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[Have a cheerful looking girl smiling widely at the camera, as if she has no worries in the whole world.]

Yaa-hoo, everyone!!

So, like, my name's Angelique Sheeran and I'm, like, new here in Genessia. Actually, I, like, arrived here a week ago or so, but, like, I forgot to introduce myself openly. I would, like, apologize but I don't, like, think it really matters, does it?

Anyway!! I mostly just, like, wanted to make this as a warning or an advertisment? However you rather, like, consider it, to say that today I'm going to, like, be around all the cities to get to know them and, like, everyone in them. I would, like, love to get to know some of you, or, like, all of you but, like, I know that's not possible. So if you want to, like, talk or something I'll be available on here or, like, you can come see me in person and get hug!

[She shifts to show a sign and that she's holding that reads "FREE HUGS".]

Because, like, there's nothing wrong with hugs and, like, they are a great thing to share! You don't, like, need to hug back if you don't like, that's why they are, like, free hugs! And they are, like, super healthy!

[Specially for the girl that will try to sneak and absorb tiny little bits of energy from each hug, not even enough to make people feel tired, though they may feel slightly breathless.]

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[She closes her eyes as their foreheads touch, listening. She really wants to understand, what Rose says, what she herself really thinks. It's all just such a mess, knowing that her own logic states she shouldn't worry, and yet worry because despite everything it somehow matters to her.]

[She tries to think of Gaff, their deal. If Gaff left her behind, if they "broke" their deal... Would she be hurt? Upset? No, not really. But even though she had told Carver that even if they didn't work out she would want to still work with him in cases and all... She really prefers if things work out. It's not just about work, even if it should be.]

He... [She's not sure if she should mention his heart condition. He mentioned that he had kept it hidden from everyone.] I can't say why, like, it's not my place, but he's, like, already damaged a little bit. Bolts loose or, like, rust on the legs. I'm not sure what it is but, like, he got that before I found him. So, like, what if when I try to take care of it, work off the rust, it actually breaks? Because it was already damaged.

Besides... Like... How do you really let someone know that, like, you care? I mean, like, just by telling them everything? Somehow that, like, doesn't sound enough. But the way I, like, see it, you could stand still repeating over and over that you care and, like, they may still not believe it. You could, like, do it for all eternity and, like, still have them say that it seems that you, like, don't care, simply because you didn't show it, like, the specific way they expected you to.

[Soft grin.] People are always rusty like that. Especially the older they are. Damage accumulates, yeah?

[Hums.] No, it's action.

Love is a promise, and the act is following that promise through. [Shrugs.] That's why I got mad, yeah? I promised the Doctor I'd be with him forever. He did his best to make it that I wasn't breaking my promise, but it still felt like it.

For caring for the rusty damaged parts, find them, and just do your best. If it makes things worse, try another thing. So long as you keep trying, it'll work out. That's why me and the Doctor still got back together after a year of fightin', yeah? Because each fight was still both of us trying and caring enough for that. Otherwise we'd have let each other walk away and give up.

The Doctor's a thousand years old. The youngest of him here is. Like I said, there's an older version of him here too, it's complicated.

So he's had a lot of time to accumulate damage, and there's no way he CAN tell me everything. He doesn't always know what will be important to me, or think he's hiding just because he doesn't want to talk about things that make him sad, yeah?

It's gotta be two-ways. You can't just tell him all about you and expect that to mean anything either. He has to want to know those things, to care about them, internalize them, decide what they mean to him, and do the same back, yeah? But don't like -- block off his chances for that, s'all I'm sayin'. 'Cause then you do both yerselves a disservice, and it can run into trouble. It's your secrets. The Doctor still has a decent amount from me, and things I know better than to ask about, if he wants to tell me, he will. But if you're worried that tellin' him something big and important like part of yourself will make him go, then you have to take that chance. Otherwise you really are causin' that damage, yeah?

[Puffs at her hair.] My ex-boyfriend... he asked me to leave school for him, to help him on the road. He wanted to be a musician, and I believed in his dream. I was supporting him financially even though he was five years older than me, and in Norway he met another woman and got engaged to her instead.

Jimmy had a lot of faults, but at least he told me all that so I could leave. My choice. Although it might be because Jack might have threatened to put his balls in a vice. Bless Jack. [Giggles.] Point is, mmm the Doctor told me at first he err wanted a sexual romantic relationship with Jack here, and I was kind of... annoyed. I wanted to leave then, but he really didn't want that. Just wanted us both. Jack's from a different time period than me, so he's a bit freer about that stuff than me.

But at least he told me. And I stayed, because even though I didn't want to... it was that important to him. I said I wanted to be special to the Doctor, yeah? Different to him. Because promises I made him, aren't for anyone else. Non-transferable. He doesn't see love the same way I do. The Doctor, I mean. I don't think Jack does either. But he got me to stay, that whole last year. Fighting and nightmares and crying, and a lot of drama and all of it. [Shrug.] If he hadn't trusted me enough to tell me at all, just tried to decide for me again what I should or shouldn't be told... I wouldn't have stayed. Maybe that's just me. I came... really close. A lot.

