☽ two. - video

[gundesign]

[When the feed begins, it shows Tori sitting in her room. ...her room that may be a little bit of a disaster area, what with all the scraps of fabric and other various sewing supplies spread all over the place. It's part of her job, she's allowed to be messy.]

I know that for some of us, this is isn't the first time we've been pulled from our world to another one. I'm one of those people, you know?

[She looks away from the camera at the moment, pulling some of her hair back.]

If any of you want to humor a girl's curiosity for a moment or two, would you mind telling me what those other worlds were like?

[She's not even sure what's sparked her curiosity, to be honest. Maybe it's just the amount of time she's spent here getting to her. She's been here longer than she was in Exsilium, after all.]

Comments

[have_hat_will_travel]

.... I guess you'd call it my 'spark'. The fundamental belief that my powers were worth something. That I was worth something.

I'm a Succubus. The very idea of me having a conscience beyond maybe a certain respect for friendship and honest-to-goodness love should be laughable. But I can't stop thinking of my actions in terms of their consequences.

It hurts.

[gundesign]

...you're more than what you're born as, you know. I wouldn't say you're not worth anything just because you're going against what people expect of you.

[This sort of thing is something that strikes a cord with her. Tori was born with the expectation of dying, after all. She's all about opposing fate and being better than what's "expected."

So hearing Pidonus -- her friend -- doubt herself does hurt a little. Hopefully, Tori can help.]

[have_hat_will_travel]

Perhaps. But at the same time... Trying to use my powers for good, or abandon them entirely, feels wrong. Understand, while I don't remember the whole circumstance anymore - I chose to have these powers. I wanted them badly enough that I surrendered myself to a great power of evil to make sure I could work to destroy another one.

And then came Exsilium. And then here. And...

[gundesign]

...maybe you want something else so badly that you're going against that nature now. [Hm.] You just have to figure out what, you know?

[have_hat_will_travel]

You're probably right. But what I do want's been eluding me.

I gravitate towards serving those of darkness, yes. But then I can't bring myself to do much more than enspell people to... Not even do much of anything. I consider trying to do good, but that, too, is wrong.

Ennui, perhaps that's the word.