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[Karla starts her feed, looking thoughtful for a moment before she actually speaks up.]

Hmm...I don't know if there's any one thing that works for everyone. I know some people like to drown themselves in work, but that doesn't sound any more healthy than overdoing it on the sparring...

[She pauses, trying to think of more ideas.]

Talking with other people might help? It may also depend on why they're feeling down or lonely.

[She looks closely into her screen, concerned.]

...Did something happen?

You know Xion, the friend of mine from back home that I've been living with? She's gone; sent back home.

[Lea sighs.]

I mean, I guess there's way worse things that could happen? She's back where she belongs, I'll still be working on helping her there, and I can still remember her here, but still... I miss her. The apartment feels really empty without her.

Hmm...

[Karla frowns.]

That's a shame...I was hoping to meet her one day...

I know it should be considered a good thing when people are sent home...but I know that doesn't stop those of us who remain from feeling sad...nor should it. I often remind myself that it's a good thing to be able to feel these emotions...happiness, sadness, or fear...but I know "normal" people wouldn't say that...

Edited 2018-05-16 05:51 (UTC)

It is good to be able to feel them. Definitely preferable to the alternative.

But yeah, while it's good that our friends are back where they belong, it doesn't make being separated from them any easier.

[pause]

Do you have any friends from back home that you especially miss?

[Karla nods in agreement, but then falls silent at Lea's next question. She doesn't even have to think about the answer, but she does need a moment to sort out all the thoughts and emotions that come rushing to her at the thought.]

...My brother. I've been searching for him for a long time. The whole reason I took up the sword was...to become closer to him.

[Lea nods.]

Sounds a little like me and Isa, back when we were kids. We both decided we wanted to be palace guards when we grew up because it was something we could do together. We aren't related, but we might as well have been back then; we did everything we could together.

[She lets out a sigh. Lea mentioning Isa briefly reminds her of his recent time as a youngster, but now isn't the time to gush about how adorable his younger self was.]

If only it was something we had decided together. My brother lives for the sword, and I...to be honest, I hate the sword...

[Head tilt. That clearly wasn't something he was expecting.]

Any particular reason why?

Well...do you remember that time? That time when I was consumed with a lust for battle? That's why. I fear that's what's happened to my brother. And...I fear that will happen to me eventually...for real.

[Lea frowned.]

I guess it's possible. I never met your brother, so I couldn't tell you how likely it is.

But I do know that if that's what happened, it's still possible to come back from it. Especially if you've got someone who cares about you.

[He smiles slightly.]

At least...in this world I have people who can pull me out of that hole...

[There's a faint hint of a smile from Karla as well, but it only lasts for an eyeblink. She can only think of the dark reality in her own world, where she wanders alone. And she has no one to blame but herself.]

Yeah. I'll always be there to bring my friends back.

[There's a more determination than usual in those words, given what's happened. Xion's vanishing here has only made him more determined to restore her and Roxas in his own world.]

Though I'm sure you'll find somebody back home to help you out there too, sooner or later.

[You'd think Ted would be an expert by now in this area, but instead he's using text so his voice won't waver.]

Best to fully feel what feelings you have. Then get what pleasures you can from what or, more importantly, whoever's left. And, as always, remember that mood is a product of what you think of. Focusing on loss always deepends a sense of loss, but focusing on positives will--you'll find out.

Sorry if that's too sententious.

Edited 2018-05-16 03:37 (UTC)

[Text? Alright, Lea can work with that, even if it means pausing in his scratching Fireball's ears.]

OK, two questions. One, how exactly do you 'fully' feel a feeling? I thought emotions were things that just sort of... happened, you know? And two, what does 'sententious' mean?

We've more control than that. I merely mean to express them healthily. So if you'd like to cry, give a good howl instead of getting a sore throat, say.

"Sententious" means moralizing, but irritating.

[Being so moralistic, it's a rare phenomenon for him.]

Ah, OK. Nah, it's not irritating, so don't worry.

[Maybe a bit moralizing,but he is trying to be genuinely helpful, so...]

And man, even if I was sure I wanted to, I don't even think I remember how to cry. Not like that anyway.

[Sure, he'd shed a tear at his and Roxas' final parting, but he wasn't even sure whether that was some sort of dream or not. And it was certainly nothing like the type of crying Ted seemed to be describing.]

[Doesn't remember? Either he's had a very cushy life for a long time, or he's been emotionally deprived somehow. Oh well; spilled milk...]

Well, emotional release is only one remedy. I'll list the others.

