... it's a mess. But I'd get really scared that I wasn't helping him. That I was just being selfish, happier with him, but making him miserable. So Fluffy told me to go to cheer up his oldest self, and that really helped a lot. [Hand over her heart.] Because it was like he understood the importance of it, yeah?
His oldest self too. I was crying because I couldn't tell the Doctor certain things, so his oldest self came to smooth things out to try to make sure I could be happy with his youngest self.
That's love and trust. Trying to help them be happy too. And respect is letting them making that decision even if it hurts you. Trust means faith in trying together to fix things whatever happens.