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Minato opens up an audio channel in the early morning of the day. Weird for him, reserved as he is, since he isn't that talkative on the network as he ought to be. Nevertheless, his voice seems a little off. It's as if something's wrong, but he's trying his best to hide it. Quietly, he mutters...

"Hey, if anyone's out there, how've you...dealt with losing someone close to you? It's been a few days and it's staring me right in the face."

As someone who knows that feeling keenly than most, he isn't too worried about what to do but in his own weird way, he feels he needs some kind of support. He interjects a small, slightly bitter laugh into his musings.

"Well, I guess I know how it feels, now, huh?"

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I think many people have felt loss here. Due to our displacement it's something that is common. It doesn't make the pain any less to know that you aren't alone but I can over an ear if you'd like to talk about it.

[Belle continues to miss her father terribly.]

"...I guess so. I mean, having someone listen can help, but..."

He trails off a bit. He'd done the same for his companions, really. Listening to their woes and worries, comforting their problems. He wasn't too active in fixing problems, but even listening could help people discover the answers themselves.

"Why does this feel so difficult, though?" More than usual, too. A sigh. "...Let's just say that I've been missing from someone's life for a while, and now they're missing from mine. And being on the other side of it again--" Again? "--Still doesn't feel any different. Kind of empty. I don't even have time to feel the loss..."

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"Isn't that emptiness the loss of that person or absence? It shows that you care about them." Belle can't say that she completely understands. The way that he's phrasing it implies tat there is more to the situation than he's saying.

"I'm sorry. I don't know how to help more."

Pretty easy to guess what this was about. Shinjiro had his own conflicted feelings about the subject, after all.

His voice is quiet, contemplative, even in the single word, "Hey."

Minato's only reply in Shijiro's message as just as simple, but reflected his own conflicted feelings about this. His tone, still even as ever betrayed the tiniest hint of loss.

"Hey. What I said earlier..." His tone changed a bit, almost to acknowledge an unusual positive turn. Hope, perhaps... "...Nevermind. I'm glad you're still willing to help me."

He still sounded...tired? Like the life was sucked right out of him, but he kept going.

On his end, Shinjiro was quiet, thinking. Not admitting that he was worried. It was one thing with Aki - his friend seemed to be taking this all in stride. Let Shinjiro keep all of his concerns and his regret over even being concerned to himself. After all, Mitsuru would surely be happier at home.

But neither he nor Minato had a home to go back to.

How did you deal with that? The reminder of that, and the reality of living it? Shinjiro would sure as hell would like to know, cause he hadn't figured it out yet.

Finally, with a casual tone, "D'you want to get some coffee?"

I don't think we ever really deal with it as you ask. We feel the pain of loss and we just keep going with our day because I think they wouldn't want us to wallow too much.

[She paused for a moment.]

Though... I still find myself going to the Bay from time to time in the hopes that my friends come through or those I was close to here.

"...Yeah, I guess you have a point. Why feel bad about what you can't control, right?"

That's what everyone said. That's what he wanted to tell his friends so long ago. But even then, he couldn't accept it. Not yet.

"Might be a good idea, y'know. That's where we got together again. I'm already thinking about it." And rather oddly, in an unusual shift in tone, he added... "But...I shouldn't get my hopes up and wish for a miracle, huh? Even in a place like this, it's still going to hurt a bit. I guess my friends had it right after all."

Minato's voice lets out a small chuckle, as if that's funny somehow. Even as depressed as the boy seemed, there was some appreciation there.

"...Good advice, though. I hope your friends come back soon too, alright?"

It's okay to feel bad, but I think to myself sometimes when I am wallowing 'Would they really want that.' I mean it helps a little bit and I still find myself going to the Bay just in case, but I at least know that I shouldn't. So I don't stay for as long as I might have normally.

[Chiaki paused for a moment, she thought it was okay to always have hope no matter what, or at least try anyway.]

I don't think that's a bad thing. Keeping ones hopes up. As I mentioned I still do because hope is a good thing to have. If we give up hope all we have left is despair after all and... I wouldn't want that on anyone.

