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                   V I D E O ;

[Mikasa seemed a little bit exhausted, but working two jobs could do that to a person; especially since Mikasa has gotten a nasty habit of working a lot by choice. But to anyone who knows her well enough, they should know that despite overworking herself, this kind of exhaustion seems... different.]

Has anyone seen Jean around? I've been looking for him for a while now and I can't find him. He's not answering his communicator and I haven't seen him at work....

If anyone knows, please let me know. Thanks.

[And despite the brave front that she's putting on, those who know her well enough might be able to tell that she's obviously worried.]

                   A C T I O N ;

[After spending all day -- if not longer -- searching for Jean, she finally returned home. She didn't bother speaking to anyone, but instead she retired to her room right away. All of her emotions were finally catching up to her now that she was home and in her own room. She just wanted to break down after trying to stay strong all day.

It was obvious by now.Jean was gone. He wouldn't have been gone for this long without talking to her or the others at some point. He would have let them in on what he was doing or where he was, but there was nothing from him. Flopping down on her bed, she didn't exactly do much. Even if her emotions were welling up inside, it was as if they wanted to come out, but didn't know who.

That's when a small creature came over to see what was going on with her. Chespin was curious to see what her owner was doing, or therefore lack of. As if trying to comfort her, she slowly came over to her and nuzzled her leg. Mikasa glanced down to her pokemon and let out a sigh as she picked her up.]

Are you trying to comfort me? Thanks, I appreciate it.

[And there it was. Those tears building up in the corner of her eyes. She didn't want him to leave, but it was just like Eren. Eren left unannounced, but that was the nature of this place.]

Tell me... Is it worth getting close to someone if all that's going to happen is that they're going to leave you behind?

[A question more-or-less to no one in general. A train of thought that escaped from her mind if you will.]

OOC: Feel free to bug her in person too if you find a way/reason to.]

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[Hugs are difficult with Chespin on her lap, but she sees that Mikasa has someone here for her, so she was okay with hoping off and going to Piplup.]

Love... [Repeated but...] I... I don't know what that's like. Is it love? All I know is it hurts. I don't want him to leave. I didn't want either of them to leave.

It hurts.

[Now with tears rolling down her cheeks, why bother trying to hide it?]

[scoutingangel]

[Piplup looks happy to have company even if the mood in the room is not happy at all... LET'S PLAY SOMETHING! Hide & Seek or tag maybe, she's at least going to suggest those with Poke language since she's really not sure what else to do in Mikasa's room or near it even. Strange place for her.

And Petra is really not sure how to explain love to the other girl. But as soon as the pokemon is on the floor, she's wrapping her arms around Mikasa.]

Come here.

[A little too late to say it, since she's already hugging her but well, she can pull her closer after those gentle words!

Now then. How to define love? Romantic love, that is.]

I'm not an expert on it or anything, I don't even think that anyone is, but -- as for me it's about whether or not I'm attracted to them along with deep and strong emotional desires to them; like if I want to date and kiss them, it's what I'd call a crush. And once I get to know them better and feelings just grow stronger, then I'd call it love.

And it hurts. [Though she's more experienced on the losing friends thing than this but... well, same thing without romantic feelings on it, there's been a lot of love anyway.]

I'm so sorry. I didn't want them to leave either.

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[Chespin was more than happy to play something; Considering that Mikasa seems to be in good hands. Hide & Seek it is! Would you like to go first Piplup?

Meanwhile, despite not really having a choice in the matter of a hug, Mikasa didn't fight it or anything. She didn't say anything. Instead, she chose to just listen to what Petra had to say. She may not be an expert, but she knew more than Mikasa did.]

So that's what it was all this time.... And now it's too late to... I should have said something sooner... Or maybe I shouldn't have...?

[She set her head on the girl's shoulders, returning the hug with her own tight embrace. One that felt like if she let go, Petra would go too.]

[scoutingangel]

[Oh, Mikasa, this girl wouldn't go anywhere even if you let go of her. But she is happy for the affection and loves it, so definitely no need to let go or change anything. Petra holds her tighter and continues petting her hair, other hand doing the same to her back.]

No one really knows the answer to that, huh. [to say something sooner or to never say anything or to regret not having said anything... sigh.]

But you know, waffling on it is --- not good. It's the time that we spend with them, that matters even if not having said that or even realizing it before it's too late leaves us with regrets... [this happened too often back home too.] We just need to use the time we get in all the best ways we can...

[AND NOW SHE'S CRYING TOO, this is getting kind of really personal for a girl, who lost her best friends right before coming here. And who'd never see anyone outside here.]

Even without hearing it, I'm sure they know it even if they don't realize it themselves either. It's all really complicated. [Love, that is.]

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[Oh Petra.... weren't you here to cheer Mikasa up? It looks like Mikasa will just have to return the favor; though not like she had to be told to do that.]

I miss them so much. He knew about certain things that only Eren and Armin knew about... And he was always there when I felt lonely and needed someone to talk to. And.... he said he's teach me how to draw...

