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[anamnestik]

 [Eliot has now been in Genessia for quite some time. In the months since he initially arrived, he's used his pocketwatch to switch personalities quite a few times. For his job at the archive, Eliot finds himself spinning between personas very rapidly.
What he doesn't realize is that every time he's switched personalities, Eliot has forgotten a sliver more about his life before Genessia. His 'human' personality has been changing a lot, to the point that he's almost an entirely new person from the secret vampire boy back in LA. 

So pardon him as he says some stupid things:]

I've been thinking lately about something and wondered... How does one determine their horoscope for the newspaper, if they do not know when they were born? Can I use the day that I died? I apologize for asking. I'm quite the pitiful library if I don't have the answer, aren't I..?

[He's sitting at the archive, going through books and records curiously. Anyone who sees the books or their pages may notice he's written a name, over and over, in a desperate attempt to keep from forgetting someone. It clearly hasn't worked:]

And dear me, but this is going to sound so silly. Who exactly is this 'Ophelia' I've been reading about in my notes? Does she live in Genessia? The name sure looks nice. I must really like it. [Anyone who has spoken to Eliot has probably heard him gush about Ophelia before: She's the girl he is in love with... Or was, before he apparently forgot her.]

... Goodness, it just occurred to me! But where were we all before Genessia? Why am I here, again? Am I doing a good job..?

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[singinghuntress]

[The part about horoscopes and birthdays amuse Rip a little. The rest? Not to much. She might need to talk to Augustine soon about this...]

I chose zhe day I arrived in Ruby City az my birthday und go vith zhat for my horoscope. Apparently, I'm a Gemini.

[...Strangely fitting considering her personality at times.]

...Don't you remember vhere you vhere before here?

[anamnestik]

Hmm... It's hard for me to pin down a date like that for myself. I'm always forgetting things in the short-time. That's why I thought the day I died would work? I can't forget that.

[Though, speaking of forgetting. Eliot pauses for a long moment, then shakes his head.]

Were we in this 'Ruby City' together?

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[singinghuntress]

Go vith vhatever date you feel zhe most connection vith.

[Paused and then suddenly she's locking this as she flips to video and leans into study him slightly.]

No, ve veren't.

[Yes, there might be a hint of concern there.]

Eliot, vat is zhe last thing you remember before Genessia?

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[anamnestik]

Hm?

[Eliot needs another moment to think. His memories feel like scraps and he needs a moment to string them together. After that short moment, he calmly concludes what has happened. Not happily, but calmly.]

I was killed and turned. Hm... I guess I used the pocketwatch too much...?

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[singinghuntress]

If you forgetting parts of your life before here iz a side effect, zhen yes. You're using zhe vatch too much.

[She should have never given him back that damned thing.]

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[anamnestik]

Ah, well. The memories won't be permanently forgotten. The 'other me' will still remember everything.

[He's still being abnormally calm about this. The way he forgets things and constantly changes is normal for him. It's part of why Eliot thinks so poorly of himself: He knows he has erased his heart over and over, and his human persona is just temporary. In the long run, he doesn't matter.]

Am I doing a good job, though? I work at this archive, right? Have I been useful?

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[singinghuntress]

[Rip's just... silent. His calmness about this doesn't exactly sit well with her and might even make her a little uncomfortable. Admittedly, Rip's own memory wasn't that great about her younger years. But, even she wasn't that bad.]

...Und how long until zhe only zhing left is zhis other you.

[Quiet, curious.]

Yes, you do excellent vork. It's your business.

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[brbgettingwrench]

That is a very odd question.

[The whole thing really fell under this, but she figured it was a vampire thing for the first part anyway since she assumed that vampires live for a long time. It would make sense.

But she finds herself frowning at the second part.]

You must have forgotten way too much.

[anamnestik]

Ah, Ms Winry! Apologies, I didn’t mean for it to be strange, really~!

Ehehe... and perhaps! But you needn’t worry. My other self won’t forget any of my library knowledge, no matter how stupid “I” may be.

[brbgettingwrench]

I think both sides of you are stupid if I have to be honest.

[You both way things that probably bother her.]

Though I've been wanting to ask. Why do you want to be a library anyway?

