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Remember the awards I mentioned, well I have some possible awards.

However I am not choosing who gets put on the nominations, that will be down to you. Please note that Best Guardian and Deputy won't need any because everyone who is a Guardian and Deputy is already automatically on the list.

But I do still need nominations for the following:

Best Dressed Male and Female
Best Cook
Best Dancer
Best Singer
Most Generous
Best Joker
Most Heroic
Cutest Couple
Best Network Poster
Best Newbie
Most Helpful
Best Friend To Have
Most Charming Smile
Most Likely To Kick Your Ass If You Meet Them In A Dark Alley
Most Badassed

We will also have a sort of like worst categories to, which will be as follows:

Worst Dressed
Unluckiest Person
Most Annoying
Most Likely To Get Punched In The Face
Most Likely To Be Forever Single
Most Likely To Accidentally Cause A War

If anyone else has anymore award possibilities they would like to add let me know. But for now have at you with nominations. To note I will be accepting nominations for the next two weeks and nominations will be announced shortly after I close off.

So good luck all~

[It was a couple more hours before Krista even turned on the device again, ruffling her hair slightly as she leaned back against her sofa.]

Alright, I should really come out and ask.... More so with something I saw recently, so I gotta ask peoples honest opinions. [She took a small breath for a moment, looking down at the device.]

What do people honestly think about those who choose every aspect of another persons life? I mean like everything? I'm asking for... personal reasons.

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[Krista crossed her arms slightly, honestly the more she thought about it she more she was starting to see how controlling her mother was. She was just use to it because it was all she had known her whole life. It was something she had honestly thought was normal that mothers were meant to be like that. With the things she knew about her parents as well... It made her wonder if the divorce was because of her controlling nature.]

One doesn't get much of a choice, I get that. I just felt it was wrong to think otherwise that the line 'Mother knows best' was always correct. She would do those things for my best interest. Though now I really think about it... Choosing who I can and cannot be friends with is probably a little too much.

[She remembered when she was finally allowed to go to school. To a high school and she saw people who barely knew each other, talk, make friends. Yet she was told of which people to talk to, who would be of benefit... That was probably her first sign that she choose to ignore.]

I know she want's what best and now I really think of it... I really did feel worthless if I made one small mistake with my dance routine. Felt stupid if I wanted to try something different in my acting or singing. I wasn't really allowed to be a teenager because I had to be the perfect actress. [She pauses.]

I know she loves me... In her own extremely strange way, but I guess it wasn't healthy... And that I do need to do things myself. [Now she laughs and rubs her hands on the back of her head.] However being an individual is not just scary but also confusing when one has had someone dictate their life for as long as they remember. So how exactly would one do that?

[She's been confused since she got here, but mostly found nice food out. Never did anything by herself.]

It always feels wrong until you realize that the only things forcing you to follow that doctrine are your own fears. You wanted her to love and respect you, right?

[ That's one of the reasons it's so terrifying- Weiss knows, because that's a huge part of what she wants from her father. Just for him to recognize that she's a human being and not another one of his possessions would've been a huge step, and it's why it's so dangerous that he actually conceded to her before, because now she wants to at least try instead of cutting him off. But that last part isn't something Weiss really realizes. ]

But it's never enough, and they always want more, and it doesn't matter what you want or what you know is right. The first step is taking a moment to decide who you want to be, rather than who you think you should be. It's not easy, and I wish I had all the answers, but.. it may just take some exploration. [ She gives an encouraging expression. ] Though it sounds like in your case diving into something without direction might be just what you need.

I guess. More wanting to make her happy than having love and respect.

[She knew she was at least somewhat cared about, but she always felt like she just couldn't make her happy no matter what she did. That's what she was always trying for. Just like she tries for everyone else. At least she could make her father happy when he was sad.]

Might be what I need? [It's like throwing someone into a hungry lions den, but she guessed that is the way to get someone to learn.]

Guess I can give it a shot, but if my apartment burns down because I've never learnt to cook correctly... then that is probably my own fault.

[ Well, that's fine if they have different motivations. She's glad Krista's doesn't intentionally try to make her feel bad about things so it's just about making her happy. It's still not healthy but it has to feel better. ]]

I mean it's not going to hurt you to take a class first in whatever you decide to do. I'm sure there are all sorts of classes through the cities' recreation centers that could give you a starting point without putting yourself and your neighbors in danger.

[ Be adventurous, not dimwitted and dangerous. ]

[But the second option sounds more fun. In all serious, to her it wasn't.]

They have classes in those kind of places?

[ She nods. ]

Typically, yes. I'm not sure which exact ones they offer right now. Schnee Company offers different workshops as well, like driving in Attleton and horseback riding in Fayren.

Horseback riding is a must I should do, so good to know.

[She can already drive at least, so that wasn't needed.]

Have you ever rode a horse?

I've been on one, but I wouldn't call myself an expert rider. The continent I grew up on is mostly ice, so horseback riding and dressage weren't as popular as they are in some other continents with the upper class. I focused more on my singing and studies as a child.

Were you a good singer when you were a child?

[Because that was at least one thing she knew she could talk about for ages.]

I was a good singer until I lost my voice here, but I've filled concert halls before.

How did you lose your singing voice? [A pause.] it wasn't drugs or anything was it? because that can mess a person up.

No, I died.

[ She tries to say that with as little weight as possible,but it doesn't really work. ]

I refuse to give up my memories. They make me who I am. I already gave up my ability to write to my sister for something else, and a lot of my skills..if I want any chance at being able to stay free from my father, I need them. I'm worth something without him. My singing.. even if it made me feel good, it was something he always used me for. It's not something I needed to be free, so that was what I chose to sacrifice.

[ Even if she doesn't need it, she still misses it. More than anyone could possibly know. ]

Ah, that makes sense. People do that the experiences we go through make us into the person we become. Abilities in reality don't matter in that aspect. Though there are exceptions, but I still get it.

[She felt like she would probably be one of those exceptions. if she lost anything like that, she'd be screwed magical girl wise because she would have to find a new career and would be unstable until then.]

Even the painful memories are still what got me to being who I am today; I'm not this version of me without them. Even the me in my memories from the Dream Docks.. I'm different than her because of what I've been through here. I'd agree with that wholeheartedly.

[ It's an attitude that took her a long time to find. For a long while, there was a lot of feeling sorry for herself and nearly drowning in PTSD and depression. It's still not 100% but she's seeing a therapist and she's taken steps and she's on the right path and that's important. It's also important that she sees it as a part of her story, perhaps its lowest point, not an ending to it. ]

As long as I still have the necessary skills to become the person I want to be, I'll survive.

Nice words to say. Mostly because they are true, life provides the tools and experiences you need, it's how one uses them... Which I guess will be something I will be doing more.

Juuuuust hope I don't end up doing anything too bad or something.

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