[For once the young woman sounded very confident as she said that. It really was something she believed in now more than anything.]

Even if it takes a while or years. One should never truly give up hope. Even if it's deep down.

Dude, if everything you and Senpai have been tellin' me is for real, I'm gonna need to know that too...

[He's trying to be that cheeky happy-go-lucky fellow whose brand of comedy brightens any day, but...

He coughs and changes his tone to be more in line with Minato's.]

...Hey, man... It's about Mitsuru-senpai, isn't it?

[Because she did go home, after all.]

"Yeah. No use keeping that a secret. I'm just hoping that maybe she'll come back, someday."

He's silent for a moment the voice signal rustles a bit, scratches and static. Eventually he decides to reply again...

"Now's not really the time to worry about the past, I guess. I'm going to need a while...to think. Just don't let me drag you down or anything."

Minato's tone is a little better but his voice doesn't really sound like his small-talk worked. His voice almost breaks the calm when he struggles to say...

"...Don't worry, I'll be fine."

He most definitely wasn't 'fine'.

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[He probably should've saw this coming. Just because he was told he was going to have a sweetheart someday don't mean squat if he has no experience to share.

He certainly isn't going to be good with relationship advice. He only has what he knows, even if it did put on the receiving end of Yukari's heels.]

Listen up, man. You have something that no other guy had where Mitsuru-senpai is involved.

Do you think she'll be happy seein' ya brood like this?

Rather than addressing the situation at hand, Akihiko decides it would probably be best to distract him. After all, he knows Mitsuru is safe, but given Arisato's situation, that wouldn't be the best thing to hear.

"Where are you staying?"

He replies almost immediately. Either he's distracted successfully or he's trying to push his own feelings aside. As much as it hurts, he has to keep living.

"...I'm hanging around at the Commons. Nothing special, but I'm going to get booted out of there, soon enough."

With a little rustle or two, he mutters...

"I've started packing. Staying around here, doing nothing...can't be good for me. I'll find somewhere else."

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After everything Minato has been through, Akihiko wants to be the rock he can lean on for a change. Especially in light of everything that's been happening.

"I'm going to go apartment hunting this week and was wondering if you would like to join me? I've been sleeping on Shinji's couch, and that place really isn't suited to multiple people, so I was thinking of getting two apartments next to each other. You and Iori in one, Shinji and I next door. That way we're close in case something happens but we can still have our privacy. It's not as ideal as the dorms, but..."

Akihiko was trying but he was no good at this sort of thing.

Hawke was browsing the network because...well, because there was still a newness to it. The technology and the way people reached out, were reached out to in turn. He had less idea of why he responded - heavy was not for him, and he had never even met this person. Maybe the little room was just a little melancholy. Maybe it was him.]

"Drinking is a popular option," Hawke tells him, tone not quite as light as usual. "Or you can try blaming someone. That seemed to help my mother." He almost regretted saying that. Carver probably would have taken a swing at him. To be honest, he wouldn't have blamed him.

"Personally? You keep going and over time you try to tell yourself it doesn't hurt quite as much. After a while of that you get better at lying, and sometimes you can even convince yourself it's the truth."

There's silence for a moment, almost thoughtful. "In the meantime? Lean on who you have left. Then, when you sympathy starts doing more harm than good convince them you're fine. If you've already started on yourself it shouldn't be any problem."

[Ey kid, have a curious droid.]

We never really got the chance to speak the first time we meet. But I wanted to check on you.

I don't think there's a way to deal. You feel miserable and hurt until it goes away or stop hurting so much. It's a process.

[Kay, that is not how you cheer up people.]

Unfortunately... it's not easy to deal with.

[She's still dealing with it.]

I think... we all have someone that we lose, but it never gets easier to continue on. I'm still trying to make up for a grave mistake on my part, but it's been quite a while since then already...

It's... hard to say. It really depends on the person. I do think that it's important to face your problems head on though... I had to learn that the hard way. I spent so much time running from what was really keeping me from moving on and finding answers...

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