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Just a friendly reminder that you idiots elected this team again. This was the choice the majority of you made.
Where's Grell? Or was this her idea?
Where's Grell? Or was this her idea?
DEPUTY RECAP:
Maribelle- both deputy (person who arrests people) and the public defender (how terrifying is it that the person who arrests you is who your life is dependent on? not fair to anyone who needs legal representation whether they're criminal or not, bias, horrifying)
Marco- about 90% sure he set that fire, threatened to do it again
Remilia- so egotistical she had to come try to rub it in my face after they won, then acted surprised when she got treated like shit for being an asshole. an immature bully who threatens anyone who questions her. definitely the kind of person you want in this position.
Don't know about Hikaru Takeda and Seth Rim yet, but I am sensing a pattern here lol
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[ It's a beautiful story, but it's from someone who had someone to reach out to them. Someone who had someone care about them. It's from someone who had anything. She watches the video, all the way through. The words are nice, but it's... it's nothing she hasn't heard before. It's nothing she's going to switch to video for, because she knows it's just going to lead to him knowing how little she values herself.
Not that it'll change the content of her words, but it at least doesn't show the emotion, the pain, the desperation. He'll have to figure that on his own. ]
It's fine. I am a tool for her. It isn't as though I think she cares about me beyond my usefulness, whether I want that or not. But even the one person who ever has I only have because she forced me to accept him. Every ounce of happiness I've experienced in my life, the air I breathe, the food I eat, being able to talk to others, my combat skills past bare survival, not living on the streets like a worthless rat being spit on by people who think I'm the disgusting one, not being told the only ones who would miss me if I were gone were my fleas. Even beyond our world, Cassian never would've been interested in me if he didn't think the fact that we're both killers for a cause beyond ourselves. I never would've talked to Jaune. I wouldn't have tried to bother David.
Even without her here, everything good that's ever happened to me was caused by her actions. Everything I've ever done without her, good or bad, ends badly for me.
I owe her everything. You'll have to excuse me if some inspirational speech about how lucky you got and how you had someone who valued your input isn't going to change that.
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Then you're doing her a disservice.
If you only let yourself be a tool, she won't be strong enough to be the best. If you only attribute everything to her and nothing to yourself, she didn't do anything in the end. Anyone can use a tool. Saving a life means a lot more. Living is more than survival, never forget.
If you aren't thinking for yourself, if you're just letting yourself be a lazy pawn, you're actually hurting her, because she can't grow stronger from that, and she'll never be the best she could be either. It doesn't matter how you rationalize it, that's the truth.
I got lazy with Grell. She's so strong, so immortal, I didn't do anything but follow her orders and be her backup. And despite all her enemies, I didn't pay attention either, because I just knew she could handle them, or I'd deal with it when it came up. Look at where that got me now. She trusted me to think independently, to be more than her equal and I'm failing her.
It's never enough to take orders. That's just you being scared. Get stronger, or else you're hurting Cinders too.
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They aren't big on disobedience. Emerald gets away with more than some do, but she's not big on the murder risk. ]
You have no idea what you're talking about. Stop assuming your situation applies to everyone. It never does when people talk about things like that, it just makes you sound like a self-righteous ass.
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Tell yourself whatever you want. It won't change the situation you're in, only you can do that. Cassian can't pull you out if you don't want to change anything.
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