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V ✖ ＫＩＬＬ【Log】

Who: Mikasa Ackerman, Jean Kirstein, Armin Alert, Marco Bodt, & Eren Jaeger [If he'd like to]
What: Jean has been having emotional issues and Mikasa feels the need to talk to him in private about it. It is also Mikasa's birthday today and even though she won't say anything about it, it seems the others have found out. [Keeping them both in one log to keep from multiple posts]
When: February 10th
Where: Casa AoT
Style: Starting in 1st, but I can change to 3rd if wanted.

[She's warned Jean right off the bat that Marco had no memories of ever dying and yet... He's still let his emotions give away that something was wrong. Not that Mikasa really blamed him... She knew it would be hard on him, but she thought he'd still understand what was required of him. If he didn't want Marco to know that he'd died or something was wrong, he had to be strong and try to keep from Marco being worried that he'd done something wrong when he hadn't.

So seeming as Jean is opted to stay in a motel with what was going on with Marco, she made her way to where he was staying temporary(because she wasn't going to allow him to stay there for long). So early in the morning, Jean will hear knocking on his door.]

Jean, it's me. We need to talk.

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[It was Mikasa's birthday, but she'd never really put much thought into it. Most people were happy to have their birthdays happen, but for Mikasa it was just another day. She had other things to worry about back at home, so she never expected much. Why should that change now? Despite not saying or doing anything about it, it seems that her new roommates had a different idea about her birthday.]

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[There was a lot more that had happened to him, but Mikasa couldn't remember everything. All she knew was that he'd been injured extensively and she still felt terrible for not being there to stop it.]

No, unfortunately not. Armin kept insisting that it wasn't their fault explicitly and that I don't do anything....

[And then snapping out of her anger towards herself and who did it... came surprise.]

W-What? What are you planning on doing?

[She had mentioned the person being mind-controlled. Telepaths, people coming back from the dead, mind control--it all sounded impossible to Jean, but perhaps that was why Armin was being so adamant about it.]

There might have been someone else behind it, and if so, they'd deserve the blame.

[That didn't make it easier, and he was sure it didn't make her want to beat them up for what they did any less, but it was still something to consider.]

We're going to fight. You need an outlet, you've been holding this in for how long?

Well, clearly there had to be. I don't like the idea of anybody hurting him at all much less killing him... However I believe in Armin.

Fight...? [She paused for a moment taking that in. She let out a deep sigh before rubbing her face for a moment.] I.. Well, since he's gotten here but... That's nothing that can be done about it now. Trust me... If I had some way to get to this world that he was trapped in, I would have already done something about it...

[But... it had been a while since she actually had a fight or spar of some sort. She'd protected Luke a few months ago, but with a pretty calm life compared to home, she hadn't really had much chance to do anything besides training in the meantime.]

You know... Never mind. [Getting up.] I... don't know if fighting is what I need to distract myself, but I think doing something would be better for both of us.

It sucks. It's like there's nothing we can do other than deal with the shitty circumstances and events that have happened. Armin's different than how I remembered him, too. He was never the strongest physically, but it's different.

I still can't believe there are other worlds, and that it would be so common for all of us to end up here.

I'm not trying to distract you, but you've already been here for a while, and without something else to direct your anger at...

I'm just saying, I know you're going to look after Armin, but you have to take care of yourself too. For his sake, and your own.

No.. I know that..

[And then she paused to that. 'You have to take care of yourself too'... They weren't words that she took lightly and she could tell he was just concerned. She had thought that was what she was doing while Eren and she were the only ones there. With everyone else, she was reminded of the troubles they had.

Of course she was glad to see them though.]

I.. I'm fine, Jean. It's only been because of learn about what Armin has gone through. I couldn't protect him then but I... I'll make damn sure of it here. I would like it even better if he didn't have to fight at all here. Not after everything he'd been through and the shit back home...

