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[It had taken the young boy a while to place the device down once it was on he moved back. But there was something different. He wasn't in his wheelchair like he normally was. Instead he appeared to be on crutches instead.]

Hey... I've been meaning to do this for a while, but never found the time between checking deliveries, hospital appointments and paperwork for the stores. [He moved slightly, finally going to sit down slowly in front of the device, putting the crutches to the side. Once he was comfortable, he figured he should speak.]

I have been meaning to try and advertise jobs for my game shops. It's not tough work, it's mostly just selling products and making sure stock doesn't get low for the most part. But I do have Assistant Managers jobs for both places. [He paused.] I am asking for help because I keep being told to not over do it. So in order to do that, I would need to get at least one other person here. But my pitch probably isn't that great.

[He laughed slightly, mostly to himself.] But I tried. That's all that matters. Taking steps at a time.

[He was quiet, looking to the side for a brief moment before looking back.]

But apart from that, as you can tell I'm finally out of the wheelchair. I have to use crutches for the next couple of months or so but I don't mind. It means I'm still healing, still getting better. It's... the walking thing that's going to be a pain after so long though.

[He smiled before looking to the side again and leaning over. After a moment he appears to have a box in his hands.]

So, because of it, I kind of wanted to give something to those who helped me. As a way of saying thank you. It's silly, but after what I've been though, I felt like I should.

[When he was done he had switched the feed to private for two particular people.]

[Private to Ryou and Atem]

This... might sound odd, but is it okay if I speak to you both in private? I've been told talking helps and I need to talk about something to help me.

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[Yugi had been attempting to do a little bit of cleaning and to some degree had been successful even with his crutches. When he heard the door though, he knew to turn around and head toward the door.]

I am home, just...did a bit of cleaning.

[Not much but better than nothing as with his crutches he made his way toward the living area.]

So... I said I needed to say something. The reason is I've been told talking about things helps. So in order for me to get better emotionally and probably mentally, it's best to see if talking helps. Does that make sense?

[ Atem won't even comment on the cleaning, even though he's keeping a close eye on Yugi just in case. ]

I suppose... I'm sure that there were some things that we could have done better in the beginning if we had talked about things.

[ The whole situation with Kaiba on the top of Pegasus's castle, for instance. ]

What is it that you wish to speak about?

True. It's also good to not keep secrets if they only hurt someone more than good.

[He knew he wasn't and hadn't said much about the things that have happened to him and now the more he thought about it the more he was slowly starting to realize that wasn't doing anyone, including him any good. After all it meant keeping things bottled.]

Which is actually what I want to talk about. What had happened to me. I've... not really gone into detail or how I felt or still feel... And I know that bottling it all up and keeping to myself doesn't help me or anyone. It just makes you worried if I'm okay and knowing that I'm not necessarily makes it worse, right?

It does, yes.

[ Atem was silent for a long moment, his eyes contemplative as he thought. ]

But as much as I wanted to, I couldn't ask - I didn't wish to revive memories if you wished them buried.

[ And to be honest, he was afraid - afraid to hear what Yugi had gone through, when he hadn't been there to protect him. Afraid at how inept he had been to protect the one that mattered the most to him.

And afraid that if he had heard more then he already had, he might end up going back down that path that had led him to the seal and to be willing to risk Kaiba and Mokuba's life during Duelist Kingdom. ]

The honest truth is... I can't really burry them. They keep lingering and reminding me, but by talking it out, it just... it's meant to help. or at least I'd like to believe it, so if you have a question... Ask I promise I will answer. if you don't want to ask anything I'll just go from the beginning.

[He was wondering if the other had anything and he was a tiny bit worried about his reaction to things, but he knew so long as he was there he could help him as well.]

Perhaps that's where we should start, Aibou.

[ Atem sighed softly, looking away guiltily. ]

In all honesty, I'm not even sure where to start in asking you questions.

I guess that makes sense. If the roles were reversed, I don't think I would know where to start with questions. So... I guess I'll fully tell you... The time I died. I believe I explained what happened, but never explained the aftermath.

[He paused for a moment, it was something he never really brought up because of what he did. He was at least glad he had done it, but felt silly at the same time.]

When it happened, it made me think that well... things that I keep to myself, how I feel shouldn't be kept to myself. It also made me be a tiny bit more careful in what I do and when I can actually help out. So while the death itself was a bad thing, it helped me in being able to express myself. It also made me realize that even if certain things don't go my way... It doesn't matter, so long as I have friends, it's fine. Though confidence wise in a certain area... Still not that great.

[He couldn't help but laugh slightly.] But that is fine.

This death.. that is what caused you to forget your memories of me.

[ Something that had bothered Atem, to a degree, but he didn't allow himself to dwell on it. After all, he knew what it was like to forget, although his memories had been lost to the darkness and magic. And at least Yugi had remembered him in a fashion - he knew of him. ]

Certain area?