1. As I said, any intense pleasure, especially a contrary pleasure. In this case, the pleasure of company you still have.

2. The sympathy of friends. [Karla seems to be doing this already.]

3. The contemplation of truth. I've a few books on the matter, if you're interested.

4. Sleep and bathing. The Amagi Inn opens their hot springs to the public sometimes, and the onset of hotter climes has made them freer than usual.

Edited 2018-05-16 13:45 (UTC)

[Lea considers a moment before typing his reply.]

Sympathy I've got, so I'm covered there. And sleep too, though I'm not sure about bathing; well, not the kind that you mean, anyway. And the first part I can work on.

But I'm not sure what you mean by 'contemplating truth'. Because if it's just the concept in general, that covers a heck of a lot of territory.

The Amagi Inn is a very fine place to do just that. Though there's a different etiquette required than a swimming pool.

[He learned the hard way. Gee Ted, ya think?]

The effectiveness of that remedy depends on whether you love wisdom as, say, a Greek might. Contemplating things of divinity and the promise of future happiness ought to do better than, say, one like Plutarch or Aurelius.

[Lea will absolutely know who those are.]

Duly noted. Though come to think of it, I haven't been to a public swimming pool for quite a while either, if ever.

[He honestly couldn't recall if he'd been to one as a kid, or if that had even been a thing in Radiant Garden. True, they had plenty of fountains and things, but...

And then there's a bit of a long pause between Ted's next text and Lea's reply caused by Lea just... staring at it. He has no idea who either of those guys are. They sound vaguely like they might be from Olympus Coliseum, but beyond that, he's lost.]

...OK, sorry in advance for the terrible pun, but that's Greek to me.

[First crying, now this.]

Goodness, how much inexperience with water do you have? Perhaps Demyx should be consulted.

[In text he can't hear the dorky laugh that pun just got.]

I'll endeavor to accept the apology with due grace. They're Stoics, or close enough; espousing earthly contentment, which is very dry compared to moister things from, say, the saints.

Hey, I have plenty of experience with water; just not with swimming in it. I mean, I know how, but it's not something that comes up a lot when your thing is fire.

[That makes a bit more sense, but not a whole lot. At least it's enough for Lea to answer promptly.]

Ah, OK. I'll probably take a pass on those books though; they all sound pretty academic, and as any of my teachers would tell you, academics were never really my strong suit.

Those poor pedagogues. Well, that's all the advice I've got. Sorry about your loss; I know what that's like. Let me know if there's aught else I can do.

Thanks. Can't think of anything else right now, but I might just check out those baths.

Edited 2018-06-17 00:19 (UTC)

I am sorry to hear that you are down and sad...

I used to cook and clean more. [But she also hoped that a clean house and warm meal might lure her missing loved ones home.]

Sometimes... I try poetry. [While she drinks. She is not going to admit to drinking.]

Thanks. And I'll need to do some cleaning anyway, sooner or later.

[Xion didn't have a lot of stuff, but what she did have would need to be put away for safe keeping, and her room tidied.]

And do you mean writing poetry or reading it?

I would write it, sometimes. Usually, I just said it aloud... There were times when I just wanted the feeling to go away, so I turned it into noise. [Poetry was better than screaming. She didn't want to wake up Satoko, or her later housemates.]

Huh... I never thought of saying poetry aloud for that sort of thing. Well, not poetry I made up, anyway.

[Slight wry smile.]

Of course, I don't think I've ever made up anything more than the occasional dumb limerick, so that might be why.

I did often speak my poetry to my friends. Just to me. There were times when I did not want to write it down. I just wanted to get it out.

[He nods.]

Makes sense. And sounds similar to what I've heard musicians do when they're upset; put their feelings into music.

Murder.

[Lea gives the guy an annoyed look.]

First of all, no. Just no. Second, that's not really applicable here.

You asked for a distraction, Shitty Hedgehog Hair.

I asked for a helpful distraction. Not a homicidal weirdo with a haystack on his head.

[You insult his hair, he insults yours.]

Murdering your bitchy face would certainly be a helpful distraction for me.

You know, as much as part of me would love to see you try, trust me, it's not worth the trouble. Or the paperwork.

No shit it isn't. Your half-assed pleading and whining about nothing to do isn't worth any of my time.

Well then why'd you respond? And why're you still talking? Not like anybody's forcing you to.

Find something to make you laugh.

Brain chemistry and all that.

[Okay this is one he hasn't experienced himself because he's never laughed in his life, but the theory is sound.]

Probably good advice. Though a bit easier said than done.

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