Telling me he wants me isn't enough. Because his actions speak for him. But that's what did it. He stuck to me like glue. I needed to go running sometimes to clear my head, and he came with me, he was that scared if I walked out, I wouldn't come back. When I ran away to the gate to the estates where I grew up, he came after me. He couldn't, before. In the alternate universe. I fought my way back to him, but not vice versa. He couldn't, but I'm human and I have advantages he doesn't. So that he cared enough to come get me, it's important, yeah? And [Puffs at her hair again.] he cares about what makes me happiest. I still love his future, even though he hurt me too. Got married, twice as far, just... it's a mess. But I'd get really scared that I wasn't helping him. That I was just being selfish, happier with him, but making him miserable. So Fluffy told me to go to cheer up his oldest self, and that really helped a lot. [Hand over her heart.] Because it was like he understood the importance of it, yeah?

His oldest self too. I was crying because I couldn't tell the Doctor certain things, so his oldest self came to smooth things out to try to make sure I could be happy with his youngest self.

That's love and trust. Trying to help them be happy too. And respect is letting them making that decision even if it hurts you. Trust means faith in trying together to fix things whatever happens.

Yeah, but, like, in his case it's also more... [She gestures uselessly with her free hand, as if trying to come up with a way to say it without saying it.] Medical, like, not emotional.

[But... Action, huh? She can actually understand that better, acting is easier, has always been easier. And yet, there's something else that finally gets her attention.]

Wait, can there be, like, more than one version of a person here?!

[That's... Not good. She's not worried about future-selves appearing, she has no idea how those would be but she would deal with that. No, to problem would be a past self. The problem would be Angelique, could she be brought too? That would be another whole different can of worms that would make telling Carver everything seem like a moot point.]

[It would be such a can of worms that even if she told Carver everything, Angelique's arrival would be a potential disaster. And not just with Carver but with anyone she even talks to. It would be problematic even for her because she would have to face the possibility that Angelique was someone totally different than what she made her to be. And the terrifying part of that would be that others could have noticed and just not say anything for whatever reason.]

[That Angelique parents knew that their kid was gone.]

[She tries to listen and she does to an extent, but at the same time the thoughts keep piling up her mind and her face goes pale and haunted. She might be squeezing Rose's hand a bit more tightly, not enough to hurt but definitively more than it should be normal.]

So actions and words. It's both. Okay. I think I can understand that. Uhm...

[Wait, she's forgetting something. She closes her eyes and tries to focus again on the bridge she's in and not the ghost of one she had never considered possible to ever face.]

I, like, really want him to be happy. He has, like, the most wonderful laugh, you know? I love how it sounds but, like, it also sounds as if he didn't use it much before here. And when he's happy his eyes, like, have such a warm tone and you can, like, see the smile on them even when he isn't smiling. But, like, I also think I'm too selfish to help him be happy. I mean, like, I want him to be happy but I would rather he be happy with me. If, like, he can't be with me I don't care if he's not happy.

I'm not, like, very sure if that's evil or, like, just possessive.

Mm.

No.

[Eyes harden then.] The Doctor is an exception. How do I...?

It's his species. They could in theory bring two versions of another of his same species, but he's kind of the last of his kind. It's complicated.

If another version of you were to show up, 1) the odds are crazy low, 2) they'd probably have to be so radically different you wouldn't recognize them and nor would anyone else.

If you want to learn more about those kind of hazards, you can talk to Trunks Briefs or Uai of my Torchwood teams. Tell them I sent you, and that you're not human. The Doctor's not human either, but his species is very different. They don't splinter. Ah, that's a term that is just... it's a headache to explain. Humans generally not quite reincarnation, but in the parallel universes, have chances to live out the same choices with different results or vice versa, same principle starting points, different choices. And then the unsustainable universes collapse in on themselves. So Earth has been destroyed... a lot. But the only ones that hold reality are the times it gets saved.

[Sighs and rubs her forehead.] Paradoxically speaking, the different timelines, different universes aren't supposed to touch. But Mickey and Ricky could both be here -- they're different versions of my ex boyfriend, one dated Jake, not me. Anyway. Given the sheer nature of this place, it could probably handle both at the same time, but again, they're so different from each other... [Shrug.] And the only reason the Doctor is from different points, but the same man, is because they don't splinter. His species. There's no Doctor in Pete's Universe. Or any of his species. His species and one other: the daleks, are contained ONLY to his universe. They also don't have vampires. I don't know how or who killed them all that they went extinct, but I know vampires exist in almost all the universes I've been to. I kinda doubt daleks went after vampires before everything else though.

