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VII⋆ Oяαcℓє┊❦┊Voice; Failed lock from Seth

[You know... For someone who's usually careful about what she puts out there on the network and locking her posts, she seemed to completely forget to do it here, thinking she'd already did it.]

So umm.... I... have a question for everyone.... How do you tell someone that you like them without choking every time you try? How can people do it so easily? I always feel too flustered like my heart is going to jump out of my chest when I even consider trying to do it.

What happens if the other person doesn't feel the same about you and you make a fool of yourself? I'm just.... It makes me so nervous. Is it worth even telling them? I have no idea what I'm doing...

A-Actually... Never mind. Pretend you didn't hear this. This was a bad idea...

[And with that she's going to just turn the comm. off. Too bad for her that she didn't actually lock this post properly. Have fun with that. Somebody's gotten sloppy.]

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[He looks a little disheveled when he arrives at the park. His white shirt has been untucked from his paints and one of the buttons is looped in correctly though Seth doesn't seem to notice.

It's been a busy couple of days.]

Hey.

[Seth takes the seat on the swing next to her and begins to lazy rock himself back and forth.] So, you want to know why it's complicated?

[She would poke fun at him, but right... serious talk here... Looking down to her feet as she pushed herself backwards a bit idly after a moment of pause.]

Yeah, if it's okay to ask.

I wouldn't be here if it wasn't alright to ask.

[He points out that fact while he tries to organize his thoughts. Where does he start? Over the last 1000+ years and he's had this conversation twice. Lisa never asked him the details of his existence.]

I should start with the obvious. I'm not human and I've been a live for a very long time. I don't know anything about how I was born except that there are two of us that were brought into existence around the same time.

[Welp... She suspected something was different about him, since this world did that but... She would have never guessed that. But for now, she'll just silently listen.]

What.. are you then? The two of you?

Spirits? Dreams? I don't know what you'd call it.

[He looks down at his feet, uncertain if he wants to face Futaba's expression. In a way, he's lying to everyone, and as much as he hates it, it's hard for Seth to be honest with himself or anyone else.]

I didn't know what I was for a very long time. I had nothing to define myself and I didn't know how to make myself appear in the physical world. I traveled through dreams and tried to protect the innocent from the darkness.

That's why I say it's complicated. I've watched so many people die and have continued looking the same. I can't have children or anything like a normal life. Sometimes this body grows to weak and I have to retreat to the dream world for days or years. [It's why he's careful when using his magic and resting though he hasn't been resting in the last few days.] Sometimes people move on or change. I can't do that.

And I wouldn't want to drag someone I love into my life. I'd want the person I love to be happy. [Without him.]

[That was certainly a strange thing to have to get used to. Not that it was bad, but to some degree, it reminded her of a Persona. But the next part just made her stay silent. Maybe this was a bad idea after all then if that was the case, but it didn't stop her from caring about him. It didn't stop how she felt. And while she was still nervous to tell him at some point, she didn't even notice anymore. Not with hearing his reasons.

She didn't speak up for a while, trying to figure out how she wanted to respond. She reached over to grab his hand gently, so that if he wanted he could take it back and she wouldn't impose past that.]

I'm sorry. [Meant to how he's had to live.] ... But what if that people was happy when they were with you regardless of who you are? What if.... she felt safe around you and lonely when you weren't there? It would be a little hard to deal with and all, I'm sure, but I'd want to be there for then even if it meant I might have to say goodbye to them at some point.

Because especially in this place, he have no idea when we're going to leave and... instead of waiting for a good time and missing your chance to really tell that person how you feel.... Isn't it better to get it off your chest and feel better even if things don't work out perfectly?

[Seth's lips twitch into a smile. She almost sounds like Elizabeth though the two women are nothing alike.] Then maybe. [He gently curls his fingers around hers, shifting on the swing enough to look over at her. He looks like he's in his early twenties however his eyes are weighted with age.]

I haven't had to think about it for a long time. The last time I 'dated' rules were different. [Seth doesn't mention it but he used to frequent whore houses in the 18th and 19th centuries. It hadn't been the best use of his time except that he feels alive in those moments, when he is able to touch someone.] I wouldn't know what to do. I can love, I've experienced many types of love, but its always different.

No one is the same.

[He pauses, turning his attention towards the park around them as he continues.]

So, are you going to tell this person how you feel?

[He took her hand... She was already nervous, but heart's beating so much faster with this. Why did people make this seem so easy?

She's taken aback and it's plainly obvious by the way she's trying not to blush and how she's clutching her free arm towards her chest she she's trying to think of how to proceed. Every part of her wants to run, but she knows that won't solve anything and despite those butterflies going crazy right now, she doesn't want to let go of his hand.]

I... [She needed to do this. Even if it turned out bad, at least it would be out there.] I'd like to try... at least. But I'm... having a hard time trying to say what I want to say.

[Especially after hearing about his past a bit.]

[Seth turns his attention back to Futaba. He has an idea of what she's struggling with and he knows that he hasn't made it any easier. He wants to help but this is one thing that he cannot help her with.]