[And despite her tears, she did think of something else that she'd thought about ever since started to date Jean.]

I can't help but think about what Eren would say or how he'd react if he came back and then found out.

If I had told him that I was in love with Jean. [At least she said it, though she's had the idea for a while that it had to be something of the sort.]

[scoutingangel]

[She is here to cheer her up, but this is also hitting on a lot of personal levels. Though those personal levels are mostly old stuff, that she's used to dealing with every day, so -- nothing wrong with showing her feelings honestly, because one of them has to do that too for everyone else anytime.

Anyway, yes, priorities. She's here to cheer her up and not dwelling on her own feelings. So she's smiling at Mikasa's words.]

I know. I miss everyone too. And it's great to learn to trust someone else outside your usual people that much... You do know, that you can talk to me about whatever too?

[Because Mikasa could if she ever wants to. About anything, really. It's not like Petra is trying to intrude or come between anything, she's just trying to be there for her for anything.]

I'm sure he'd love to teach you how to draw if he ever comes back. Or you could learn from someone else before that and show him your skills on it then... But it'd be more fun for the both of you if he's the teacher.

[ .. Hmm. What would Eren say? Okay, is this her chance to try to amuse the sad girl somehow? Let's try--]

He'd probably ask are you seriously telling him, that you were in love with that horse face.

[SHE DOESN'T EVEN GET WHY YOU CALL JEAN THAT, but there, she's trying to amuse and not meaning is an insult because that name seems to be a thing among the 104s. Sorry, she only knew Eren for a little while and not for years like them.]

... Honestly, I'm not sure. I never knew about Eren, what he is going to do or say next. It's interesting.

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[Well, Mikasa will always do her best too... Maybe... just not right now?]

I know. Thank you, Petra. I really do appreciate that.

[And the fact that she could always go to Petra for whatever. It was nice to actually spend more time with her this entire time here.]

I... would rather learn from him so... I guess I'll just wait and hope that he comes back. Both of them. I'll check the Bay as much as possible to see if they both returned...

[But that does get a very faint smile through her tears.]

He would freak out, that's for sure, but they're both important to me. That's why... That's why I tried not to talk about Eren much in front of Jean because I knew how they both felt about each other.

[Too be fair, neither does Mikasa.... Why horse face of all things?]

[scoutingangel]

Hey, it's the least I can do. Besides we need to save Levi's ears from my rambling a little at least whenever we can.

[Lame joke because surely he rather listens to Petra's voice here as much as possible. But you know, she loves being social and getting to know people and spending time with everyone from home here where it's still possible is amazing. So no hesitation. From anyone. She'll actually, really talk with anyone whenever.]

Yeah, I figured you'd rather learn from him and we're all hoping for that. I'll help you check every day, okay? It's on the way from the company to the bakery anyway, so I tend to check it that often anyway.

[Faint smile is good. Her own smile grows a little wider when she sees that.]

He would, but I'm sure they both just want you to be happy with whoever you end up with and that should be the most important thing.

...Hahah, I guess you're actually a lot nicer than me on not talking about someone else in front of the person, who clearly has feelings for you.

[Coming from the girl, who devoted her whole life to Levi and then Oluo goes into the imitating thing and she just tells him to stop instead of shutting up about Levi herself in his company?? Yup, she didn't really consider the poor guy's feelings at all in her starry-eyed love for her captain.]

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[Mikasa nodded to that. It would be nice to have others check on it, but let's be real here. She's probably not the only one sad that one of their friends from home went back home. She's sure the others are probably doing something like what she was doing.]

It's more-or-less to keep the bad mood/arguing down to a minimum... But... I'm happy for you and Levi. That you can both be here together again.

You know how I feel about Levi myself, but I've been trying to get better about it. [Happy that someone else here from their world can actually be happy.]

[scoutingangel]

[She nods.]

Keeping it down to that is usually good. Not always, but most of the time in some cases at least.

Thanks, I'm really glad to hear both of those things. I know he can be a little -- or very -- difficult to understand, so if you ever need a Levi translator, I'm here for that too.

[That's what she used to do back home too. But she's not in this room to talk about Levi!]

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I guess.... If he comes back... I can surprise him if he doesn't remember this place.

I'm sure he'd be happy to hear it...

[Because even Mikasa could tell that he liked her back then and just didn't give him a chance at first.]

[scoutingangel]

[Sorry. The mental image of Jean not remembering this place and hearing that from Mikasa is too amusing, she can't help a tiny giggle from getting out. Then again, it is the only place where she can hear that Levi loves her... Sigh, still smiling.]

I'm sure of it too. It'd be surprising too... But still, it's one of the most amazing things to hear from the people you love.

[talking from personal experience? yes!]

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Then... [Starting to attempt to stop her tears] Then I'll just have to surprise him them.

[scoutingangel]

[Petra holds Mikasa tighter, cuddles a little closer too and gives her all the time in the world to either cry more or dry those tears at her own pace.]

We're all here for you whenever you need anything.

[inhisdebt]

I know.. Thank you.

The same goes for you.