Well I forgot what you looked like. I remember what we went through but trying to remember what you looked like was and still is hard to do. I mean you stand here and I can see you, but putting that to the memory is still impossible.

[Which still bothered him, but he did have to pay the price after all for what he called stupidity.]

Yes, but the area isn't very important.

[ Atem never thought to actually ask what it was like for Yugi. When he had been told about Yugi's memories of him, he had just believed it had worked like his own. But now he's curious. ]

So I'm like a blank face to you?

But apparently it must be to you, Aibou, or you wouldn't have mentioned it.

In a way yes. Kind of like if there is a picture and someone is cut out of it. If... that actually makes sense. It's really hard to describe.

[He sighed, he should have guessed Atem would clock onto to that like he did. He never said anything without it being important after all.]

It was at the time... Alright, I said I would be completely honest and I shouldn't beat around the bush. [He sighed slightly. This was a more than a little awkward.]

I lack confidence in the romantic area. The person I saw and who drowned me was of someone I liked here. But I've moved past that now so it's really not important in the long run.

[ It does make sense, in a strange way. ]

Someone you liked... you do not like this person anymore, Aibou?

I have no choice in that one. I was rejected and there reasoning is actually decent. No point in lingering.

[He never said no, however. He just knew it was an impossible thing.]

They're still a good friend, but that's it. I won't let anything get in the way of that.

[ Atem's eyes flash in understanding and he nods. ]

I'm sorry, Aibou.

[ He might not have had to deal with situations like that; seeing as how he spent most of his childhood running around with Mana and Mahaad and then with his father learning about his duties as Pharaoh and his time as Pharaoh was so sort... and then he was dead, so. ]

I'm not surprised by that. You were always much stronger then most.

[ And honestly, he can't imagine anyone else for the puzzle to have chosen as a partner for him. ]

Why? It's a part of life and something everyone goes through at some point.

[he didn't let it get to him to much anyway, but he laughs slightly, looking away.]

I wouldn't say I'm stronger than most though. I just go with the choice I think is best. I'd rather have a friend than having to go our separate ways.

But that's not a choice everyone could make, Aibou. Some let things like that fester, other times, allow themselves to grow bitter with regrets.

In everything you do, you've always chosen the stronger route. I can't say that I've always done so.

Not all, but some. But that's part of being human, we all won't do the same things.

[He smiled slightly, he figured he has learnt quite a bit while being here.]

Although before I completed the puzzle I never would have chosen the stronger route. So while you've always seen me do that beforehand I didn't. It's what I learnt. Besides even though you might not have sometimes, you learn and grow from it. That's what matters.

[ Yeah, he really can't deny that one. Look at the what happened with the Seal. He was supposed to be better then that, but he still let his pride and ego control him. ]

We grow and learn from each other.

[ Because he can certainly say he's learned a lot from Yugi. That he hopes he can show the others when its time to rejoin with them. ]

Just like we'll grow and learn from other people.

[He paused for a moment.]

Like I've learnt that I can't always help, even when I really want to. I have my limits. Like... anything magical related I should leave well alone since I can't do much to be of use.

[ Atem shakes his head at that, a small smile curving his lips. ]

I think you know a lot more then you let on, considering; but yes, I suppose something you're not completely familiar with should be left to the experts.

[He smiled slightly. Maybe he did, but he never really knows until he is actually put in a situation. But looking over, he adjusted his crutches slightly.]

Maybe... But I think I said what I needed to... Though I would talk about the other thing that bothers me and what happened but I heard that was kind of shown through the devices.

[At least he heard, but never saw the video in question.]

[ At that, Atem's posture stiffens, his voice going flat, his eyes growing hard. ]

You speak of the assault.

I wouldn't call it that...

[He wasn't downgrading it or anything, but he paused for a moment. As much as he knew it was the correct wording he still hated saying it even now.]

You mean the kidnapping and torture... But yes. That is what I was on about.

[ Atem wasn't trying to downgrade it either. No matter what way either of them look at it, it was horrendous. ]

I do, yes. What about it?

[ There's a faint waver in his voice, because re-living it is not something he wants to make Yugi do. Or himself, for that matter. All he wants is the criminal to pay for his crimes, whether it be by his hand... or another's. ]

Well... I said I would talk about everything that happened to make me feel better and... That's exactly what I am going to do.

[He paused for a moment, taking a small breath. It was still kind of affected by what happened, but he wanted to say dso he could get past it.]

Honestly... With everything we had been through... That was probably the most scared I have ever been. I think about it more and I understand why. But... because of it I can't help but feel bad and guilty because it doesn't just affect me. It affects those I know in a different way. Like with you just for an example.

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