We can always talk again later if you want. [There is more to his story though he's gotten the important bits of it out there.]

Or- [He pushes his swing a bit, pulling her with him.] I like swing sets. I can push you.

No it's... okay. I feel like it's something I need to get off my chest anyways.

[The offer has her smiling though.]

Maybe... in a little while?

[After saying that though, she turned in her swing enough to face him better but not fall out, trying to brace herself. She just needs to say it.]

The thing is.... I... [Say it...] I like you, b-but... I... I get it if you... don't want to.

[Don't want to what? Futaba, just get it out there.]

I know... things are complicated with you and... from the little amount that you've told me so far, I don't want to put you in a tough spot so... If you don't feel the same way, it's okay.

[He squeezes her hand softly.]

I know.

[Probably not the right thing to say.]

I like you too. Otherwise I wouldn't have made you that music box. [Seth can't say that this is a tight spot but he wants to tread lightly. He's always been careful when actual feels are involved.] I'm a little behind the curve with everything so how about this-- we go on a few more dates and I'll start to tell you a little more about me and you can teach me about you and dating. [He really doesn't know what people do nowadays or in her time.]

If you don't want to continue or if you find someone else, you're free to do what you want. I'll always be your friend. And you can explore other options during all this.

[He doesn't want to hold her back from happiness.]

Once everything's out there, we'll talk more.

[Maybe they can do this though Seth is very skeptical. He's willing to try.]

[Some part of her knew that he'd probably accept her feelings, but either way it was hard just to get the courage to say them. In the end, she was probably pretty transparent about them. A few things stuck out at her.

He made the music box for her. She could have just assumed it was just something he had found, but he'd actually made it.... It made her treasure it a bit more than she already did. The second thing was 'a few more dates'. To her recollection, she never actually went on a date with him, but honestly Valentine's Day was basically a movie date.

Overall, she found herself smiling while trying to take this in. He actually liked her back..? She was still new to feeling this way about anyone, so honestly while he was behind, she had no idea how this kind of thing went herself. Sure she's seen movies and all that, but how much of that could you really transfer to reality?]

I... It's okay. I don't know anything about it, so you're one step ahead of me. [Hence the plea for help over comms.] But... I don't think I'd want to find anyone else...

[Seth exhales a soft huff of breath.] I don't know about that. [The centuries have changed a lot and women now have a lot more say when it comes to things in regards of dating. He'll have to adjust and tread carefully though there are some things that Seth doesn't realize are wrong.]

We'll see.

[He isn't expecting her to want to stay with him but he won't push the matter. Not yet. Instead he decides that he has a little bit more time before he has to go back to work and this has just become a date.

Seth pushes himself to his feet and walk around so he's facing Futaba. He lowers himself to a knee and gently takes her hand in his.] Would you do me the honor of letting me push you on this swing?

[He lowers his head and gently kisses the back of her hand.]

[She's sure they'll figure it out as time goes on. She was a little surprised by what he was doing, but she was definitely taken aback by his request.]

U-uhm... S-sure... [Such a weird reaction on her end, but she'll just try to ignore how awkward she can get.]

[Seth is being weird but he seems amused by it. He gently presses a kiss to the back of her hand before rising to his feet and moving around her to push the swing. It's simple and cute but he enjoys the moments they have.

More so since he'll have to run back to work very soon.]

[She's said what she's needed to and even if it wasn't the way she imagined, she was fine once he had to leave to go back to work. She had no idea that he had come from work to begin with, so she didn't want to keep him.

Besides, it gave her time to think about what the heck just happened on her way back home? She knew what happened, but it was just so weird to believe. Now she needed to figure out what it actually meant to date someone. Never mind the fact that Seth wasn't the average boyfriend either from what he told her, but it made her interested in finding out more about him.

Looks like she managed one thing on her Promise List and it was a more difficult one.

+3 Guts]

[Seth pushes the swing for about ten minutes before bringing her to a stop. His long fingers curl around the swing's chains, holding him in place as he leans forward to speak into the shell of Futaba's ear.]

I have to get back to work. [His voice is low and breathy. He's whispering despite the fact that they are very alone at the park.] Stop by the office or my apartment when you can. I suspect I'll be very busy for a few weeks. [But he wants to see her.

Seth releases the swing and stands up straighter. His pale yellow eyes shine gold for a half second.]

I trust you'll keep what I said to yourself. Not to be overly paranoid but I don't talk about myself. You're the first I've told this too. [He doesn't want people to know his full history, he might offer bits and pieces but that's it. Fubata has gotten a little more than just bits and pieces.]

Right... I understand. [She wouldn't want to keep him.] I'll try. M-maybe I can help you out again..?

[She'll simply nod to that, zipping her lips.]

Of course. I'm pretty good at keeping secrets. [Being a hacker and all that.] O-Oh. W-Well.. To be fair, you're the first to know about my mom here, so I think that's a fair trade. Even back home, only my friends and a few others really know about what happened.

B-But... if you ever want to tell me more, I'd love to hear it. I'll keep it to myself, promise!

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