Point is, no your future won't mysteriously show up on you. Nor your past. At most you might meet an Angelique who was -- I dunno, think of something totally crazy. But even then... probably not. There were two weeks I was stuck as a gargoyle, but another week I thought I'd stayed in my father's universe and done the heiress thing my Mom desperately wanted me to. So it'd have to be even more dramatic than that. Everything would be super different. Like I said, you're better off talking to Uai or Trunks about it though. They have experience with all of that dimension hopping and trying not to paradox yourself out of existence too and Uai's -- someone important to him is here, but young. Super young. And even though they both, he and Hana, splinter unlike Ti-- the Doctor, that's the only Hana he's got.

[Head tilt.] That's not evil. And I'm crazy possessive too. Don't assume you can't make him happy. That's what I mean about trust and respect, yeah? If he says he is happier with you, trust that. Even if it's hard to believe, let him show it with his actions, and letting him choose where he stays, yeah? I mean there are days I'd rather the Doctor was happier without me. But that's just because I'm kind of messed up, to be honest.

But if it sounds like he hasn't had a lot to laugh about? Then keep him. Give him reasons to enjoy himself, that sort of room to be silly. And trust him to care enough about both his and your happiness to do his best to work towards it too, yeah? Two-way street, like I said.

[Angelique sighs deeply in relief at that, though she's still clearly unnerved. She doesn't want to go into details, not until she tells Carver everything first, she had decided at least that much. She may tell others that she's not human, since she knows any non human would notice it anyway, but she won't go into the details of how or why.]

What about, like, vampires? Like, before they became vampires? Would those, like, count as different or not?

Ah, but, if you don't know, like, don't worry. I'll just, like, try to ask those two you said. Trunks Briefs and Uai?

[It's... Honestly amazing how many people Rose seems to know. Either she's super friendly... And she is pretty friendly or...]

Have you been here, like, for long?

[She giggles, blushing slightly.]

Letting him choose where he stays, like, that's funny because I'm the one that's, like, staying with him. And he was, like, all about "wait until at least the night is over before you decide to stay" because, like, he was sure he would drive me up the walls. But I was, like, telling him I didn't care because, like, even if we didn't work as a couple we could still, like, work together. On cases and all. So, like, I'm not sure if I actually, like, let him chose much.

No. Hitler is still Hitler even when he's a baby.

It's a time traveler paradox. Would you kill Hitler before he becomes a mass murdering psychopath that set Europe on fire, or wouldn't you because he's a baby, yeah? But if you kill him before he does those things, he doesn't do the things to become famous and worth killing over.

The Doctor... [Growls in frustration, because she doesn't like giving this much away, but it's important.] Tsk... he's... always the Doctor, yeah? No matter the face. But he changes faces. He doesn't splinter. In an alternate Universe with completely different circumstances Hitler could have been a normal person.

His species is -- very different. Oh! I know! Okay... so there's the dream docks, yeah? Where you go and remember new parts of your life. The Doctor could only go as far as his death. Just before he changed faces, and became Bowtie. Even if you think a vampire's death is the same, it's not. Because... Time doesn't loop their DNA to create a recombinated burst of energy to turn them into a different person with the same memories. Yeesh. Okay, you don't have to say that didn't make sense, I can even hear how much it didn't make sense myself. Point is, I don't think unless the time loops out of the DNA like reincarnation, that you can die and still have the connected memories. Yeah?

Um. I'm not sure how... LOOK THIS IS LIKE SUPER SECRET ALL RIGHT? [Flails.] So don't like... even let on I mentioned it! [HUFFFFF. Pushes her hair back with a hand.] Uai's family is used to splintering. Each alternate life has its own soul. But outside, beyond that lifeline, you can have a collection of the souls to remember it. Only one of the souls lives' is here.

Even if you think you don't have a soul, I'm just using it to mean... existence and independent thoughts. You wouldn't be able to function without it. [Chews her bottom lip.]

[Nods.] So. No. You can't have your... body's younger self show up. Because it would de-fabricate reality here. [Shakes a hand through her hair.] It'd make the walls of reality thinner. Easier to break, and then the rest of the existence here. But Ti-- The Doctor's species is so weird, they are specifically manipulated in time. Which prevented the splintering, follow? So splinters can show up, and this is the only way he CAN be splintered.

I've only been here a year. 2 and a half months of which the Doctor doesn't even remember, that's how bad our fighting got. But for me, a year anywhere feels really long. The Doctor and I always traveled, of course. And even when I was trying to get back to him, it took a couple years, maybe 3 or 4, I was still always on the move. But some people have been here a really long time. Although no one more than like... five I think?

[Laughs softly and shakes her head.] Sounds more like he's worried you won't like him. That's good! He's trying to give you your freedom. Wish Jimmy and the Doctor had been--

Oh. Are you worried he's trying to push you out? You should really... talk to him. I think if you're the one staying, you're not -- [Face scrunch.] Not letting him choose? Like... I offered to move out on the Doctor a bunch'a times, but it just... upset him more than not. I guess I didn't really think of how much he must have felt like... [Like a dog whose owner needed to leave and he had separation anxiety?]

