011 | my star has left me (to take the bitter pill)

[mortal_son]

[ AUDIO ] | [ Backdated to Monday afternoon ]

Uh, there -

[ There's some shuffling sound, like he's setting the phone up somewhere, still. ]

Right. So.

... I ain't good at this, either the talkin or the - well.

But just writin it seemed ... not enough, and. All of you are probably sick of seein my face, so.

[ There's a brief pause, before he goes on. He sounds very, very tired, but his voice is nonetheless serious, and firm. ]

I frightened the hell outta a lot of you.

I said a lot of stuff, some of it to some people I don't even know.

And, it's complicated, but I can say that - while it wasn't all me, it was a part of me. So, yeah, I ain't gonna pretend it isn't my fault.

I'm sorry.

[ He swallows. ]

I am sorry.

I'm not gonna. Just sit around feelin guilty, though. Not -

[ Coughs. ]

- Yeah. So.

Up to you if you take this seriously.

But let me know if I can make it up to you.

[ And then the audio is turned off. ]

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[ Audio | Private ]

[mortal_son]

[ Sighs, yet again. Takes another draw off the cigarette. ]

Like I said, it doesn't matter to me. But, seems like you've at least got yourself friends, with or without that heart.

[ Leans up against the wall of the entryway of his apartment. Maybe he shouldn't have come outside? Even if smoking seemed to be waking up part of his brain. A little. ]

Sometimes, you should support your friends.

Sometimes, you gotta punch them in the face, when they're being an idiot.

[ Another exhale. ]

And me? I was being really damn stupid.

[ Audio | Private ]

[melodiouspacifist]

It's nice. I like it, you know? It's a lot better than before.

[For better or worse, he's here now and he's just going to have to cope.]

Oh. Well would you like me to punch you now?

[He still sounds light, because he'd drop what he was doing if he wanted him to.]

I'm not the best judge of when people are doing stupid things, but I've got your back.

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[mortal_son]

All the more reason to take your time.

[ Liking the fact he was here, rather than under that Superior, was a start.

Shinjiro grins at the offer, unseen. There's probably amusement in his voice. ]

Nah. Already got knocked 'round a few times. Aki got that covered.

[ ... He's actually really touched, though. He's quiet, for a moment. ]

... Thanks.

[ Mumbles, feeling a bit guilty again - ] I really didn't know how many I got here, till this shit all went down.

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[melodiouspacifist]

[One step at a time really, that's all it was. He laughs at the amusement.]

Good then, if that's what you needed. [Shinjiro will just have to be a little more direct with Demyx, at least until he has a heart again.]

You're welcome!

[He pauses a moment, ready to offer some insight.]

I think it must be nice to know you have more friends than you thought. It's nice to know that someone will care if you're gone.

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[mortal_son]

[ He was quiet again, thinking that through.

Before, of course, since he thought he was going to die ... he would have really prefered otherwise. Hurting people wasn't something he wanted to do, after all. Bad enough, in a way, that Aki and Mitsuru showed up again, as selfishly happy as he was otherwise to have them.

But now ... ]

Yeah. I think you're right.