Even after hearing it over the phone, even after talking to the guy, even knowing he's somehow here. That time between Earth and this place somehow doesn't line up exactly. Haru and Akira have been here for months. Akechi is dead, back on Earth, from the time Ryuji's from. None of it makes sense, yet it feels like focusing on the fact none of it makes sense, could maybe somehow make this make more... sense... somehow?
But, ha... he's just some idiot, right? Thinking about this kind of stuff isn't where he shines. No, his place to shine... doesn't even exist anymore, and he's-- ...stuck with something like this, now.
He's staring at Akechi a little harder than he means to. His expression gives way too much away: confusion, first and foremost. A wariness, a sense of lingering bitterness (though, it's debatable whether it's just towards Akechi, himself), a lot of shit that he's not really looking forward to letting into his voice. But. ]
...Coulda been worse. [ One hand is resting on his hip now, head turned so his face isn't fully visible. It's as his other hand tightens into a fist, he releases some dry, humorless, mostly-breathed-out laugh. ] Funny...
[ It's not funny. ]
Told myself a lot've things, on the way here. The kinda shit I'd say right to your face... Hell, even back on Shido's ship, I imagined all the shit I could've probably said -- you're a... an idiot... [ He's looking right at Akechi, now. ] You've done a lotta messed up shit... but... that don't mean you deserve what happened...
[ A sigh, and he's rubbing at the back of his neck. There's a glare being directed at the ground. ] ...Guess, for now, you just need to know where your actions got you. Maybe -- not that I'm gonna hold my breath, or anything, but... maybe it'll snap you outta this--... whatever goes on in that head've yours!!
[ YES. HE'S STALLING. HE DOESN'T WANNA SAY THE NEXT PART...
But, after glancing around a little, he shifts his stance and just... pushes the rest out: ]
...After you tried stoppin' us in Shido's palace, the cognitive you showed up. Said he was sent there to...
[ He's clearly uncomfortable. ] ...It was somethin' Shido'd already... planned to do, apparently.
[ Heh... he... can't say it, after all. It's a simple effin' word, but he can't say it. The whole damn thing was so messed up then, anyway, and this isn't the part he really wanted to elaborate on! It just happens to be the part he has to get through first... Augh...
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... ] Look... you're nobody's puppet, all right? You were used by a shitty adult... just like... a lot of us were. Shido's-- he was scum! My own dad was a piece of--... ...but...
[ ... ] ...he was nothin' compared to yours. Damn it...
[ His head's a mess, so maybe it's no wonder he's jumping around so much. But, he'll get back to it... ] Anyway, you... saved our lives, man.
[ ...It's hard enough thinking back to this, but... actually trying to describe how...? ] You- ...shot at some switch that caused a huge door to shut between you'n... us. You said we'd all die if we tried-
[ He looks honestly pissed off... An unsteady, sharp intake of air can be heard as he narrows his eyes for a moment. ] You decided we'd all be weighed down by you...! So we- couldn't get to you... You took on that cognition and all the Shadows by yourself, and--
[ Damn it... ] Even if you can't remember! You're an idiot! We all could've-! We could've all got out together!
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Even after hearing it over the phone, even after talking to the guy, even knowing he's somehow here. That time between Earth and this place somehow doesn't line up exactly. Haru and Akira have been here for months. Akechi is dead, back on Earth, from the time Ryuji's from. None of it makes sense, yet it feels like focusing on the fact none of it makes sense, could maybe somehow make this make more... sense... somehow?
But, ha... he's just some idiot, right? Thinking about this kind of stuff isn't where he shines. No, his place to shine... doesn't even exist anymore, and he's-- ...stuck with something like this, now.
He's staring at Akechi a little harder than he means to. His expression gives way too much away: confusion, first and foremost. A wariness, a sense of lingering bitterness (though, it's debatable whether it's just towards Akechi, himself), a lot of shit that he's not really looking forward to letting into his voice. But. ]
...Coulda been worse. [ One hand is resting on his hip now, head turned so his face isn't fully visible. It's as his other hand tightens into a fist, he releases some dry, humorless, mostly-breathed-out laugh. ] Funny...
[ It's not funny. ]
Told myself a lot've things, on the way here. The kinda shit I'd say right to your face... Hell, even back on Shido's ship, I imagined all the shit I could've probably said -- you're a... an idiot... [ He's looking right at Akechi, now. ] You've done a lotta messed up shit... but... that don't mean you deserve what happened...
[ A sigh, and he's rubbing at the back of his neck. There's a glare being directed at the ground. ] ...Guess, for now, you just need to know where your actions got you. Maybe -- not that I'm gonna hold my breath, or anything, but... maybe it'll snap you outta this--... whatever goes on in that head've yours!!
[ YES. HE'S STALLING. HE DOESN'T WANNA SAY THE NEXT PART...
But, after glancing around a little, he shifts his stance and just... pushes the rest out: ]
...After you tried stoppin' us in Shido's palace, the cognitive you showed up. Said he was sent there to...
[ He's clearly uncomfortable. ] ...It was somethin' Shido'd already... planned to do, apparently.
[ Heh... he... can't say it, after all. It's a simple effin' word, but he can't say it. The whole damn thing was so messed up then, anyway, and this isn't the part he really wanted to elaborate on! It just happens to be the part he has to get through first... Augh...
...
... ] Look... you're nobody's puppet, all right? You were used by a shitty adult... just like... a lot of us were. Shido's-- he was scum! My own dad was a piece of--... ...but...
[ ... ] ...he was nothin' compared to yours. Damn it...
[ His head's a mess, so maybe it's no wonder he's jumping around so much. But, he'll get back to it... ] Anyway, you... saved our lives, man.
[ ...It's hard enough thinking back to this, but... actually trying to describe how...? ] You- ...shot at some switch that caused a huge door to shut between you'n... us. You said we'd all die if we tried-
[ He looks honestly pissed off... An unsteady, sharp intake of air can be heard as he narrows his eyes for a moment. ] You decided we'd all be weighed down by you...! So we- couldn't get to you... You took on that cognition and all the Shadows by yourself, and--
[ Damn it... ] Even if you can't remember! You're an idiot! We all could've-! We could've all got out together!