[THAT IS WHAT IT WAS THOUGH SO......... *There's that!*]

I dunno, like... for me... Jimmy and the Doctor more... wanted me to stay with them even when I was thinkin' like I should get my own place and give them room. I think if you're willing to stay... even if things don't work out? I mean that's REALLY good on you, because I wasn't. At all!! But it probably means a lot to him? I mean I can't know for sure, I haven't met him, but I think that's a normal human thing. Because like... getting a place together is a big deal. I think... if I was him... I'd've been really worried that like maybe you were gonna be like Jimmy, yeah? Have him get a place for you but then he'd be like on the hook financially if you changed your mind. Like what happened with Jimmy. How old is he? He sounds more mature than both the Doctor and Jimmy, but age isn't everything. Though I can't really imagine someone younger than me pullin' off growly American cop. It'd be too... obvious. Like trying to cover up insecurities of not being taken tough or seriously, yeah?

[Hand wave.] Look, if he mentioned his exes... I did a lot with the Doctor, but I know they weren't really sinking in. Why I brought them up. But I was trying to tell him why I was the way I was, what I was scared of happening again or making the same mistakes, or just how I am, yeah? So if he mentioned like... ex girlfriends leaving him over something, it's a warning, not just like. "Oh no I'm worried you will too." But like... "This is me. I'm not trying to hide it from you, so make sure you know what you're getting into," yeah? That's why I say it's better to tell him things than not. If it's all totally new, don't worry, take some time, you don't gotta rush or push anything.

Don't panic, yeah?

There's no one right or wrong way to take relationships... just... I know when it came to me... yeah?

And you know.

Maybe I'm wrong, yeah? [Armfold, but leans her head and shoulders against Angelique so she can take more sustenance if it'll help, or just feel soothed!]

But if you want to be with him even just for work, then don't be afraid of him running away. [Pokes tongue out the side in stubborn thought.] Or like... being too weak to handle whatever you think you've got. Or like... thinking that things will be better just so long as you hide stuff from him.

I tried to show the Doctor my worst stuff, and I've seen his worst sides, better than I think anyone, even -- well never mind that, but he still hid things to try to protect me. And I hated that. The most. Because it didn't really. I mean it's okay if it's to protect yourself, but if it's to protect yourself from him hurting you... then you have to take the risk. That maybe he'll hurt you, but that he's good enough to try to fix things even if he does, all right? That's what I think anyway.

Edited 2018-07-28 19:16 (UTC)

Uhm... I don't, like, even know who is Hitler. But I, like, get what you mean.

[The time traveler paradoxical dilemma isn't a new concept, sure, as far as she knows in her world there's no time travel but there is fiction that has dealt with it. And it's not exactly the same but the new Prevention system that some are trying to push for basically presents a similar dilemma as it pretty much revolves around arresting people before they even commit a crime.]

[As Rose speaks, it calms the initial fear that had set on her mind. The Doctor certainly seemed like a special case. And when the other says that vampires don't work the same way, Angelique releases a deep breath. And then...]

["Time doesn't loop their DNA to create a recombinated burst of energy to turn them into a different person with the same memories".]

[Isn't that, basically what she is? Except that she doesn't even have the same memories, because Angelique died. She has Angeliques body but... She's not Angelique and even this isn't really the same body, not with how it changed and recombined to become what she is now.]

So, if it's a different person with, like, the same memories, their past self could come? So, if I was, like, someone with different memories and a different body from before... The person that was before could come, right?

[The idea is simply terrifying. Not because of some idea of being "exposed as fake", that doesn't bother her, not here. It does worry her more in her world, because of the pain that the revelation would cause to Angelique's family, though if the revelation came through Angelique somehow appearing and being able to live with them... She could accept that.]

[No, the really scary idea is that Angelique was so different from how she assumed her to be through what little she could gather, that everyone actually knows back in her world that she's a fake and that they are just playing along. Because that would mean that all the posing, all the efforts she has made to avoid them pain were pointless. Maybe even that she only caused them even more pain.]

[As the conversation moves to Carver, she tries to focus on that. Remind herself of how nothing has really changed from the way things have always been since she exists. Ever since the police "rescued" Angelique and sent her back home, she had been having to cross bridges as they basically materialized right in front of her. This one is scarier than anything else so far... But it's also still one that isn't there yet and maybe it will never be.]

[No point in panicking over it. Even if the idea makes her feel as if she's lacking air.]

He did, like, seem happy when I told him I would stay even if things didn't work. I'm not, like, worried that he pushes me out, more, like, worried that he thinks that he's forcing me? Even if, like, I tell him it's not, I feel, like, he may fear that. Or that he's, like, taking advantage of me.

[She blushes slightly and looks away at the question about his age.]

