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24: Confusion (Anon Text Only for now)

I had imagined not taking vengeance for its own sake in order to help someone else would be a good thing. It should not feel horrible or like I did something wrong, and yet it still does.

I wish to ask what you would have done; if confronted with someone who brought you great harm in the past, one who you know had the capability of doing so again, would you be able to walk away? Would you be satisfied with it? Is it even right to let them be?

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[ She's kind of figured that Namur's guessed at her identity by this point, considering the familiar nickname. Damn it. Still going to remain anonymous for now though. ]

It still feels like I should have done something other than what I did.

Liek wat? Got both there smells in my head so i can find them if u want But wat woud u do? Wat wud make it right?

I do not know. If I had an answer to why I stopped myself to begin with, maybe I would not feel so lost.

Well if u aint got that ansur then shure as hell aint no one else no wats in yur head ether So basicly ur beating urself up over shit no1 noes nows w/e Point is thats the dumest shit 2 beat urself up over No1 nos No1 will ever no if u dont So U can keep on picking at it and feeling liek shit Or u can acsept that 4 watever resun u didnt do a thing and thats just part of who u are and move on with ur life Personly i think feeling liek shit sucks eel balls Ur better off doing the acseptans thing U dont like it then work 2 change urself in2 who u want 2 be Do u want 2 be the person that gets revenj and hurts every1 that hurts others? Do u want 2 be the person that helps sum1 in need even if it means working with sum1 u hate? Do u want 2 be a diffrent person? Up 2 u Just pick Then make it happen

[ There's silence for a long time as she's just trying to take everything in ~~and translate the mess of a text that's been sent to her~~. Finally he'll get a response. ]

It will take me time to accept things, I think. I still cannot help wondering if I did the right thing or not.

Did it feel rite wen u was doing it?

I do not know. It was hate and rage that brought me there in the first place, but I do not think I could live with myself if I had damned someone for my own need for revenge. I do not even know if that was necessarily what was happening or if he had lied to me again, but I suppose I did not wish to take that chance.

So in that time u was there u dun wat was rite in ur hart<3 y/n?

I want to say yes, but I am still uncertain.

If ur 1st reakshun is yes and then other shit kicks in and says no then yes <3 works faster than brain Brains smarter but also sumtiems it makes shit too complicated Brains like 2 do that Chew on shit and make it all tangly like fishing wire <3s a lot simpler so ppl dont listen 2 it as much But ur <3 nos who u r better than ur brain So lissen 2 ur <3 U done right 4 better or 4 worse

[ There's another long pause before Namur gets a response. ]

I hope you are right, Namur.

Im always right ;) :P

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