genessia | Rage Against the Inevitable (Closed to CR)

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Rage Against the Inevitable (Closed to CR)

[She should be happy. At long last, she should be. But lately, she just isn't. Ever since the masquerade, she keeps having recurring dreams of all her family and friends who either died or disappeared. And those dreams often involve losing those she has left.

At the first chance she gets, she sends a text some of the only remaining friends she had left: Soma, Mavis, Trunks, Ted, Remilia and Rose. Asking them if they have time to talk privately.

Anastasia can be found at the Holodeck'd in Nova City, running a combat training program where she can cut loose and fire off destructive magic one after the other, sounding off each of the names of those she's lost.]

Noah... Father... Sakura... Mamoru... Levy... Abel... Satsuki... Marc... I'm tired of losing people I care about.

[So yeah, at any point she said she's fine, she was keeping it to herself. She only stops recklessly firing off magic at holographic projected targets is when she runs out of her own reserves of mana.

Now's the chance for a friend to come and redirect her.]

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[ Remilia came as soon as she was able, finding Ana in Holodeck'd before too long.

She interrupts with a soft 'ahem.' ]

[In all honesty, being able to cut loose despite her maelstrom of feelings felt good. She heard that attention-grabbing cough and glanced over, clapping her grimoire shut with confidence. It didn't tag long for her fatigue to start showing, though.]

Remilia...
My belated apologies for making this request. I hope I didn't call you away from anything important.

Fortunately, I'm not busy at the moment.

You wanted to talk?

Yes. ...Or, more accurately, seeking advice.

[She stows away her grimoire in a fannypack-like sling before moving her hands to hold her elbows.]

Stop me if this is too heavy of a subject, all right? It's not only a reality, but an inevitability, that everyone must die or leave us in some way. So I wanted to ask for your thoughts;

How do you think we should live with a reality?

[ Well, Remilia had lived for centuries, of course... so she knows something about this. ]

As a near-immortal, I've learned to cherish every moment I have with mortal friends. And remember that none of them would want me to grieve forever.

Is it really that simple?

[She sighs sadly.]

I question myself if I'll be able to really accept things as they happen. Or if I can live with these recurring dreams, or the reality that I could lose someone I really ...well... "Like." Does it just get easier?

Only with time, I'm afraid.

[She whispers "Figures." If only she could just do away with emotions.]

I'd rather not have to deal with that inevitability. But, I suppose I can cherish all the time I have with you all.

[Even if it just gets more painful when the inevitable end happens.]

Thank you for talking with me, at least.

[First time An's ever wanted something face-to-face. Wonder what's up?]

Sure, Anastasia, whenever you'd prefer. Where would you like to meet?

[Trust her, Ted. It's important enough.]

Anywhere is fine, I don't really care. I'm at the Holodeck'd if you happen to be in the area.

[It sounds upsetting; first he's heard her coarse enough to say "I don't really care" too. Is she going through her emo phase?

Well, if anywhere will do, he'd rather go somewhere pleasing than the explicitly "Hollow"deck.]

All right. Let's see what's the matter at the...Sky Garden. The Forest biome; haven't seen that one yet.

I'm not familiar with the Sky Garden, but I think I can find it.
I'll see you soon, then.

[She needs a bit of messing around with a map. She'll appear before too long.]

Then it'll be a mutual novelty. See you then.

[It was, however, more temperate and warm, though not sweltering. It'd be a drastic visual change from the busy, metallic city below. She'll have to board a skyship to get to the floating, curated biome that held the questionably natural flora Nova City had.

Upon arrival they'd both be treated to the crowd of trees, some pleasurably gigantic. It always made Ted feel adventurous and blithe when he was small, and the firs and redwoods that reached the ceiling of the biome certainly did the trick.

Artificial sunlight poured through the gaps in the overstory. A roughly beaten path was there for those who wanted a guided experience. When Anastasia arrived, he'd sit up from the bench, smile, and motion that way.]

Good morning, Anastasia. Not too warm, I hope?

[Needing an airship is probably what slowed her down the most. But, she got it with a little asking around.

The sky garden was unexpected, like a combination of nature and surrealism. Before meeting up with Ted, she makes a note to start coming here more often. When Ted does see her, she is alone. Not even a Pokemon is with her. All she has with her is her grimoire held in a fannypack-like sling and a bottle of strawberry water.]

Good morning, Ted. The weather is perfect, thank you. Plenty of shade is all I need.

Also, I apologize if I called you away from anything important.

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Alas, no such luck.

[He's out of important adventures to pursue. Thus begins madness.]

Well, the shade's patchy, but I trust you'll manage. All right, let's see the sights.

[He gestured to begin their walk. Anastasia certainly sounds composed, though whether that's due to maturity or rigidity he can't determine.]

Would you like to talk, or let, ah, nature do so while we walk?

[Some though conversation a vulgar addition to nature walks. Miraculously, Ted would agree to silence under the auspice of the activity.]

[She would rather linger where shade persists, or at least be somewhere where pedestrian traffic was light. Given there location, if she is going to bring up a dark topic, it has to be done slowly.

Anastasia slowed her pace a bit until she came to a full stop.]

