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XVII ✖ ＫＩＬＬ【Text/Action】
Text; Locked to David
[Mikasa hadn't seen Marco for a while and she wanted to say he was just busy doing stuff, she was starting to get a little worried. She didn't want to be the type of person to have to know where everyone was all of the time, but with Annie here now, maybe it was a good idea to look for him. She couldn't seem to find him anywhere and that's when she thought to ask if Jean had seen him around lately.... Except she couldn't find him anywhere either...
She had a bad feeling in her gut. Something was telling her that this was all pointless, but she wanted to believe that maybe they were just busy....? Going for her phone, she sent a quick text to David.]
Hey, I have a question for you.
You can locate the people you've met here before right? Is it possible if you could see if you can sense were Jean and Marco are?
[Phrased like a question because she doesn't want to say if they're still there...]
Action; Open to everyone
[After finding out that neither Marco nor Jean could be located, Mikasa decided to just.... go for a walk. There was no general direction she was going, but with her friend and boyfriend gone (again), she didn't really want to sit around the mansion and mope. Except she was still moping, just not in the same setting. She finally found herself at the coffee shop that Jean and her would go from time to time.
Part of her wanted to just keep moving forward because it made her think of Jean, but she was tired. She'd been working a lot lately and though it was mostly intentional and self-inflicted, she really didn't want to have to wander any further. At least it seemed slow this time of day. She got herself a random coffee (she asked the barista to surprise her) and located the least populated area in the shop possible.
She wasn't crying. She wasn't thinking much. More than anything... She was just.... numb. It was easier for her to just go numb than to succumb to her depressed thoughts. Of course it hurt, but he'd left before. He had also come back, but the odds of him coming back a second time seemed..... slim to none. The heart ache she felt was enough to make her want to just try to forget about feelings altogether. Forget pain, sorrow... any feelings at all. She just found herself staring at the coffee that was starting to get cold. She hadn't drank much from it just yet, but eventually she caught herself thinking...]
Maybe I should just go home....?
[OOC: Anyone is free to bump into her there!]
Action; Closed to Attack on Mansion
[Unlike most days, Mikasa hadn't worked today. Instead she spent all day wondering where Marco and Jean had gone to and then wandering around depressed. So by the time she got home, she seemed more deadpan than she usually was. She didn't bother to say hi to anyone or really do anything. Her first instinct was to return to her room.
So anyone who may see her can notice that she's not really acting the same. And even if she had passed others, she didn't seem to give it much thought or try to even talk or acknowledge that they're there.]
[Mikasa hadn't seen Marco for a while and she wanted to say he was just busy doing stuff, she was starting to get a little worried. She didn't want to be the type of person to have to know where everyone was all of the time, but with Annie here now, maybe it was a good idea to look for him. She couldn't seem to find him anywhere and that's when she thought to ask if Jean had seen him around lately.... Except she couldn't find him anywhere either...
She had a bad feeling in her gut. Something was telling her that this was all pointless, but she wanted to believe that maybe they were just busy....? Going for her phone, she sent a quick text to David.]
Hey, I have a question for you.
You can locate the people you've met here before right? Is it possible if you could see if you can sense were Jean and Marco are?
[Phrased like a question because she doesn't want to say if they're still there...]
Action; Open to everyone
[After finding out that neither Marco nor Jean could be located, Mikasa decided to just.... go for a walk. There was no general direction she was going, but with her friend and boyfriend gone (again), she didn't really want to sit around the mansion and mope. Except she was still moping, just not in the same setting. She finally found herself at the coffee shop that Jean and her would go from time to time.
Part of her wanted to just keep moving forward because it made her think of Jean, but she was tired. She'd been working a lot lately and though it was mostly intentional and self-inflicted, she really didn't want to have to wander any further. At least it seemed slow this time of day. She got herself a random coffee (she asked the barista to surprise her) and located the least populated area in the shop possible.
She wasn't crying. She wasn't thinking much. More than anything... She was just.... numb. It was easier for her to just go numb than to succumb to her depressed thoughts. Of course it hurt, but he'd left before. He had also come back, but the odds of him coming back a second time seemed..... slim to none. The heart ache she felt was enough to make her want to just try to forget about feelings altogether. Forget pain, sorrow... any feelings at all. She just found herself staring at the coffee that was starting to get cold. She hadn't drank much from it just yet, but eventually she caught herself thinking...]
Maybe I should just go home....?
[OOC: Anyone is free to bump into her there!]
Action; Closed to Attack on Mansion
[Unlike most days, Mikasa hadn't worked today. Instead she spent all day wondering where Marco and Jean had gone to and then wandering around depressed. So by the time she got home, she seemed more deadpan than she usually was. She didn't bother to say hi to anyone or really do anything. Her first instinct was to return to her room.
So anyone who may see her can notice that she's not really acting the same. And even if she had passed others, she didn't seem to give it much thought or try to even talk or acknowledge that they're there.]
[Action]
With them gone, there was certainly enough extra work to keep him busy.
Eventually, though, he knows he has to return. He's nearing collapse from exhaustion - and he needs to see Mikasa. To make sure she knows, and to comfort her. It was wrong of him to stay away like that, running from his own grief. Hers would be worse - like his had been when Sansa disappeared. And he knew her well enough to know she wouldn't handle it well - or rather, that she would barely handle it at all, that she would simply go numb and ignore it. And though he's hardly one to criticize on that score, given what he's been doing all day - well, he still needs to be there for her.
So when he gets home, he goes straight to her room. With one look at her, it's obvious she already knows. He doesn't say anything then, simply going to her and wrapping his arms around her, holding her tightly.]
[Action]
She was about to call his name out upon seeing him, but was silenced with the hug. She just closed her mouth and set her head on his shoulder as she returned a tight hug. It was obvious he must have known already...
It was hard... She was so used to detaching herself from the big picture and the others around her unless they were Armin or Eren. It was easier to keep moving forward when she didn't have to cry at every loss that they took back home. And ever since being here, she'd been lowering her wall slowly over time. She began to let people into her heart more as the time went by here. And while she was glad to get closer to her friends here, it also left her feeling vulnerable.
She couldn't simply shut out her emotions anymore. Not after all of the time spent here and really finding that what she felt for Jean was love. Heartbreak was a bitch and she'd been through this before. She didn't want to feel, but it seemed her heart decided that it was necessary.
Honestly, she felt a little lonely, but she knew she had the others so she wasn't truly alone. And what right did she have to mope when Armin had still been suffering over Sansa leaving? At least Jean came back at one point. Sansa hadn't. She was fortunate to have such wonderful people in her life that would come to her aid when she needed it. If it was a physical fight, Mikasa could manage, but emotionally was a different story.]