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genessia2016-07-19 10:36 pm
enchantressofore) wrote in genessia2016-07-19 10:36 pm
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11: Acceptance - Anonymous Text, Action for Nova City (July 20th, All Day)
[ This is a hard text to send. It's been a couple of days since that talk, and it hasn't gotten any easier. Work has been helping keep her mind off of it, but she still has to ask.
Anonymous texting time is a go! ]
I need to overcome the feelings I have for a close friend. Is there anything any of you can suggest that may help in doing so?
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[ It's a day off, and a rare time when Adela doesn't have her new puppy on her or her digimon at her side. Instead she's decided to explore Nova City a bit, wearing something decidedly more casual than she normally wears. It helps when the weather is hot.
There are a few places she goes to stay out of the sun, from Figurine Fables to visit a familiar friend, to the After Life to visit yet another friend (or perhaps more), to the museum to learn more of all of the cities and the worlds of the inhabitants, to the planetarium, allowing her the fascination of space, and to a simple mall food court that will allow her to cool off and replenish. It all keeps her from staying in the sun for too long, and at the very least is enriching and keeping her mind clear of other problems for the moment.
It's not exactly easy to get around in a wheelchair, but she's made bigger adaptations befpre and experiences like this are still worth the trip. ]
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Private Video to Ace D. Portgas
[ In the later evening she's back in Genessia, parked under a tree in Garden Park when she sends a message. ]
Ace, I need to to talk you. I understand if you cannot right away, but I would rather speak with you as soon as possible.
Anonymous texting time is a go! ]
I need to overcome the feelings I have for a close friend. Is there anything any of you can suggest that may help in doing so?
[ It's a day off, and a rare time when Adela doesn't have her new puppy on her or her digimon at her side. Instead she's decided to explore Nova City a bit, wearing something decidedly more casual than she normally wears. It helps when the weather is hot.
There are a few places she goes to stay out of the sun, from Figurine Fables to visit a familiar friend, to the After Life to visit yet another friend (or perhaps more), to the museum to learn more of all of the cities and the worlds of the inhabitants, to the planetarium, allowing her the fascination of space, and to a simple mall food court that will allow her to cool off and replenish. It all keeps her from staying in the sun for too long, and at the very least is enriching and keeping her mind clear of other problems for the moment.
It's not exactly easy to get around in a wheelchair, but she's made bigger adaptations befpre and experiences like this are still worth the trip. ]
Private Video to Ace D. Portgas
[ In the later evening she's back in Genessia, parked under a tree in Garden Park when she sends a message. ]
Ace, I need to to talk you. I understand if you cannot right away, but I would rather speak with you as soon as possible.
Action
I have no desire to hop everywhere, Namur... That is why I am working on automail for myself in the first place.
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[And before she has a chance to protest, Namur picks her up out of the chair and tosses her in the air with just enough spin to get her facing the same way as he is, grabs her around the waist again and settles her on his shoulders behind his head. He's got broad shoulders and thick muscles on his back leading up to a dorsal fin, so it's a pretty stable situation, all things considered. She'll have to use her stump to help keep herself steady once they start moving, of course, but if it's able to move that won't be a problem unless she's let the muscles atrophy. Namur stands slowly, and picks up the chair with one hand.]
See? Better view, an' y got a chance t' actually enjoy it now, aye? Jus' gimme a headin' an' leave the navigatin' t' me. Where y' wanna go?
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... She feels like a child. This is embarrassing. She shakes her head, glancing down at Namur. ]
Wh-What do you mean by this?? Namur!?
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Jus' what I said! Now y' can look 'round without fussin' over pushin' the damn thing! Do this all the time for my girls, so I ain't gonna let y' fall. If y' don't tell me where y' wanna go I'm jus' gonna start goin' somewhere though.
[Which, in fact, he does right that moment. They're near his apartment above the bar, so he lifts the wheelchair up and secures it on a tree branch so he can come back for it later.]
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Even if this is still very, very strange. ]
... I was thinking of heading to the Planetarium? It... It sounded interesting.
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Damn. Need a map.
[There's one on the flimsy little glass phones, isn't there?]
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It should be there.
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[And they'll be there in a jiffy! Of course, he'll take her through the exhibits too. In the observatory dome, he sets her down so she can lean on a metal rail for herself and stretch her leg a little, while he cracks his neck and sits balanced on top of it, staring up at the projected stars. They aren't more than fuzzy spots of light to his eyes, but he can recognize patterns of the big ones well enough.]
Y'd think after hoppin' through three new worlds an' knowin' my own's pretty damn good, I'd find somethin' similar in the stars somewhere. But there ain't. 'S all completely differnt. An' it ain't jus' a case a lookin' at shit from a new perspective. Checked that 3D map downstairs. No matter how y' rotate it, it don't match up t' nothin'. Like it ain't jus' a new planet, but a whole new universe. Crazy, huh?
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[ It's fascinating, very interesting, but in a way it's lonely too. ]
... It makes me feel so small, in that way.
