anonymous text

[la_matrona]

How would you go about forgetting someone completely? Or at least enough so the memory no longer hurts? How do you make yourself not care of their existence? How do you stop missing them when you know they are no good for you or anyone you care about? It seems the more I want to forget, the easier it is to remember...

Any help would be appreciated.


[and it doesn't seem fair that this should weigh so heavily on her heart when she doesn't even have one anymore]

Comments

[anon text]

[youfool]

[Time to not help at all!]

One shouldn't.

[anon text]

[la_matrona]

And why not?

[Text]

[specialist_snowflake]

Sacrifice your memory to open an archway to your world.

[Heartless but practical.]

[anon Text]

[la_matrona]

An archway? [she has to think about this] Does that mean I can go home?

Anon text

[bigbadrose]

Don't you dare.

Anon text

[la_matrona]

Who are you to tell me what to do? I wasn't asking for your opinion.

Video he already forgot how to switch back to text nvm anon :TTT

[watcheddog]

You shouldn't do that.

I'd give up memories of my ex-wife, if it wasn't for our daughter. But even though times were really bad, if I just forgot her, then I wouldn't remember how or why to protect myself better.

Bad things we go through are still useful in the long run. They teach us how to do better.

anon text

[la_matrona]

[ugh. it's this disgusting man again. Why does he sound different? She doesn't even want to look at him. Though the fact that he has a daughter as well...

the fact that she continues to feel sympathy for these kinds of men just irritates her more. She doesn't want to. She wants to just let them go. The fact that she can't is a failing on her part.]

I've learned the lesson. [for a hundred years now. She's got it. She no longer needs the daily reminder.]

And I'm far beyond improvement. [she is more or less satisfied with her life in the Land of the Dead. Save for the one thing that always gets her teeth grinding which is why she wants to forget to begin with]

[video]

[howamanlives]

Forgetting something completely isn't right. You need to remember the painful stuff, or else you're ignoring the ways you can make yourself stronger.

Only cowards run from pain. And they usually hurt people to make those memories go away.

anon text

[la_matrona]

Did I ask you for your insight? Why does everyone seem to think I want their opinion. I just want to know if it's possible or not.

[she didn't know what she was expecting really]

I will be a coward if I must. [because she is and she knows it... But music has never done any good for their family. Never. And if she has to keep it away and smother that part of her familia's hearts that enjoy it, she shall. At least they are together and support one another and don't run off never to be heard from again until everyone is dead and it's too late to do anything even if he does apologize as if that will make it better.

She won't forgive him and she won't remember him and nothing any of these people say can change her mind about any of it.]

[Text]

[song_princess]

Why do you wish to forget?

[anon text]

[la_matrona]

That's none of your business.

[video]

[spacepeterpan]

[Not really much for sticking to text (or for anonymity unless he has a good reason), the Doctor answers by video, with a bittersweet, sympathetic sort of smile.]

Not easy, I know. Might be even worse when you feel like you shouldn't miss them, and still do.

[Or vice-versa, but no need to go into that.]

And, I'm sorry, but I don't think you'll like the answer. There are ways--a sacrifice of memories, here, or telepathic surgery, used to have memory blocks back home for this sort of thing. ...well. Not actually for this sort of thing, and that's the problem.

If they're that important to you, or were, yeah, 'course, you can forget them, but they leave a hole. All those things in your past, in yourself, that they influenced, either you lose all of that, or their outline's still there, but all you know's that you've lost something.

I'm sorry. Wish I could say there's an easy way to make it better, but in my experience, all the ways to make it better are hard. ...really, the ways that make anything better are usually hard. But I like to think they're no less worthwhile, for that.

[anon text]

[la_matrona]

[oh it's this one now. And doesn't he call himself Doctor as well? She doesn't understand the British at all]

Holes I can deal with. As long as I know it's for the best I can leave well enough alone. [and she can leave notes for herself besides, trusting herself even if no one else]

Would you know how to do it?

[ANON/Voice]

[micancion]

Ask the people with magic in Fayren. There might be something there.

If you really want it.

[ANON/Voice]

[la_matrona]

[YES GRACIAS HECTOR SHE REALLY WANTED TO HEAR YOUR VOICE now of all times! How does he always--!! The worst timing of anyone she's ever--! And she doesn't even know if he knows! But if he does know she's going to find a way to strangle him because how dare he be so helpful in this situation?!]

I do. Before I do something I will regret.

[such as taking off his head and punting it into the nearest swamp.]

[borntolove]

No.

The easier is to forget.

It's harder to remember.

Because even with the pain they may have given you - they gave you that pain because you loved them.

[la_matrona]

[Why are you back again? No there are two that look like him.

And si She is well aware of that! She knows how much she loved him! Loved! In the past! And should stay in the past but refuses to! But that wasn't enough for him! Nothing was ever enough for him except music. So it doesn't matter. It can't be undone. She is too old and dead to hurt so much and yet it still. keeps. happening.

There is no answer but the sound of something breaking that seems like it might have been expensive]

anon text;

[orlokbutterfly]

wow look at all these people who think they should have say on what to do with YOUR memories.

Quickest way to ditch a memory is open a subarchway to your home.

The more painful way is dying. Literally. Die, give up the memory as your cost for resurrection here. Ta da! No more memory.

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[la_matrona]

People often think they know what is best for you. [she's used to it but it's still annoying

As for the advice, she is not sure she wants to go to such an extreme, even if she could die again. Besides the chance of a Final Death seems a real possibility and she's not willing to risk that]

Have you tried either before?

anon text;

[gamerrep]

I know there are methods if it's an important person to you, but it only works in you want something from home like a place or you die here and I wouldn't fully understand your reasoning behind wanting to forget, but yet I can understand to an extent wanting to forget someone who's not good for you.

[She would rather forget Junko existed to be perfectly honest.]

anon text;

[la_matrona]

[she wants to say that he's not important. That she barely cares for him. Yet even if that were true, he's so wrapped up in her life it proved impossible to push him from it, even when he wasn't there.

As for the rest of it, she does and doesn't want the house. What use would an empty house be? Another reminder of all that she doesn't have]

Have you done this or know of people who have?

[text]

[hotheadwarmheart]

Yeah, the human mind is weird like that. Assuming you are human of course; hard to tell in this place.

Anyway, there's at least two ways I know of from my world, though you might find in both cases that the cure is worse than the disease, so to speak.

[text]

[la_matrona]

How is that?

[anon text]

[draconixaviarix]

Why..would you want to forget? E-especially someone?

I couldn't imagine the memory of someone being erased-good or bad-it'd be..like erasing apart of yourself...

...That's..scary..

[anon text]

[la_matrona]

Perhaps but it is a part of myself I do not mind losing. [good or bad, what does it matter to remember those times? It was all a lie to begin with-- or if not a lie at least something she should have suspected from the start]