"Not just all men," she said with a chuckle. "And maybe not even all men. Women too. Not an alien thing, if anything, I think it makes him seem more human. Very few people, of any species, want the same thing all the time, in the same way. And times of transition could be confusing. I love Rory, always have. But night before our wedding? I was scared to death. Enough to run away with the Doctor. And then that proved even scarier when I almost was turned into a weeping angel. I thought telling the Doctor after that about the wedding would help me realize Rory was who I was supposed to be with and that I should stop adventuring. Instead? I snogged the Doctor because I suddenly wanted both and neither. I wanted him to push me away because part of me knew it was the wrong choice, I wanted him to let me in because I needed that comfort. And when he pushed me away, I pushed back because I felt tired of having no control and frustrated and..." she shook her head. "In the end... where I thought either I'd have chosen him or never see him again... he kidnapped Rory and we still went on adventures, but as the three of us.And they both put up with me, with the fact that I knew what was right and what I wanted, but that there was also something else that I wanted that almost...almost...felt right. They put up with me pulling them close and pushing them away while everything sorted out. I know now the choice I made was the right choice. Now if I had to chose between the adventures and Rory it would be Rory. Every time and without hesitation. They gave me the space and comfort to make that choice. They took away the pressure to chose, and when the pressure did come, when I had to make my choice, it didn't come from either of them. Greatest gift they could have ever given me. Hanging around, being there for and with me while I took the time I needed to find out what it was I wanted most. When I realized that I was perfectly willing to risk my life and the Doctor's on a hunch, rather than live in a world without Rory, and the Doctor let me. That was when I knew.... The Doctor was my best friend, always would be. But I could, if I had to, live in a world without him. It would be a dark world, and maybe a part of me would never be happy again, a part of me would die with him, but I could survive. If I lost Rory, I was gone too. Completely."
"I don't know if you can give that to the Doctor. I don't think I'd be strong enough to give that to anyone else. To be there while they fight their own inner battles, while they try to find what they want, knowing it might not be me, But it sounds like you and the Doctor really need to give that to each other." She turned back to the racks, really not sure Rose and tie-Doctor could.
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"I don't know if you can give that to the Doctor. I don't think I'd be strong enough to give that to anyone else. To be there while they fight their own inner battles, while they try to find what they want, knowing it might not be me, But it sounds like you and the Doctor really need to give that to each other." She turned back to the racks, really not sure Rose and tie-Doctor could.