Honestly... It's just nice to be able to actually talk about some of this. I sure as hell can't tell Armin some of the stuff and Petra and Marco are still sort of suffering, even if one doesn't know and one has guessed that she was going to die.

There's nothing we can do to prevent those deaths, unfortunately, but we can make their lives better... Even if that means being kidnapped and stuck here. I never had much hope for peace in our world but we can have it here, even under these circumstances...

You're not the only one who will protect him. None of us want to see him get hurt again. I'll help you. We've all got your back in this.

How is Petra doing? [He can't begin to think about Marco. He knows he's the source of his suffering, and he wants to fix it, but it's not something he can instantly do.] I think I'd go insane, if it was just the others, and you weren't around. So I understand that it helps.

...Do you really think peace is an option? [He likes the idea, and he wants her to be right, but it's so hard to imagine, even harder than everything else that's happened the past couple of days.] I wouldn't mind doing that. We've wanted safety, and if I can provide that for them, I will.

Of course. Now that there's more of us here, we'll take care of everyone, not just Armin.

She's.... doing a lot better. I had to calm her down when she got here of course, but she knows she's going to die. I didn't even really have the chance to ignore that for her sake.

[Taking a moment to think of what to say, she paused once again for a short while.]

Honestly... I really doubted it being here but... Besides the other dangers here... I think it might be. Sure bad things have happened here, but it hasn't been a constant thing; Not like a constant threat of being attacked or killed by titans back home.

I almost... feel like I have to believe it's an option. It's all I've got here. [Oh man.. That's her trying to be optimistic instead of pessimistic all the time.] I will fight to protect that safety... that peace... I will protect those who can't fight here. And above all else... I will protect humanity and innocence therefore of humanity.

[Luke instantly came to mind with that. After a moment, she started out of the room.]

It's not quite lunch time, but I am getting a little hungry. I think we could both use some fresh air and a distraction.

Of course.

[He kept it to himself, but he hoped Annie never appeared. If she did, he wasn't sure if he'd stop anyone from going after her. He didn't even think he'd want to.]

That's...as good to hear as anything. She has the Captain, too.

I guess. A lot of the people here seem a lot more carefree than what I'm used to. It must be safer. Even the general atmosphere doesn't seem nearly as tense. It's weird. I don't dislike it, I'm not sure what to think.

I will too. The Survey Corps may not exist outside of us in this place, but if humanity can live in peace, I'll make sure it stays that way for as long as I live.

[He jammed his hands in his pockets, looking down at the floor.]

I think you're right. What did you want? I'll pay.

You're with me on that one then. The only reason I'm not as weirded out is because I've already been here for five months.

Oh well.. You don't have to pay if you don't want to. [But... if he wants to who is she to stop him?] I'd be up for anything though.

Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm kind of glad you were. I just--we could all use this place, weird as fuck it is.

I want to. [He froze, his face turning a few shades redder because he hadn't thought about it but this sounded an awfully lot like a date. With Mikasa. Something he'd literally dreamt about. But he couldn't get flustered, no, keep talking.] I saw this one place that looks good, if you want to check it out.

It's not exactly paradise, but it's a hell of a lot better than back home.

[Luckily for him, Mikasa hasn't seemed to notice his blushing, but the very faint smile might not help his case.]

That sounds fine to me. Lead the way.

No kidding.

[Oh wow shit she's SMILING and her smile is beautiful and it looks really nice on her face and Jean feels very proud of himself because he's been trying to do that for a while and now he managed to without even trying. He coughs, moreso to cover his face, and opens the door for her.

His mom would be pissed to find out he'd act otherwise.]

Uh. Sure.

[His mother should be proud of him regardless. For joining the Survey Corp and surviving... For doing what he could for humanity.. And the fact that he can get a sort of date. Sometimes she wondered how her parents would react if they knew about how she's lived so far. Would they be proud? Most likely scared for her.

