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WHO: Sun Wukong & Weiss Schnee
WHAT: Sun needing to talk some things out.
WHEN: Feb 20th, Noon
WHERE: Nova City
WARNINGS: None.

[Sun has an issue, a dilemma. Something that had been weighing on him for a while now. He came to a decision about it, but he needed to talk to someone first. Many people had arrived from his world, but none of them could he talk to about this. He doubted it would be something any of them could understand. The only person he knew might would be Weiss.

But given everything going on, the arrivals, good and bad, he wasn't sure if he should bring it up to her. Or if she'd even have the time to talk about it. Well, it wouldn't hurt to check. So he sent her a message.]

Hey, Weiss. You busy?

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[ You'll have to excuse her for not having caught a horse Pokemon, even if Arcanine is big enough for her to ride. ]

No, but I've been meaning to try it. If it's absolutely terrible, I'm not to blame.

[Maybe if there was some sort of fast, Ice Horse she would have caught it.]

Well you are the one that suggested it, so.. [He picks up the menu and looks at it.] The Vegan Stew looks kind of good..

[ Oh absolutely, but she only got the ice sea monster, the ice fox-ish thing, the ice really bad singer, the ice dinosaur, and the ice.. whatever smoochum is. ~~Plus one thing that turns into ice sometimes for funsies.~~ ]

I was thinking of trying the Grilled Eggplant Panini.

[ She kind of wants to try the Vegan Stew too though.. ] Is everything... as okay as can be expected?

[She also kind of has an ice bird that doesn't actually belong to her. He's going to start to think that Weiss and Articuno secretly hangout sometimes..]

That looks pretty good too. [Hopefully the food has good taste to accompany good looks.]

Yeah. I mean, things definitely haven't gotten any worse. [He wasn't sure how they possibly could, anyway. And he didn't want to find out.] I didn't even think I'd be able to get you out here. I thought you'd be attached to your Sister's hip right now.

[ She's only sneaked into his room to let Articuno out once or twice, okay? ]

She wouldn't let me if I tried. She's a very.. busy, and guarded person. I love her, of course, but she needs to discover this place on her own and I need to start making plans. I'm sure you saw Mercury posting to the network, and Professor Ozpin said Emerald is here too. I thought when I woke up I'd get a chance to breathe, but.. [ She shakes her head. ]

Busy and guarded? Sounds like someone I know. Or the way someone I know used to be. [Weiss was still busy, and she did used to be more guarded, but that seems to be less true nowadays. At least from his perspective.]

Great. Roman, Emerald and Mercury. We take one mental trip back to our world and bring some of the worst people along with us.

Well we are sisters, but she's also a specialist in the Atlesian army so add a layer of military training onto how I used to be, plus much tougher, smarter, and professional. [ She sounds so proud of Winter, honestly. ]

If you see Emerald, Ozpin wants us to leave her alone. I don't know what he's up to with her but he seems to think he has something. --But I'm guessing that's not what you wanted to see me about? [ The waiter approached and Weiss ordered the panini. ]

[He'd heard the Atlesian army was pretty tough. Winter just sort of..emanated that.] Give it enough time, and you'll be on her level.

[He thought Weiss had proved that much. He let out a small huff at the mention of leaving Emerald alone.] If she stays away from me, my friends and our home, then she'll have no problem from me.

[He could obey Ozpin's decree as long as he could make that happen. He let out a small sigh following that, because now he needed to get onto why he called her out here.]

I've..made a decision about something. And I want you to tell me if I'm being stupid or not. [He knew she would have no trouble with that.]

That's about the same as what I told him.

[ Weiss wasn't so sure that Ozpin could make that happen, but she was willing to give him a shot. If anything, their conversation.. hadn't given Weiss the biggest faith in the adults in her life. ]

You know I would if you asked me to or not. What is it?

[Sun was fine with shooting on sight if she couldn't obey those rules. Those people had done enough damage. But onto the point of this meeting, he thinks on it a bit before dropping his gaze down to the table. It was a hard thing to say, and it would probably be a harder thing to do.]

I..want to let go of my feelings for Blake. Even if she came back, she might not have the memories that she left with. And I can't..just try to start something up with her when she doesn't remember all the experiences we had together let alone the feelings. I don't think it would be doing either of us any favors.

I still want to be her friend and everything, and I will always care about her. But I don't think I can let myself feel that way for her again.

[ Weiss listens quietly, then shakes her head. ]

I don't think you're being stupid. I.. actually decided to do the same thing. I don't want any "new" Zukos even knowing we had anything other than passing knowledge of each other. So when you say you don't want to be like that with Blake again.. I understand. She'd be Blake, but she wouldn't be your Blake, right?

[He gives a little nod. He was right, Weiss would understand better than anyone else that he knew. Sun couldn't avoid having interaction with Blake, because not only were they from the same world, but they were friends. And he lived with her team. But he could avoid letting himself get swept up in his feelings for her again.]

It just feels so weird. I wanted to be with her for so long, and now I'm deciding not to be with her at all. [Sun had even considered giving up his feelings for her in exchange for opening up some sort of Sub Archway just to make things even easier. Part of him thinks that would be somehow disrespectful to Blake, though.]

Of course it feels weird. You still love her, but there's a person there who's both her and not her. Sure, you can try to get her to fall in love with you again but it won't ever be the same. You know she wouldn't look at you the same way she used to and trying to tell her how you feel and being looked at like you're a stranger... [ It's obvious Weiss has thought about it a lot. She shakes her head and looks at Sun earnestly, a sad little smile on her face. ] Neither of us deserve that. It's always going to feel weird to not want to be with the person who you know you should be with, but it's not them.

[He gives another nod, still keeping his gaze lowered. This was really going to feel weird. How was he ever going to get through it?]

What did you do to help you get over Zuko? [She seemed pretty over him.]

That's.. difficult. [ She's not even 100% sure that she's completely 'over' him. ] The first thing I did was try to give myself some level of closure. He left a month before the anniversary of our first date so I went to the restaurant we went to and had lunch alone to say goodbye. The hardest part is knowing that every once in a rare while, someone shows up who still remembers. Mostly I made room for the loss I felt. I don't think it'll ever really go away, but I think it gets smaller over time. When I moved down into Ruby's old room in our old house, it helped. Being in the space that we used to always sleep together just made the bed feel empty. Now.. I had a whole conversation about him with Jaune. It's easier to talk about Zuko now. He's still there, and he always will be, but not trying to hide from how much it hurts that he's not here was the only way I was getting any better.

[That made a lot of sense. He'd already gone through the trouble of packing up Blake's things. That was done to at least stop him from always seeing it and thinking about her. Moving to a different room wasn't an option, not that he thought it was necessary in his case.]

Me and Blake didn't have the room I'm in long, so..there aren't any real memories there. But maybe..I could get a new bed. Maybe rearrange the room and paint it. [That would help to give it a fresher feeling. Make it feel different so it really didn't ever have to come off as a room they had together. He could ask Jaune to help with the painting. ~~That couldn't go wrong, could it?~~]

I've already made my peace with the pain always being there. [Because Blake was always going to have a special place in his heart. Nothing could ever change that.] I think if it wasn't, then I'd probably have been lying to myself about how much I liked her.

You should ask Nora to help you move the bed. She can bench that much, easily.

[ Not that Sun can't, but have you seen Nora? She can probably lift two beds on her own if she could see where she was going. ]

I think you're right.. it doesn't make it any more enjoyable though. But after enough time has passed, the pain won't be as prominent and I think.. the space it leaves when it gets smaller is where you're supposed to let someone else in if you can find someone.

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