I think he's, like, forty or so. He has a seventeen years old daughter so, like, he can't be any younger than thirty-six. I didn't, like, actually ask him specifically because, like, I didn't really care about his age.

[Rose really is an interesting person, she knows many people and she thinks a lot. And here she is, talking with her, trying to offer some help with her relationship when they have basically just met. And she's soothing as well, somehow, so Angelique leans back against Rose as well. Relationships are complicated messes.]

[And she's not even sure how she ended in one now. But there's no mistake she is in one, she never called Gaff "her boyfriend" and she knows he never called her "his girlfriend", it's always "partner". But she knows that Carver has called her that way and the mere idea makes her feel all stupidly giddy somehow.]

I don't, like, really think that hiding things is the answer for things to, like, be better. I don't even, like, have reasons to hide those things to begin with. Not here, you know?

But I just, like, don't know when to tell him and, like, start to get worried about all this stuff. Like him leaving and all that. I never, like, really worried about that stuff before. But he, like, makes me worry about those things.

It's, like, weird and I don't even know what any of this really is.

No. [Shakes her head.] It's specifically because of how the time works on him. And his species. And there's... his daughter's here, yeah? And, well I guess she didn't regenerate, so it's not the same, but I think it has to do specifically with the change. Like I don't think there could be multiple Hanas or Satous even though, Uai's known more than one, and like, [Groan.] Trunks knows timeline things. You can also try talking to Doctor Brown, that's his name. Doctor Emmett Brown. He seems like one of the Doctors, but he's human. He might be able to help with your concerns as far as time travel and changing history goes?

[SLOW NOD ABOUT CARVER'S AGE.] Yeah, I can see why he'd be worried. About taking advantage. I mean, my boyfriend's over 900, and his future is over 2200, and Jack... well that's secret, but pretty high up there. And I was only 19 when I met him? Give him a year or two and he'll probably get over it by then if he's not already. [Wolfish grin!]

Well, it's... new, yeah? Tell him you're worried about that though. It's not making him obligated to stay, it's just giving him enough information to help himself figure things out. The Doctor was always pretty clear about when he wanted me to stay... and it's when he pretended otherwise that I was more likely to leave. I mean, I'm kind of mean, so I was like... if he can't be arsed enough to admit he wants me to stay, then what should I care, yeah? But I think that's not too weird either, yeah?

Uhm... Okay... That's... Good, like, I guess? I think, like, I'll ask those people. I'm not, like, worried about changing history actually but... It's, like, complicated.

[She watches the slow nod a little worried about Rose judging them. But that goes out the window when she mentions her own boyfriend's age.]

Wow, like, no wonder you really were, like, a year fighting and more. Makes me feel, like, a bit silly for thinking that, like, his age may make it hard for him to accept me.

Like, totally new! I'm not, like, inexperienced, you know? In, like, many ways. I mean, like, you already know how I feed, and, like, when I realized what was what I needed... Well... It wasn't, like, hugs what I went for, if you get me. And then I, like, met my partner and we made a deal where he would, like, feed me and I would help him with work. But, like, I never really thought of him as my "boyfriend", you know?

Yeah... Uai might be the best to talk to then. I can't get too into it because... it's not mine to tell. [Puffs hair to the side.] But don't get... too worried. Uai can't let some of the people he knows know he knows them. And it's really hard with him and Hana... without saying too much. So just... yeah. And Trunks too...

[SPREAD HANDS AND SHRUG.] Time travel is complicated. But the Doctor is just extra weird, really.

[Chews her bottom lip.] Well... not just... yanno age. But like ... yeah. He was worried about me dying before him, like I said. And the whole, him not being human. And the lies. Mostly it was the covering up for the lies for me. But also sometimes he acts asexual. [EYES ROLL UP TO THE SKY.] Like. A lot of the time. So I was extra ticked that he has a wife, had others in the past, and couldn't get over himself with me, because I'm too special... apparently. Or something like that. But no it was basically that. So I felt very... strung up. I don't think I'm strong enough to have the kind of friendship and close working relationship we have, where he's the lead scientist for my company yeah? And NOT -- like I told him I was in love with him before we wound up here. So to not really act on that. Was extra hard for me. And I was angry about other things, not all his fault. It just got... It was a mess, yeah?

[Head tilt.] I mean... Sort of????? In an... intellectual way I guess. [Laughs, and squeezes Angelique's hand!] I never really thought Jimmy Stone was taking advantage of my age or naivete when I was 16, but I guess to everyone else, that was exactly how it was. But even my Mum knew... there's no way to really tell me what not to do or not. And the Doctor... same thing. He knew better than to tell me where to go. To go be with my parents again, because he'd done that, a ton o' times already and it never worked.

