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[anonymous text] Hollow Comfort

a question
by now many of you have realized your situation
and where we are and what this place is
so to those that have embraced this world:
what do you find worthy of your time?
how do you find meaning in this nothingness?
how can you say that helping someone is worth anything?
when they might not be here next week
right now i don't see the point in anything
and would like a different perspective

[video] When the Piper Seeks his Fee...

[Vaggie looks up on the camera as she sits on a bench in Everglade looking morose as usual. Beside her are a set of boxes and bags, and she seems to be peering soberly at the camera.]

Well, it finally happened. Those little red bills they gave me are finally down to the last few. And as charming as it is to sleep out in a back alley or under a newspaper in the park, I don't really find that all that appealing.

So, uh...

...yeah, I'm asking for a job. Not asking for much, but it does have to pay. I've done some bookkeeping stuff in the past, and maybe a few odd jobs here and there. Its not exactly like I have references. But if you have something or have heard of someone that is hiring, help a girl out? Thanks.

Oh, and if that job is Torchwood -- I'm not interested.

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you sound like someone i know
they can also see the good in a bad situation
though they were born into it and didn't know anything else

i'm used to everything you've just described
it doesn't bother me anymore

Edited 2019-04-04 03:42 (UTC)

Well, that attitude certainly won't help matters any.

But when you talk like that

are you unhappy back home too?

Well, I cannot deny that it has been difficult to spread the word... Many of my employees have vanished, so it's just me running all of the branches. I've been quite overwhelmed with cataloging everything I come across all on my own, and fulfilling requests.

Have you any experience in advertising?

[She blanches. Its a real deer-in-headlights moments.]

No.

...

And if that's what the job requires you can forget it.

...

Sorry.

its hell

[Literally.]

Not at all! If I had more adequate help at the business front, I'd be able to spend more time on advertising myself. If it's not your cup of tea, then I'll not force it upon you.

I see.

Um.

Maybe the 'someone' you should focus on helping for now is you, then. You've got a chance to be away from home...

What would you want to do if your home wasn't

heck?

You can do it here.

Is honesty to oneself the thing? Pity they can't be honest to others. Still, now I'm seeing your views. The bad things are trustworthy, and good things only insofar as they're potentially bad. A little more charity and a little less stream-of-consciousness judgment might work wonders.

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Ahaha, I wasn't aware the type was betrayed by looks. Do you like physiognomy? Well, secretaries don't interact with patients nearly so much as physicians do. Still, you'd like to keep socializing to a minimum? Your activity on the network suggests otherwise.

Edited 2019-04-04 12:33 (UTC)

Let me know if you find one.

I've been here for years and haven't yet.

Some people cling to the "opportunity" of other worlds or fallen enemies. Fools.

Interesting questions to ask anon and honestly, I find meaning in the people I become friends with. That doesn't mean I've embraced the world because really some here might be here for years but never really do as such, but friends are a good enough reason.

The only job I have to offer is a paid internship and a receptionist.

[She wouldn't be sure if the other would like the internship, you would need to have an interest in automail or prosthetics.]

But hey you say you aren't asking for much, but usually, people do something they are passionate about. So what are you passionate about?

I have many a job in my clothing shop and host club, but not sure if you would do well at being a host.

[The reply takes a while. a LONG while. Nearly an hour goes by when the response goes through.]

be with the person that is not here

everyone is an asshole
until they are proven otherwise
i've seen a lot of 'good people'
that were really just reaching for their own selfish desires
and pushing aside others that get into the way of their ideals
you're better off being judgemental
because the only one that starts look out for you is you
if you count on somebody to help
they have to have earned it
anything less is a mistake waiting to be discovered

-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-

[She was going to make a retort but she then sort of just. Stops. Her eye moves toward Ted, giving him an appraising glare.]

...what did you just say? Are you really looking into my activity on this thing...? Are you seriously just confessing that you've been stalking me just now?

Yeah, no. I'm not... really what anyone would call a social person. This whole thing is only just okay because I can keep it one-on-one...

Still, this is the best job I've been offered so far. So how much does it pay?

here's somebody gets it

but its also not good to do nothing
and its not like we're going anywhere

what do you do to fill space?

[She starts to write. Aggressively at first, but then slowing down as she gets to the end.]

if they are somebody worth keeping then they're going to have to be important
you laugh and get angry and get comfortable with them getting in your space
then they leave or you get pulled away
with only a hole where they used to be

making you ask stupid questions on a network
to people you don't know or you don't care about really
wondering if you can even try to do something like that again

[Only go back and delete some of the lines she's not ready to say publicly.]

if they are somebody worth keeping then they're going to have to be important
then they leave or you get pulled away

making you ask stupid questions on a network
to people you don't know or you don't care about really

Is that doubting view of others something you wanted another perspective on? Or are you satisfied with it thus far?

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Oh, goodness no, nothing so specific.

[She considers the jobs offered up until Winry starts talking about passions. That causes her to give a real think which always leads to the same answer, and one she's not about to say publicly. Instead, her arms raise across her chest and she becomes ore defensive. Still, that question deserves an answer.]

That's a really hard question. Most of my passions are things that I do on my own. I have an easier time coming up with things I don't like.

So... uh, if we were to try to say them another way... I... like organizing things. I like seeing things come together and work better. I like quiet. I like doing things on my own. I like it when people take things seriously. I like staying away from idiots.

[Its stream of consciousness at its best. Its a start, she figures.]

[She lets out a dry and grumbling laugh.]

I did some work in that area, but I think we may be talking about two different jobs. [In a past life her "host"ing was much more explicit in function.]

Clothing shop though, huh? That... might not be too awful. Depends on what you need done.

why would i want it changed?
that's just how the world is
what i'm looking for is something worth doing in THIS reality

-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-*V*-~-

That's what it sounds like to me! So, what were you doing, listening in on conversations that weren't about you.

I can find meaning here because I've seen real nothingness. Seen it, felt it, lived it, been it. And this? Isn't it. I don't what exactly to call this place, but it's not nothingness.

And sad as it is, this place is the closest I've had to an actual life for over a decade. I've got a job, an apartment, friends, pets... And yeah, they might all be gone next week or even tomorrow, and that would definitely hurt. But when you get right down to it, the same is true no matter where you are. Nobody gets any guarantees in life.

You can't let that stop you from living your life, though. Or from enjoying it. Some of my friends might not be here any more, but they're still in my heart and my memories, so we're still connected, no matter where they are. And that's good enough for me.

so your answer to that is to live your life without knowing where they are or how they are doing?

i can't decide if that is brave or naive

that and be a little jealous

Don't get me wrong; if I had a choice in the matter, I'd definitely keep up with them and how they're doing. But since I don't have that choice, I have to make the best of what I've got. And since they're my friends, they wouldn't want me to spend my life sitting around moping and worrying.

I still miss them sometimes, obviously, but well, like I said, they're my friends. They'd want me to be happy, so I kinda owe it to them to try and have as good of a life as I can, and to try and improve my life and the lives of the people who are still here. Most all of them have helped me learn something or grow as a person since I've been here; not taking those experiences to heart feels almost like betraying their memory. And I'm not gonna do that.

So... yeah, I'm no expert, and I definitely can't tell you how to live your life. But I will say this; if you give this place and the people here a chance, they might just surprise you. I know they surprised me.

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