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genessia2017-07-24 07:37 pm
bigbadrose) wrote in genessia2017-07-24 07:37 pm
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Hey so, bit of a weird question. Anyone here ever heard of Torchwood, and could maybe point me how to get back to contacting the local branch? That'd be really handy, yeah?
Year and star system coordinates would also be fantastic, but I'm not holdin' my breath waitin'.
[Bites her bottom lip in thought.]
[She doesn't even know which universe this is. Much less how she got here without a dimension cannon or where everyone she was with went. Maybe they're here. But then maybe even saying their name depending on the universe is dangerous. Luckily, she's had 5+ years (give or take for literal dimension rewinds and time in the vortex) of experience in learning how to do codes.]
Here's a fairytale you've probably never heard before.
Once upon a time there was a big bad wolf. She wandered a city of metal filled with metal men. [Too dangerous to even say the world cyberman until she learned more!] She thought she was on a mission to hunt down her lost prince. But she was actually on a mission to find home. Bit like Dorothy from Wizard of Oz if you know it. And one day she met a man who wasn't a prince at all. He was a very brainy professor. There was even another man who started off as a mouse but turned into a lion full of courage, saving worlds he never even knew existed. And a really flirty captain who was probably too pretty for his own good. They weren't off to find a wizard. Just a blue box.
The big bad wolf ran away from home and her pack over and over and over again, but no matter how many times she ran, and how many new friends she made or which universe she fell into, something was always calling her back. 'Pparently you can't escape your family that easily. That or the Big Bad Wolf's mum was seriously terrifying and would fight a werewolf for diamonds and totally win.
Thanks for listening, Ta!
Year and star system coordinates would also be fantastic, but I'm not holdin' my breath waitin'.
[Bites her bottom lip in thought.]
[She doesn't even know which universe this is. Much less how she got here without a dimension cannon or where everyone she was with went. Maybe they're here. But then maybe even saying their name depending on the universe is dangerous. Luckily, she's had 5+ years (give or take for literal dimension rewinds and time in the vortex) of experience in learning how to do codes.]
Here's a fairytale you've probably never heard before.
Once upon a time there was a big bad wolf. She wandered a city of metal filled with metal men. [Too dangerous to even say the world cyberman until she learned more!] She thought she was on a mission to hunt down her lost prince. But she was actually on a mission to find home. Bit like Dorothy from Wizard of Oz if you know it. And one day she met a man who wasn't a prince at all. He was a very brainy professor. There was even another man who started off as a mouse but turned into a lion full of courage, saving worlds he never even knew existed. And a really flirty captain who was probably too pretty for his own good. They weren't off to find a wizard. Just a blue box.
The big bad wolf ran away from home and her pack over and over and over again, but no matter how many times she ran, and how many new friends she made or which universe she fell into, something was always calling her back. 'Pparently you can't escape your family that easily. That or the Big Bad Wolf's mum was seriously terrifying and would fight a werewolf for diamonds and totally win.
Thanks for listening, Ta!
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She went out with Rose, breathing in the comparatively fresher air. She listened to all that Rose said, and got the intensity, but she shook her head and stepped back, crossing her arms. "We're going to have to accept that we're going to disagree, then. Cause while I agree with you on a lot of it, on the fundamentals I think you've got a lot wrong, kid." She shook her head. "Some basics. Our being heroes does not take away from his being a hero, and his being a hero does not take away from us being a hero. That's one." And now she was craving a sandwich. "But even bigger? What you said about his not being allowed to die?" she shook her head. "That's not just wrong, it's horrifying. That he's not allowed to die because so many others would die with him? If you told me that, I'd probably want to die too!" She shook her head, and wobbled a bit. "Look, one thing to tell someoen they're not allowed to die and leave you. That's selfish, yeah. But it's also about them too. It's about how much you love that person. But not allowed to die because of the whole world is worse. Because it's pressure in ways no one needs to deal with. It's not our job as the people who love him to keep him alive for everyone else's sakes. It's our job to remind him of all the reasons he wants to keep himself alive. And if he has to keep himself alive to save you, to get you home, that's about you. And him. It's not about the universe."