I guess if your boyfriend knows you, he probably knows, or trusts you're strong and independent like that too? [Hums.] You might wanna tell him how you feed though. You said it was medical too? He should get my boyfriend to look at him! That's how we got started feeding non-humans in the first place, yeah? I was turned into a gargoyle for a couple of weeks, and other were vampires, and he was a werewolf. [Face scrunch.] I even got him a collar that says Bad Dog on it, I didn't actually think he'd wear it, but he never takes it off. [Giggles.] But he tried to feed all the vampires because so many were letting themselves starve and stuff. ~Ethical~ reasons.

[Bites a fingernail.] Even if you think like... he might get scared...

The Doctor thought I was in culture shock when he first showed me his ship and I figured out he was an alien and all. But I wasn't. I was upset because he just took the head off my boyfriend at the time, and even though it was plastic, like store dummies he saved me from the night before, I was really scared for Mickey. Not for myself.

The Doctor's -- I dunno, it's one of those things... Jack says it's just that he's not human, for sure. So he's bad with reading people, but I know other aliens who aren't half as bad as the Doctor. Could still be his species though, like I said, he's practically the last of his kind. So like... hiding stuff from me really... [S H R U G.] Even when he thought it was for my own good, that really made me mad. I just want to be the one choosing. Like when he asked me along twice. Because the first time I was thinking about Mickey, and I'd run off on Mickey before with Jimmy and that was terrible, and then there was my Mum, and I didn't want to put her through all of that again... [Huff puff.] But in the end, asking me twice gave me the chance I needed to do what I really wanted. He said he'd never done that before. Or since.

Anyway... I think... [NODS!! She closes her eyes but she's definitely certain of this.] You should try to tell him how you feed. And let him try to help you too. Don't yanno let him kill himself, because gods men are so stupid I swear... But let him try to help. Or at least... let him to try to be supportive and understanding. I freaked out with the Doctor when I realized I'd just wandered off with a strange older man I knew nothing about, just being way too naive and trusting again. And he thought I was just in culture shock again and bein' nosy besides... but after it was all said and done... he told me some important things, things he doesn't normally want to talk about or tell anyone else, but he gave me enough information I could decide where I want to be. Which is with him. And even though he gave me reasons to leave, I wanted to stay. BECAUSE he told me, yeah? Because he trusted me, and needed me. And Mickey always acted like he needed me, but I think Mickey could handle himself if he let himself. But around me, he'd let me take care of things. Yeah?

Anyway, point is. That was like... 5 or 6 years ago, and I've fought really hard to get back to him since then.

I mean granted, it wasn't like he was like "Hey Rose I need you to hug me daily or I'll die." But he needed me to hold his hand, or he'd die. He needed someone with him so he had to save them too or he wouldn't bother saving himself. Understand? Plus I mean... it sounds like he already... has sex with you??? So?? Whatever medical issue it's either under control, OR you should tell him the danger. Because otherwise, I REALLY mean it. Men are universally stupid. That goes for Trunks and Uai too. I love them all, but seriously. So even if he's a good detective and figures it out, he might do something crazy and scare you way worse than if you just talk it with him sober-like. I don't know his condition though, so yeah, also consider sending him to the Doctor. My Doctor, my boyfriend, I mean. He's got the double benefit of not being human, and still a doctor, so he can do some medical stuff for a wide variety of species. Less on humans, because of the time travel and not being one himself, but also we have another friend who's getting her Doctor's license here, so if it's really specialized and he can't help, she probably can.

[She nods slowly, definitively filing the names away to ask at a later date. After she herself doesn't feel sick at the possibility of it actually being possible. And after she tells Carver everything first.]

Well... We've known each other for, like, a week so... I suppose he doesn't, like, know much that much, nor I know him. Definitively, like, nowhere near as you and your Doctor.

[And thinking about it again it's probably silly to be so worried about something that has been there for such a sort time. But this week with him has been unique and can't be compared to anything in the last two years. And it wasn't because of the whole "being taken to another world" thing.]

Your boyfriend was, like, a store dummy?

[She sounds more curious than confused... Because she is. Rose really seems to have experienced really great adventures even if also scary ones.]

[At least telling him how she feeds. That could be an idea, but she still feels that when telling him she should tell him everything. It's still something to consider, though.]

I won't, like, let him kill himself, specially, like, not for me. I would rather starve.

[Though she would try not to, because she has seen others starving and they all went berserk, attacking anyone from whom they could feed. And she doesn't want to attack Carver while being out of her mind.]

[She giggles when Rose says that her Doctor didn't need her to hug him daily, and blushes when Rose points out about the sex.]

Ah, yeah, like... He definitively doesn't, like, act asexual at all. I've just been, like, super careful to not lose my self-control.

I'll, like, try to get him to do that too. But, like, he really doesn't seem comfortable with, like, treating it here. So I don't, like, want to push it either. At least, like, not for now because he's also, like, stubborn and I really think I would, like, have a better chance at convincing him if there was a problem. But, like, so far he has been fine so...