Thanking him lightly for opening the door for her, she followed after him after exiting the motel room. While walking, she couldn't help but think of her other objective other than to talk to him about Marco.]

You know... You should stay with us. I don't like the idea of making you live on your own. We should all stick together, after all.

I mean.. if you want to. It's... nice to have more people that we know here.

[But she also knows that the situation with Marco is tricky. Still, they should all be together, even if there wasn't constant danger anymore.]

[He walks next to her, making sure to lead the way when necessary. The subject change causes him to slow down, before speeding up again.]

It's more practical to live in the same place. You're right. We should stick together.

Is anyone going to mind? [Translation: Is Marco still too hurt? He felt like he couldn't face him before, but he'll have to sooner or later. And he would be lying if he said he didn't miss them.]

Of course not. [And she can tell what you're asking that for.] What he wants the most right now is for you to face him. He misses you, Jean. Sure we can come here to talk to you but... it's a farther walk than just around the apartment.

I'm kind of a selfish shit, aren't I? I'll...move back in, at some point, soon. I'm not sure if it will be today, or tomorrow, or anything specific. Is that okay?

[He sees the cafe in the distance. It's kind of too cute for him, with it's cat shaped sign, but it looked like it might be good and a decent place to talk.]

[Shaking her head to that.]

No. You're just... uncertain. That's understandable. As long as you come home soon, that's all that matters to me.

[Approaching the cafe, assuming that's where he was heading. It was a place she'd seen around but hadn't actually really checked it out yet.]

Besides... I've been thinking about saving up for a house for all of us. I don't know when that will be, but I figure we could all use the space and with all of use working, we could probably afford it.

[It's nice to hear her say that. He goes silent, trying to look calmer than he feels. Not only has he been unfair to Marco, but Mikasa and everyone else as well. He should at least move in soon, for all the trouble she's gone to.]

I will.

A house isn't a bad idea. I'd be up for helping save up for it. We could all help with the furniture and keeping it clean too. Are you thinking about one in the same city?

I'd preferably like it in Nova City just in case we need to use our gear, but I guess that remains to be seen yet. I did try to keep up with cleaning and chores before everyone else came, but it'll be nice to have some help.

Nova City has a lot of other things going for it as well. I'm going to look into it more at some point. Everyone should help regardless. [He looks completely serious. Normally, he wouldn't give a shit, but this is Mikasa and she's been kind enough to let everyone stay with her.]

[He opens the door again when they get there.]

It'll make financial burdens as well as maintenance burdens better for everyone that way too.

[Although financially, Mikasa is the one in charge of paying and making sure rent is in on time. Eren helps out with bounties at least.

If it pleases Jean, she didn't even bother asking Eren if it was okay. She just assumed it would be and that was that. Even if Eren said something against it, she'd still do it.

Thanking him for opening the door, she walked in as they were greeted by a friendly waitress. After a standard greeting, she showed them to their seats as she handed them menus and asked for their drink orders. Once she got them, Mikasa looked around as the waitress went on her way.]

It's kind of cozy.

Yeah...everyone should be able to help out around the same amount. That way no one's doing too much.

[He set the menu down, looking around the place as well.]

It kind of has that going for it. It's all welcoming and all...

Anyway. Have you found anything you like doing since you got here?

[Looking over the menu, she stared blankly to it as she thought about that.]

Well.. I admit that I haven't really done much here besides work and then go home. I read sometimes, but sometimes I take walks. I've been visiting Luke's tea shop more to support him and see if he needs any help with anything.

What do you like to read? I could use some recommendations.

[He felt a sudden flare of jealousy. Not as strongly as with Jaeger, and he probably shouldn't, but he had to ask.]

Who's this Luke?

I guess I don't really have a certain genre that I read from, but some fantasy stuff.

[Oh right... She hasn't talked about Luke yet. It's actually been a while since she last talked to him.]

Luke is a young boy that I met when I figure got here. He's a very polite and kind kid. He was a lot of help when I first arrived.

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