[A blink. A briefest flicker of the eyes away from the screen. As if her words have opened some window of vulnerability in him and he's slammed it shut.]
Not all love is reciprocated. It's a simple truth of life.
Have you considered the possibility that he wouldn't care about your sins even if he knew them? That past is past and all that matters is what he sees now?
I wish I could explain better but no... I don't think anyone would want to forgive me. Those I know only want to use what I can do.
[She's met some people but even then they wanted to use her for the resistance against the Empire. She's killed so many people, it doesn't matter if the world forgives her because she can't forgive herself.
[It takes one to know one. Somehow he can feel this.]
There was a man on my world. A spy who chose poorly and lost everything. In his grief, he swore to honor his men by becoming the strongest. Even if it meant abandoning his principles and losing himself to chaos and violence.
He killed countless men in his mad quest, nearly even killing his old master. The only people who had any kind of faith in him were the the peaceful wanderer he sought to defeat.... and the girl he'd turned his back on to protect her. No matter how far the spy had fallen into darkness, neither of them doubted he could be saved.
The spy and the wanderer are on amicable terms now. And the girl has never left his side. Even if he still struggles to show how much she means to him.
[A silence lasting a few beats. Who knew he could be like this.]
Terra Branford... maybe you should let other people have faith in you.
[Terra isn't sure what to say. Her eyes are cast towards the floor, while her fingers carefully hold the phone. There is an expression in her gaze that she rarely shows, one that's vulnerable and unsure.]
I've killed so many people.
[Even those trying their best to escape the Empire.]
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Not all love is reciprocated. It's a simple truth of life.
Have you considered the possibility that he wouldn't care about your sins even if he knew them? That past is past and all that matters is what he sees now?
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I wish I could explain better but no... I don't think anyone would want to forgive me. Those I know only want to use what I can do.
[She's met some people but even then they wanted to use her for the resistance against the Empire. She's killed so many people, it doesn't matter if the world forgives her because she can't forgive herself.
She's a monster.]
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There was a man on my world. A spy who chose poorly and lost everything. In his grief, he swore to honor his men by becoming the strongest. Even if it meant abandoning his principles and losing himself to chaos and violence.
He killed countless men in his mad quest, nearly even killing his old master. The only people who had any kind of faith in him were the the peaceful wanderer he sought to defeat.... and the girl he'd turned his back on to protect her. No matter how far the spy had fallen into darkness, neither of them doubted he could be saved.
The spy and the wanderer are on amicable terms now. And the girl has never left his side. Even if he still struggles to show how much she means to him.
[A silence lasting a few beats. Who knew he could be like this.]
Terra Branford... maybe you should let other people have faith in you.
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I've killed so many people.
[Even those trying their best to escape the Empire.]
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In the end, it didn't make him any less worthy of another's love.
["That goes for you too." is all but unspoken.]
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Wouldn't I have to forgive myself?
[She doesn't think she can do that.]
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Nothing will be more difficult.
That doesn't mean you can't find strength in the people around you.
[Call yourself whatever you like, Terra. But don't deny having friends.]
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[She won't deny her friends.]
Thank you for speaking to me about this.