Err yeah... Mickey got swallowed by plastic. I asked Micks to take me out to meet this bloke that was like... stalking the Doctor through history and on the internet, and Micks got kidnapped and replicated with a plastic version of him. He was a bit freaked out after that, so even though the Doctor saved him, he was a bit of a jerk after that. He got over it eventually. Got stronger, saved the world a couple o' times, saved the universe and helped stop World War 3, joined my Dad's team in Torchwood in another universe...

I'll never see him again though. Unless he comes here. [Shrugs.] The Doctor nudged me back to my parents universe, and Mickey skipped off to go back to the Doctor's with Jack.

He was my childhood best friend, yeah? We grew up together on the Estates. When I was stuck in Pete's Universe, he showed me some more about computers. Only way I know anything about them really.

[Slow nod again about Carver's condition.] Like I said, most blokes are idiots. Especially when it comes to taking care o' themselves. [Quiet hum.] Well, if nothing else, maybe he can talk to my Doctor about the non-human sex thing? If he wants to help anyway, yeah? [Both hands up.] Just an option though, yeah? It can be a lot to adjust to this place for normal people.

[Angelique probably shouldn't sound so amused.]

I think I would also be like, a bit of a jerk in that case, but like I'm glad that he, like, got over it. It sounds like almost everyone that you knew and that also, like, met The Doctor ended doing super great things.

My childhood best friends are like... Normal. Well, Odette is, who is the one that's still like alive. Kristen was like pretty normal too, only competitive, you know? She was like really into swimming and wanted to like be a pro and instead ended a dead frog.

[And maybe she should sound more upset but after a year and a half, all she has is mostly annoyance at the event.]

It's like good to have options, thank you. I will like try to convince him to give it all a chance. I mean, like, even without taking me into account, Genessia as a whole can pretty much be like lethal for him. And that's like not taking into account the actual dangers of this place.

Yup! The Doctor has that effect on people. He says I do too, but I'm kind of more selfish. I just want to have fun.

[Blank stare. How do you get turned into a frog? Should she ask???]

[And a small frown.] I guess it depends on why he's nervous. The Doctor is ironically really bad about Doctors too. But mostly because he's alien, so certain Doctors finding out about him puts him into danger instead. But like, if your bloke is just being stubborn, really see what you can do to put him at ease, yeah? I have to do that with the Doctor too. Or Micks. Might just be a guy thing.

[With what Rose has commented about her own adventures, Angelique would actually be surprised that she wouldn't have come across something like that before.]

Well, he like doesn't seem to like doctors much from what I got. Even in his world it seems like he only went through with trying to have it fixed like for his daughter's sake. So without her here he's like "naaaaah".

But like you're totally right on that. I'll like do my best so he's at ease and fine.

[Nope! Although... slitheen...]

[And Rose laughs and shakes her head. Yeah that sounded like... every guy she could think of.] Okay well, if he doesn't want to do surgery, there's still other treatments, and if he's not comfortable being seen by the Doctor, because he's not human, we can ask Martha to look at him. Otherwise Fayren has magic healers, but I get the feeling he might be a bit like my Doctor about that. No magic in his universe, or any of the others I've been to before here.

No magic at all, or at least, like, no magic that he knows about. In my world most humans would be like "magic doesn't exist" or like "there aren't non-human creatures here", but they are like literally wrong.

[Humans and their need to only believe what they know and see as absolute truths.]

But he's actually like not too opposed to magic? Like, I think his issue is more that since he has never seen it he first like, has to accept it as real. He said that he could like go to healers in Fayren once he got his head around that if needed.

No. No magic at all. The Doctor and I have seen more worlds than anyone else, and more time periods to boot. The only magic is just aliens being different species and able to do things humans can't, yeah? Or time period stuff, like if I bring back chemical control perfumes to the cavemen, what's the difference? Or time rift.

Oh, you mean your boyfriend, not mine. [LAUGHS.] Pssh. Yeah. Okay. I can get that! Yeah! I was the same way about aliens. So was Micks, although he got a little harder into the conspiracy theory side of it, when the Doctor brought me back a year late instead of the 12 hours later like we'd planned.

[Laughing as well.]

Actually like I could see that being my world too. I mean like a friend told me that magic is basically just super advanced science because it also has like its own rules and all. So, like tcha, I could totally see my world as a non-magic one. But like calling us "aliens" feels like weird, you know? Because like we're all from Azure, just like not the same dimension as humans because they like forced other species to hide to avoid a big world war.

[Headtilt.]

How could he like bring you back a whole year late when he's like a time traveler? Was there like something in time that like blocked traveling to the right moment or something?

Yeah? [Perks up interested.] The Doctor's universe doesn't allow for much intersection with the other dimensions. Some. And my Da's universe has way more intersection, because it's not so sealed off, so he made dimension hoppers, and then I used his ideas to work on the dimension cannon. But I wasn't exactly just... overlapping yeah? I was really... rocketing myself through the void. Like mm! I had to sort of... [Face scrunch.] Compress space and time using the void, so that they were nothing, and then I launched myself like a bullet! Or a cannonball! Using the void as a vacuum.

