[video]

[stillsmiling]

 [The boy on screen appears to be writing in a journal: He is holding a pencil and occasionally moves it as if to write something. That “something” being a list of life goals. It’s also quite short, which is why Shi looks so troubled.]

I’ve been in Genessia for a long time now. I have a job and I make pretty good money, and I have a place to live and food to eat...

Is that it? Is that all people do with their lives? I mean... All I wanted before was to not be cold or hungry anymore, and I have those things now... I don’t know where to go from here. A good Kami is supposed to get their own shrine and have followers and stuff, but I’m an evil and terrible Kami...

What kinds of things do humans do with their lives? Are there normal human hobbies? How do you get best friends? Can Kami have hobbies and best friends, or would that be bad of me? Do humans really only live to pay rent and eat food? I’m grateful for those things,  but for some reason... I’m not happy. Maybe I’m just ungrateful and bad.

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[Video]

[spoiledbugboy]

[Sheesh, that was a bit of a downer feed, wasn't it? It isn't like Haga to, well, care about random people all that much, but Genessia had been changing him a bit and he can't help but feel a little sympathy for the boy on screen. Maybe because he can relate in some ways.]

I don't know what being a Kami is, but... Why would it be a bad thing to have friends and hobbies when you are one? Aren't those normal things?

[stillsmiling]

Um, no... Not really. Because I’m a Kami, I was told to stay away from normal humans. If they aren’t worshipping me...

I don’t know how to make friends anyway. It never worked back home.

[video]

[watcheddog]

No, that's not all humans do. What's a kami? Why do you think you're bad?

[stillsmiling]

They don’t? Or um... A Kami is a spirit with a shrine. We get our powers from human faith... but I’m a Curse Kami. People suffer because of me.

[watcheddog]

No. Those are just required for living.

So you're a curse... kami. Right. So people believe in curses for you to exist? I don't think that's always bad. Do you put curses on people? There's probably good reasons or ways to do that, right?

[fadedscarlet]

[Kamis...

Kii couldn't help but growl at those concepts, those Spirits..

But they composed themselves]

Please. You couldn't be bad. On the contrary, you are very good to recognize the insignificance of human life. You eat, sleep, do things, eat more, have friends, get a job, make a kid, then you die.

PRETTY EXCITING IF YOU ASK ME. Please...be a Kami and make more friends..convince them to make your damned shrine here, why don't you? Why do you care so much? I see that you've been hurt..most likely from people.

You have those abused puppy dog looks.

[stillsmiling]

Abused puppy look? I-I’m sorry. I can fix my face with something called make-up...

I don’t think people hurt me on purpose. It was because I deserved it, and I’m a Kami... We don’t matter to humans unless we are doing something good for them. So I deserved to be disliked.

[Video]

[micancion]

Hey, hey chamaco.

Humans do a lot of things. Sometimes, yeah that's all they can do. Just live to survive one more day. But sometimes!

[He grins and winks.]

Ey sometimes they do so many other things! They write, they sing, they have families and tell them stories. Pass down traditions.

If not? They travel anywhere and everywhere they can! And hey, if a skeleton can play a guitar, a Kami can as well. I mean, we're both dead yeah?

[stillsmiling]

Being a human must be hard... I write music... a bit... not well... But I don’t k ow if that’s a good idea. I’m a Curse Kami. What if I make unlucky music that just hurts people?

[Video]

[la_matrona]

It's never bad or selfish to be lonely or restless. It's okay to want and have these things. Friends and hobbies. Purpose. That is the difference between every day and a sense of accomplishing something. Find out what drives you. What moves you. What you would give anything for or what you will always stand against. It may take a while to find these things, but once you do, nothing can stand in your way.

[stillsmiling]

Okay... Well, I don’t like making curses. But I’m a Curse Kami. I don’t know if I can stop doing that.

Do you have something that drives you? How did you find it? Is it super hard?

video.

[carrythesin]

You can try going to school.

[Cause school is the best!]

[stillsmiling]

School?

I don’t know... I wasn’t... [Liked at school.

Shi lowers his head. He doesn’t want to admit to being bullied at his old schools. He would rather pretend it never happened and act like his life has been okay.]

I don’t think a school would want me.

[nrgsvr]

We pay rent and eat food, so that we can continue living.

Humans are animals with the ability to create and use tools.
Hobbies vary. Learning a new skill,reading, playing games, creating art, or sports are general activities humans enjoy.

I believe kami can have hobbies and make friends. Other types of spiritual beings have. Especially here. I've met a god who liked to make candy.

[stillsmiling]

Really? Gods can make candy?

I wish I was that kind of Kami... I don’t like being a Kami who hurts people. I wonder if my sort of Kami even deserves a normal life. That seems unfair.

video

[nepu]

Now wait just a second, you're talking like some sorta almost shut in and that's not good at all.

[ Not like Nep can really complain if things are taken care of money wise ]

Humans and gods alike all have hobbies and stuff they like. I mean if I didn't play games and have naps my life wouldn't be as good as it is now.

[stillsmiling]

Huh? I-I’m not! I’d love to have a place to be shut into, though.

[Shi was homeless.]

Games are a hobby? I thought they were a waste of time?

[video]

[draconixaviarix]

You're...evil, terrible, and bad..?

Are you sure? Because you took glass out of my face and let me hug you. That was quite nice.

[Hana beamed, but her face grew concerned again] You say 'Kami' and 'People', but what do you want from a hobby? Or..your life?

...If you want friends or best friends, the people who know you can show you the way, and on many adventures too..of discovery! My humans always surprised me with what they could do with all their minds, hearts, and their creativity.

[stillsmiling]

Ha, Hana... nngh...

[He cowers slightly. Hana is nice (even if she calls him food,) and he didn’t want her to hear him complaining. Especially when it might scare her away.]

I-I don’t know... I’m just a bad person. I’ve always been bad. Even me being born was a bad thing. I just make people unhappy and cause them to suffer, until they die.. I’m sorry for keeping it a secret. [He now wonders if he somehow caused the mirror incident to begin with.]

Maybe I don’t deserve a hobby.

video;

[gamerrep]

Anyone can do anything if you put your mind to it.

[She paused for a moment. It was like she was going to say something else, but wasn't quite sure as to what.]

[stillsmiling]

I think that’s true for some people... but even if I try, I always mess up.

[Video]

[hot_handed]

SHUT THE FUCK UP. What the fuck's your problem that you're trying to get shitty idiots over the network to play therapist?

[stillsmiling]

I-I’m sorry... [Being yelled at like that is pretty normal, so Shi quietly acceptable it.]

I-I don’t know how to play therapist. I’ve never heard of that game before..! Was it trendy? Can it not be played on the phone?

[video]

[hotheadwarmheart]

Anybody can have hobbies and best friends; the trick is finding ones that suit you. And there's nothing wrong with wanting a bit more out of life, now that you've got the basics squared away.

As for what humans do with their lives, that kinda depends on the human. Everybody has different values and likes different things; can't really see how that much'd be any different for Kamis. So is there anything in particular you like to do?

[stillsmiling]

Me personally? I guess I like music... and the ocean? But I'm not very smart.