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Last place I's at, they told us shitty aliens'd destroyed all our planets an' we was bein' digitally recovered in order t' try an' save somethin'. Since time gets all mucked up when y' jump, I still don't know if they's lyin' or not. Still. 'S weird t' think ever'thin's got a time limit, y' know? Not jus' people but places an' things. Rocks an' the ocean an' the sky. Maybe even the stars theirselves. Makes me wanna make the most a every day, y' know? Shit's gonna die but good mem'ries is gonna last forever.
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And then it will start again for other people and other places, right?
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Nobody never said nothin' 'bout that. Maybe. Like t' think so. Shame t' waste all that Life.
[He chuckles a little.]
Anyway, if some shitty mask-wearin' aliens showed up t'morrow an' blew the hell outta everythin', what d' y' think y'd regret the most?
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[ ... Hm...
...
Sigh. ]
Perhaps not saying something I wished to say, but at once I also fear what will happen if I do say something. So I do not know how to answer that.
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[Namur leans down so he can whisper.]
Tell y' right now, I ain't real good at guessin'.
[Even if he did call her out on her crush the first time they talked.]
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[ ... She can't stop herself from going a little pink, though it's no where near the extreme Namur has seen from that time when he correctly called out her crush. ]
... Regarding Ace... I have been wondering if I should say something to him or not.
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[Namur sighs.]
Tell 'im or not, 's it gonna change the way y' feel 'bout 'im? If he turns y' down, gonna love 'im less?
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[ She sighs, shaking her head but in spite of herself wearing a little smile. ]
I mean... I already know I cannot force him into anything, and if he does not return those... Feelings... A crush as you called it? I... I would have to give up on that type of feeling. But...
[ After a moment of thinking, Adela nods as she just closes her eyes to think it over without the pressure of meeting Namur's eye. ]
Ace is still a wonderful friend and a good man. Part of my fear is losing him as that if I were to say something, but... Even if he did not return those feelings, I think I could live with that if I could still have him as a friend in my life. I would rather see him happy, and be able to share in that whenever possible. Does that make any sense?
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Ain't gotta give up lovin' someone jus' cuz they don't love y' back the same way. Some people's dumbasses an' don't know how much they need people lovin' 'em. But other'n the expectation that y' might 'ventually have sex, it don't change nothin', right? An' if someone else comes 'long that tickles yer fancy, y' can love them, too.
Think y' oughta tell 'im jus' so he knows where yer comin' from. Hidin' shit ain't a good way t' have a relationship. But he's a dumbass. An' he says he don't wanna worry 'bout that kinda shit right now, so yer probly gonna see the not pretty side a 'im. But if y' hang in there, yeah, yer gonna still getta be friends. Hell, hang 'round long 'nuff maybe Marco'll decide yer family. Sheheheh!
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She does listen though, trying not to cringe when the terms get less savoury but otherwise just taking it all in. It seems like she's been hearing nothing but to tell him...
Eventually Adela sighs, using her hands to prop her body up properly when she just looks ahead once more. ]
You are probably right, I should say something. I wish to not keep anything from him if it is possible, and there is no excuse for this at the least. I am not so unselfish as to not have my own motives, however.
[ A beat, and she'll finally look at Namur again. ]
If he is not for me and decides that himself, I still wish to be close to him as his friend. I feel... I think I already knew he does not feel the same, but I still need to hear it for myself, if for no other reason than to gain the ability to move forward.
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People don't always know what they want or who they need. Maybe he ain't for y' now, but one day he'll get his head outta his ass an' wish he had been. Or at least that he'd a made room for y' 'mongst all the other shit he's got goin' on. What is it y' offer when yer with 'im?
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[ Another sigh. ]
... From a selfish point of view, I enjoy myself when I am with him. I want to believe he feels the same. I feel like I can trust him with nearly everything -- though... I have been warned against telling him of one instance for his sake.
I do not know what I offer him, truth be told. I cannot say nothing, else he would not still be a friend to me... At least, that is what I think.
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An' y' can tell 'im if he asks 'bout the war. We're jus'... not bringin' it up. Was differnt when he came from a point in time right in the thick a it, but this'n... Man he don't know shit.
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[ Blinking hard at Namur because... What war?? Or... Wait, Namur might not know...
Adela shakes her head, smiling weakly at him. ]
I speak of something else entirely. It was under Marco's advice actually, so it may be wise to ask him more of it, but it is actually regarding my leg -- the real reason why I have lost it.
[ A beat, and she'll add onto that. ]
It may be partially Ace himself, but I have heard that the Whitebeard Pirates are quite apt at vengeance. Though understandable, I would rather not handle the situation that way.
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[And he rubs his face in his hands.]
Ain't gotta know the story t' guess why Marco'd put a gag order on y' though. Nice bit a history Ace don't know 'bout yet that really don't need repeated here. Damn Ace. Damn me for lovin' 'em. Shit.
We're a mess, Adela. All a us. Sheheheh!
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[ She'll reach a hand to rest on Namur's shoulder then, intending for it to be a comforting gesture as she squeezed lightly. ]
I do not exactly have a golden life myself, as you can probably already see. That is why one has friends, right? To help with rougher times?
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