Have the dimensions overlapping sounds pretty dangerous! Even if it was to protect from wars...

[Rubs the back of her neck.] Torchwood got founded 'cause an alien crash-landed on Earth and a creepy cult used it like a disease, or curse, passing it down and spreading it so they could try to take over the crown of Britain. In the Doctor's universe, we saved the Queen. In my Dad's universe, she was killed, and so was the werewolf, either at the same time, or in punishment for messing up. In the Doctor's Universe the Queen made Torchwood to fight against all aliens, even the Doctor.

[FACE SCRUNCH TROLL FACE!] I like having him work for it now as a sort of Fuck you to her, yeah? [:V]

And Jack met her and got stuck workin' fer it too. But in Pete's Universe, my Dad's, Torchwood was made to help aliens too, because humans are kind of messed up, so we did some relocation and refugee stuff.

Yeahhhh basically. His ship is sentient. So I think she brought us back late because she wanted us to be around to fix stuff, and we wouldn't have if it weren't for my Mum slapping him and calling the police. Usually we set her on random, which is how we wound up in Hell -- Um, Krop Tor. Impossible planet, being explored by my Torchwood, right on the edge of a black hole. Satan was there. [Shrugs. \:|/] But sometimes we'd try to go to rock concerts and get to the wrong century. That's what happened with Queen Victoria. I was dressed for 1970s too, not 1870s. The Queen called me naked. [>:3] She still gave me a knighthood! Just before exiling me and the Doctor. [:V]

Well, we call them dimensions but like, maybe it's more like planes of existence? Like, it's the same world and the same place and like the same space, but like... Humans can't see them and they can't like see humans, at least not unless like, a portal is opened through a sacrifice. At least the portals from there to the human world are like the ones that require a sacrifice, but I don't like really know how to open a portal in like the other direction, you know?

So far it's always just like lemenaes of different grades and like a few numenaes crossing all to like the human world. I would like totally love to be able to cross to their dimensions or like whatever they really are, you know, to like see how it is there.

[Angelique frowns and makes a face at the mention of a creepy cult. It's always the cults in her experience.]

That's like a good "fuck you" to her, yeah. Specially because like her creating that to even like fight The Doctor is like a literally bitch move. Like totally ungrateful.

[And she snorts and laughs at the last part. Sorry, Rose that was... Definitively funny.]

[Nod nod!!!] Different universes are limited to different dimensions, so it does actually make sense for there to be an over lap, with like... those that exist on another plane or dimension, yup! I met a girl who was able to act as a bridge for another dimension, and she saved the universe by closing it when the gelth sent their soldiers over instead.

[Hums...] You... probably wouldn't like it there... [HAUNTED LOOK. DON'T ASK.] There's a reason certain dimensions have a lot of people wanting to invade, and not vice versa.

[But grins about Queen Victoria and winks.] I kind of want her to show up just so I can show her exactly what I've done with it. Ohhhh she'd hate it here though. Her entire reign was known for being a stuffy prudish era. [Tongue loll grin!]

Well, the lemenaes don't like really try to invade the human world, they are like called to it by creepy cults that make sacrifices. Besides I'm like... Well, I am a lemenae so like in a way my place woukd be there, I just have like never been there but I can't like really say why. Not until I like tell Carver first.

[She owes it to him, for him to be the first one to whom she tells all that. One of the reasons why she didn't feel too bad about admitting to not being human is because he actually caught on that pretty quickly.]

She and me would probably like totally not get along then. I can be like bad enough to make even non-prudish people like feel embarrassed and uncomfortable.

I see.

[Tongue loll grin!] Really? Ahhh you're making it really hard not to offer you a job, you know? Are you SURE you want to be a policewoman? We've got field agents!

[But she grins all the same.] Don't worry, I'm pretty bad too, I always forget how to keep to the mores of the past, and then in like... 5050, the year or time period Jack's from, humans flirt and seduce like every single species in the universe, like it's a mission. Really wish I could have seen how his meeting with her went down. Irresistible charmer Jack, but she is pretty strict!

[That makes her laugh.]

I like really love to work as a police, a detective even. It's like the only thing back home that ever made me feel like complete, you know? Investigating a scene, questioning witnesses and suspects, it's like... Like a big puzzle but with like someone or various people not wanting for you to like solve it so they hide pieces. So it's like a huge game or like a huge hunt. Even when the case it's like small, I really like totally love it.

[Headtilt.]

But like I don't know like how much work there would be here or even if like there will be open positions. So like maybe I could like help a little somehow? Though if like they don't let me work because of like my age or whatever I'll like give you a call to see if it's like still an option if that's like okay with you.

[She giggles.]

Your friend Jack does like sound like a charmer and like a fun dude. I can't like imagine the humans in my world ever reaching like that stage of flirting and all. Not with people like Gaff around, he's like drier than a desert.

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