[Anon Text]

[borntolove]

How does one go about forgiving yourself?

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[bigbadrose]

[She blinks at the stammered question. When is he ever nervous like this? And when he gets it out, she gently pulls him down for a long, enduring kiss, too romantic and emotionally tender to be a proper snog.]

Already did, ages ago. Thought you knew. Or just thought maybe saying it would make things worse, yeah? [Eskimo kisses!!] Can you forgive me too? For always being so snarly and angry the first year? I won't go back there again, I promise.

[And She laughs at the final part.] Yeah. You couldn't get rid of me even with all that behind us, what makes you think you ever could now either? [Locks her hand in his, and kisses his cheek.] You're stuck with me! I'm never leaving you, even when you try to force my hand. [Swings his hand, and kisses it.]

Sometimes... a lot o' times, I think that's what you're trying to do, yeah? Push me away so you can blame yerself, but hey, at least it was in your control, not because I died or walked off, or something. Even the whole... older self thing, yeah?

So listen up.

[Fiercely squares off and peers up at him.] I am never ever gonna leave you. I will always always love you, and I am nevar gonna let you go. I don't even know how! Even if I wanted to. And I tried to want to, and it made everyone, especially me, miserable. I'm done with all that. From here on out, no matter what happens, you've got me.

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[borntolove]

[Ever since he found what a land mine Rose can be and doesn't have the will to get blown up by another one. However, it is one question that would help put at least half of his mind at rest and not biting his own head; as much. It's her answer that he's afraid of - because as she's kindly pointed out - she has ever to be and who knows maybe she's still upset that they fought to begin with or maybe it's just his own guilt complex.

The being pulled down and tenderly snogged is a very pleasant surprise. He was honestly expecting her to say; not yet or not completely. Something more along those lines.

There's a small weak head nod at the question of 'maybe saying it would make things worse, yeah' and eskimo kisses back and pulls Rose close and tenderly snogs her and softly states]

Always.

[The Tardis plays song from 1:53 onwards]

[Then combs a bit through her blonde hair and seems like an anvil was lifted off his shoulders and hugs her tight and silently happy cries and twitches his torso when she bring up him trying to force her hand - hopefully - he can start to forgive himself now too and presses his cheek against hers softly and his body against hers and leaning inwards and holds her close and tight. With a soft and worn but loving smile on his lips.

That's one giant leap towards healing]