[anamnestik]

[MA'AM, YOU'VE WOUNDED HIM.

are they really both stupid? he thought he was at least secretly smart... oh noo.]

Ah, well. Because... [That's hard to explain. He can't imagine anyone wanting to hear his entire life story either.]

That's the only part of me that's alive or useful. Even if people tell me I'm kind or helpful in other ways, this side of me just forgets it. The person I was yesterday and the person I am now will always be changing. Parts of me having been dying every day for the past 300 years.

[He's shifting the camera away to hide his guilty expression. No matter how often he tries to explain his feelings about the subject, he's only ever told he's an idiot. Eliot doesn't like being yelled at.]

I apologize. I know it seems illogical. But being a Living Library is the only way I'm alive anymore. I'd like to at least do it well.

[brbgettingwrench]

It sounds very illogical and more you use it as an excuse.

[But she pretty much assumed she can't argue much about it. The guy seems to have his mind set on it regardless.]

But that could also just be me thinking that more than anything.

[anamnestik]

[... It hurts when people say that. Eliot feels a pang of loneliness, knowing that everyone sees him as being weak and stupid. Even his friends. And maybe he is. He doesn't like knowing he really is worthless. He can't remember anyone ever understanding what he's going through, which is a lonely realization.

But he smiles and laughs anyway, knowing this pain will pass. He's going to forget eventually.]

No, you're probably right. Maybe in Genessia, I can be a stronger Eliot! Or well. I dunno! I don't remember what I was like before coming here~!

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[blindpuppet]

[Enis doesn't have a lot of friends in the city but when she hears one of them on the comms she has the tendency to stop and listen. She doesn't always respond to Eliot, who is frequently asking the world questions, but there is something about what he says that worries her.]

You're losing your memories?

[She isn't sure how that works since Eliot is a container for knowledge, much the same way that she is.]

[anamnestik]

It would appear I let a few slip through the cracks. [By 'a few' he means 'a lot.']

But please don't worry. The 'other me' won't have lost any memories, so I can still function as a Library.

[blindpuppet]

I am worried Eliot. That's what friends do.

[She exhales a heavy breath.]

I'll speak to the other you about this too but you should make sure you write down the things that you forget. Not specifically but take a red pen in a different color and remark on the page that you don't remember a persons name or other things written down. [In case he forgets more.]

[anamnestik]

Ah... Well, if it would make you feel better? I can put forth such an effort, then.

However, it really isn't... [Well, it is a big deal. Eliot just doesn't want to make it a big deal. He doesn't want to panic.]

... It isn't something that can be helped. I'm sorry if it's worrisome.

[blindpuppet]

[Enis exhales a slow breath.]

Don't be sorry Eliot. We just need to figure out what you're forgetting and why. You're able to hold information and if your other half still remembers it then it isn't lost. It's something we might be able to heal.

[She likes chemistry more than biology but Enis will pull out what stops she can to help.]

[anamnestik]

[Oh. Hah.

He smiles weakly at first and shakes his head.]

Don't worry about it. It isn't something that I want healed.

[Which sounds horrible out of context.]

When I'm whole, I know I have horrible memories... I try to forget them on purpose, so I can stay sane. Sometimes, other things slip through the cracks.

[Which sounds really bad. Cuz it kind of is.]

Even if I could take back certain memories, I... I think that's wrong. I shouldn't have the power to select what I remember and what I don't. I don't even know how I'd begin sorting them. It's better to just treat everything equally.

[quick_clean_pure]

I just pick whichever horoscope sounds most likely to come true for me. Alternately, I take one of those personality quizzes that determine my zodiac type and then check. Except those quizzes never give the same answer, so it's admittedly a flawed system.

[anamnestik]

If you just pick it randomly, isn't it pointless?

Though, I suppose not all newspapers write their Horoscopes based on any actual astrological divination...

[quick_clean_pure]

I mean, I ain't got any idea what the stars have lined up for me, so at least it's something. Besides, I really mostly only read them for the giggles.

[anamnestik]

Oh... Is that why they're so close to the comics section?

[quick_clean_pure]

...you know, I never thought about that, but you may be right on the money, there.

[anamnestik]

Glad to be of service! Solving mysteries together is the greatest achievement of humanity!