"Universe is filled with people who love him, who he's helped. All across time and space. But that doesn't make the universe his obligation. Who has the right to tell him that he's only allowed to exist for others, and not allowed to die, because of them? Rose, you're furious with him for taking away his choice... when what he did was say to you, for the sake of the universe, this is your life now. But that's what you just said about him." She shook her head again, and fell on her butt in the street. Well, it was comfortable enough place to sit, she supposed.
"He's the Doctor. We agree about that. It is who he is. But he's also a hero. And my best friend. And my son in law. And a mad man with a box. He's a lot of things, and none of us have the right to demand of him that he be any one thing for the sake of everyone. Not even...for the sake of everyone."
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It was funny, looking at it sideways.
The important things they were actually in agreement on. Just the words.
It was all a mess.
Rose shook her head. "I know. I know!" She rocked softly on her heels. "He wants to join the rest o' the TimeLords and his family an'--" she took a deep breath and covered her eyes with a hand. "It's good. It's good. Because you're his family now. He needs that."
She chewed a nail. "'m scared," she whispered to Amy. "Hero will be too much pressure for him. He should just be himself. Have fun. Not die of self-hate." She curled into a small tight ball, still rocking slightly. "Having all those people thank him... did it help? It didn't make him guilty or scared or...?" It was fine. Future him. He had Donna and Amy. He didn't need Rose bridging his deaths anymore. She didn't want to see his deaths anymore. It was like her own private hell. Working backwards from endings. She broke into tears. "I hate endings, Amy. I hate 'em. And that's all it was. I had to watch so many things end. And I did it for him. And then he just gave me one more," she bawled wiped her eyes on her arm. "I love him more than I hate endings," she admitted finally, still bawling, "And it wasn't enough."
Calling him a hero though, she still couldn't imagine do anything but give him panic or guilt attacks. Maybe he had to think he'd keep at it. And that was what killed him. Trying to be a hero, without getting someone else to be a hero for him. Maybe it just had to be lived. But Rose hoped Amy got it, she got the principle at least.
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"You should have seen him when he thought the Corsair was alive," she said softly. "Some of his people he'd like to be with again, but he told me about the war, he wouldn't want to be with all of them. And in some ways... in some ways I think we're more his people now than the other Time Lords. At least most of them. Your words, my word, both are a lot of pressure. But we only ever pointed out to him how much of a hero he was, when we really had to. Not sure we ever said the word out loud, but we thought it. At least, I know I did. To my mind... a Hero is one who has been a hero and might be again. A superhero is pressure to always keep being a hero... but it's semantics at this point and not what matters is that we love him, and are there for him and he knows that. What matters is that you're hurting because he did something stupid, and we need to fix that. The hurting if no other part of it. And we will, we'll get through this, you know why? Cause we're the ladies of the Tardis. And as someone very smart just told me... he only takes the best, yeah?"
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Another sniffle and she rubbed her eyes. "It'll be okay. It's just... gonna be rocky. Yeah? Keep him safe until I can get there. Because I can't yet... first time I just... can't."
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And then she stopped. "Cracks? What kind of cracks?"
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"Mmm Cracks in the universe. To the void and beyond. The daleks escaped the Time War traveling into the void where time and space don't exist. I almost fell in too," Rose said soberly, despite being drunk. "S'how I wound up in Pete's Universe. Pete caught me in time. But then the Doctor had to seal off the universes again."
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She laughed suddenly at that. "What do I know? We're all here right? Gotta be in a crack somewhere."
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She hugged Amy either way. No sense worrying too much about the distant future in another universe. One step at a time, don't lose sight of the now. "Maybe," she hiccupped. "Maybe." She was glad for Amy being there when she couldn't though. Even if it took her millions of years in the Doctor's time, if there was still hope, then she wouldn't give up. Not for anything.
And her paid is back!