I actually wanted your thoughts on a rather...morbid topic. Of course, you don't have to answer it if you don't want to.

[You know not what you ask, An. Once you hear Ted's thoughts, you'll never be the same.

Said thoughts turn inquisitively morbid, wondering what can of worms she'd like to open up. Still, as always, he's game. Glad for it, actually, lest An take his words seriously and suppose where they were walking was anything like nature.]

Of course. Then let's head off the beaten path into that copse there.

[A thicker part that would provide cover from light and company both. He led the way.]

[She quietly followed, staying close as she stayed aware of their surroundings. When she can see fewer and fewer people around, she started her question.]

Okay, so... It's not only a reality, but an inevitability, that everyone must die or leave us in some way. People we care so much about that the heart aches when we don't get to see them enough, forced to face a reality where we have to live with the pain of their eternal absence once they do leave. So I wanted to ask for your thoughts;

How do you think we should live with this kind of reality?

[He nodes along with the first sentence solemnly.]

A pain I know very well, princess.

[He loses her with the next.]

...fortunately, "eternal absence" is not, in fact, reality, so we happily needn't live with that.

[She nods slowly, up until he pulled a silver lining that she doesn't understand.]

I suppose so, speaking from experience with Genessia. But the next Satsuki or Marc might not be the same we know. They might never come back. And they both disappeared one after the other in a short amount of time.

I'm afraid to lose someone I came to truly care a lot for...

[That's a bit more down-to-earth than he was going for. He almost said as much.]

Would the truth more immediately comfortable. Alas, there's nothing for it. One must submit to death in all its guises if one wishes to ever go past the temporary and ephemeral. Just know that there is no separation in the Omnipotence; seek the eternal, and you will, in the end, have lost nothing worth having.

Of course. Always for you.

Did something happen?

I'll explain if you have time to see me in private. Are you able to come to the Holodeck'd in Nova? Or is there somewhere in Fayren?

[That's not reassuring, Ana.] I'll come to the Holodeck'd. I can be there in an hour.

[She knows.]

All right. I'll be here.

[When Mavis arrives, she can find Anastasia still battling holographic targets, practising with an experimental "Tetra Spell" before noticing her friend. She pauses the simulation.]

Oh, there you are, Mavis... I'm sorry to call you all the way out here.

[Mavis waits until she's done. Watching her fight is actually pretty interesting.

She smiles at her.] Don't worry about it. So, what's going on?

[Anastasia closes her grimoire and stows it away in a fannypack-like sling before holding her own elbows.]

Okay, so... Stop me if this is too heavy of a subject, all right? It's not only a reality, but an inevitability, that everyone must die or leave us in some way. So I wanted to ask for your thoughts;

How do you think we should live with a reality like that?

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[Mavis blinks. It was not the kind of philosophical discussion she'd expected. She looked at Ana, wondering if it was because of Satsuki's disappearance or something she saw while at the dream docks.]

I don't think I have the universal answer to this question, Ana. I don't think anybody has.

In the world I come from, you can either accept it or get cursed by the gods because you refused to let go.

...So, I'd suggest you don't follow my example on that one.

Did you refuse to let go?

[She sighs.]

I'm just tired of losing people I care about, Mavis. I'm tired of friends disappearing faster than I can make new ones. It's like my dreams are taunting me and now I'm afraid I'll soon lose him.

[Him being Soma.]

[A nod.]

...Oh, Ana. [She pulls her into her arms, gently.] The secret is to know that this is a possibility but, instead of being sad and revolting against something you can't change, just make the most of the time you have with the ones you love. It might end up being longer than you thought. And, if not, all the more reason not to waste a second of it.

[When she is pulled in, Anastasia hugs back tightly.]

But that would just make it hurt worse if they disappear, wouldn't it? That's exactly the pain Satsuki warned me about.

Yes and no.

It will still hurt. But you'll have more sweet memories. ...That's the way I see it.

The alternative is not to be around anyone anymore, just stay on your own and... that would end up in you turning crazy. [She's seen that happen before.]

Then I would have to be alone... I don't want to be alone. Yet I don't want to deal with the pain of the inevitable.

[The shaky breaths come, it's proving harder than expected to keep her composure.]

This alone could drive me crazy...

[Mavis will just hug her a bit tighter and kiss the top of her head.] That's one of the hardest things to deal with. But you'll be alright. I just know it.

[She's just quiet. Doesn't really make any sounds or moves aside from the occasional sigh.]

I suppose the only way to see if that's true is wait until it happens.

But can I really enjoy the time I have with you all feeling the way I do?

Of course. And possibly you'll have to be strong for your friends whenever they feel sad about it.

I... I suppose. After all, once I'm Queen, I will have to deal with more than just death around me...

[She sighs again. She's doing that a lot.]

...I think a distraction is in order. Do you have a recommendation?

And I'm sure you'll do a great job at it.

Shopping. Or going to a tea salon to eat cakes. Or both.

Salon...

[Something clicks as a realization takes hold.]

You know... Come to think of it, I haven't been pampered in a good while. Maybe a trip to a spa would be good...

I've never been to one. But I've always found hot pools to be very relaxing.

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